#notlove
my heart used to flutter
when you texted me
I would gush at every compliment
but then
I was impatient to be called yours
you cut our situationship off
and decided we should be just friends
it broke my heart
as tears streamed down my face
but soon enough
I accepted it as that
but then
you became distant
and stopped replying to me
you left me on read/seen
it made my heart heavy
and stomach churn
I stopped begging for
your attention
and affection
now I no longer care
I do not feel anything for you
my heart is steady
I don't look forward to
your texts
I barely think of you
I am done
done with this mess
I will wipe my hands of
this situation
and leave it in the past
Jun 3, 2025
Jun 3, 2025 at 4:40 PM UTC
As you fade into memory;
become a part of history;
i learn to live without your presence;
inspired by your mastery.
Will pain abandon me one day
the way love's always done.
Will it reject me in all ways
that only love's known how.
Is 'once upon a time' a thing?
Does 'ever after' still exist?
What happened to those princesses
After they got their prince?
As you fade into memory;
become a part of history;
my faith fades alongside of you
all i am left with - misery.#
Mar 9, 2024
Mar 9, 2024 at 6:27 AM UTC
dear chaser,
you had only one goal and yet you failed,
after all the chasing, how could you
leave so easily?
Mar 26, 2021
Mar 26, 2021 at 11:28 AM UTC
of my lucid dreams
innocence
snickering rumors
and all the dam things I threw away
because I thought we were in love
Feb 15, 2021
Feb 15, 2021 at 1:03 PM UTC
This is a love story
without love.
A love story
when we both said "i want you"
but im sure i did not lie.
A love story from your viewpoint,
not mine.
Of how and where
I am your mistake and you -
you were just weak.
A love story.
A love.
A story.
For you, a story.
For me, a love.
Mar 14, 2020
Mar 14, 2020 at 8:05 PM UTC
Your words call me forward
Arms draw me near
Hold me here forever-
How about we stay together?
Your love is a harpoon
Don’t seem so stressed-
I’ll polish it to perfection-
Until I see my heart’s reflection
Your warmth is my sun
Please keep me healthy,
And I promise to try and heal you-
Fix you up, just like new
Your crazy is my flame
stay forever in my heart,
Burn it to an ember-
Carving your name into its center
Your determination is my anchor
So let me be your captain,
Let’s sail these wild waters-
Lead this lamb to the slaughter
Your goodbye is my demise
Leave me here to rot
Broken and *****
Love, don’t you know you hurt me?
Mar 13, 2020
Mar 13, 2020 at 3:54 AM UTC
you told me you loved me
you told me "you are mine"
you told me you'd love me forever
you told me "you belong to me"
you told me I was your alpha & your omega
you told me "you are why I was born a man, to love you"
you told me you were going to marry me
you told me "I can never love another now"
you told me you'd never let me leave you
you told me "I'll put you in a box in the ground, before I'll let you go"
you told me you'd never hurt me
you told me "I'm going to **** you"
you told me you loved me.
love is not ownership
love is not obsession
love is not violence
love is not suppression
love is not breaking bones
love is not silence
love is not feeling alone
you saw me like you see
one of your treasured
first editions
a thing to show off
to brag about
to your mates
a thing to pick up
and put down
to keep locked up
to covet
a thing you own.
I loved you
when you were
my loving lost boy of the morning
I loved you
when at loves first bloom
you were sweet
passionate
gentle
kind
I loved you
when you made me feel safe
I loved you
before the strong arms
that held me close
broke my bones
and broke my heart
broke my faith
and tore it all apart.
J.C.
Feb 5, 2020
Feb 5, 2020 at 1:19 PM UTC
She is multi-faceted.
She is not a wallpaper.
If she could , she would,
but still,
she is a landscape.
Winks at him,
then leaves,
kisses another,
her intentions don’t comply,
creates as if they are crafts.
Voo-doo dolls
with prejudiced faith .
She is a princess
of all them towers.
She is a queen
of undisturbed motion
and vibrant colours .
Her attention span
is longer than her eyelashes
and lasts more than
your miserable
loving.
Nov 7, 2018
Nov 7, 2018 at 7:53 AM UTC
So you wanna put on a show.
**** momma that's a low blow.
Ya slick and you're sly like a crow.
Ya runnin' ta catch me , ya slow.
There's something that you gotta know.
Ya tell me to give what I owe.
In the darkness of lies , you glow.
Ya tasting the demon you grow.
Destruction ya sip on-the-go.
Now I'm rhyming and braking the flow.
Ya braking , deflating , do you need a tow?
In the light of day you're a ***
Oct 7, 2018
Oct 7, 2018 at 5:21 PM UTC
This is not a poem, 'tis a story
The story of how I went so far backwards
'tis the story of me falling in love
and falling... out of life
I fell for a girl, and I ****** her up, because I was scared
This is not a poem
I lost this amazing girl, and drank away my sorrows
Under age and a drunken mess
This is not a poem
I had a friend, she helped me through that mess
and I hurt her more than I ever knew or realised
I was too stuck in my own ****
drunk and high
escaping reality
again and
she left
This is not a poem
I realized that she had not left and she only escaped me dragging her down
I cannot connect or attach with anyone
For I have lost too much of myself
to take that thing away from
another person, because
is a ravaged thing and
I'm and untold lore
and this is not a
True Poem
'tis a story of
a brokenhearted
and pathetic little boy
who had not told his lore
to anyone, but one and thus
He realized 'tis not a story
to be told for anyone
written words here
This is not a poem
Jun 25, 2018
Jun 25, 2018 at 5:50 PM UTC
i only see what could've been.
your kind eyes,
warm smile,
strong arms,
wrapping me in ever so tightly.
i try to re-spark the fire,
but that boy is gone.
never to be seen again.
that's how i know it's not love.
Dec 30, 2017
Dec 30, 2017 at 4:38 PM UTC
i thought i loved you.
the way you called me princess,
or you called me yours,
how you declared me your favorite
and let me fall asleep in call.
how you messaged me when i couldn't sleep
even when you had work at 7 am
i really ******* thought i loved you,
and sometimes i think i still do,
but you made it really clear that you didn't love me
when you called her princess,
and claimed her as yours,
and said she was the most important person to you
how she fell asleep with you,
and how you helped her back to sleep,
even when you had work at 7 am
i sometimes still think i love you.
Nov 20, 2017
Nov 20, 2017 at 9:29 PM UTC
i do not wish to
soak
bathe
swim
immerse
linger
in
your scent.
for it is a reminder that you are not mine.
when you are done,
you leave me behind.
your scent,
in the place I sleep.
your scent,
suffocating me.
a reminder that we,
play for no keeps,
just our scents,
smothered in sheets.
Oct 16, 2017
Oct 16, 2017 at 2:57 AM UTC
I was consumed by liquor,
prompting my gates to open.
Out rushed the courage,
to share with you my emotions.
Oct 13, 2017
Oct 13, 2017 at 6:00 AM UTC
I'm the puppet, you the puppeteer
A master in how you control and steer
But the problem with being a puppet doll
Is that we don't know love at all
We simply do what you need
And hear ever plead
When we try to walk away
It's you that gets the last say
It's always I love you, said just the same
As if it's some sort of game
Of cat and mouse
But I'm a puppet, so you tightened the strings
Once you saw them you clipped my wings
Captivated by that siren song
It's okay I'll follow along
Sep 19, 2017
Sep 19, 2017 at 9:49 PM UTC
Because I love you I’ll hold your hand while we walk past your friends
But they won't see my grip, how white i'm growing at the fingertips
Because I love you, I’ll trust you with his number in your phone
Only till we get home, because then baby, his numbers gone
Because I love you I’ll hold your phone for you babe
And crush it beneath my feet when I even get the creeping feeling that you think of another girl
Because I love you, I’ll make your eye black and blue and show you this is what love is
I’ll set your house on fire baby. Is that girl pretty now?
Because I love you, I’m going to break your legs so you can't run away from my love
Why won't you let me love you baby?
Isn’t every bruise a reminder?
Isn’t every broken bone a kiss?
I love you baby
I won't do it again I promise
Aug 16, 2017
Aug 16, 2017 at 12:15 PM UTC
Every time I see your face,
My heart beats a little faster.
Every time I hear your words,
It's like I've gone back in time.
We're not meant to be,
So why can't I just move on?
I started depending on you too much,
and now part of me feels like it's missing.
You taught me things about myself and the world.
I can never thank you enough.
You introduced me to new sounds,
that now make me think of you.
My heart aches for what we had,
But we can't go back.
Jul 14, 2017
Jul 14, 2017 at 10:27 AM UTC
the thing about me
is that I crave intimacy.
but I've grown up in this way
of believing that two people can never really connect
when there's fabric between their bodies
so I part my lips,
and I kiss your skin,
desperate to feel like I am part of something.
I listen to our breaths
and feel our bodies synchronize,
reaching out with my mind,
hoping somehow it'll mingle with yours.
But two souls can't connect
when it's just another, ****
and when I open my eyes,
I allow guilt to settle in
vulnerable and naked,
with remnants of burning fingers on my skin.
May 19, 2017
May 19, 2017 at 3:52 PM UTC
It's easy to move on from someone you know,
So why can't it be the same with someone you deeply care about?
Nov 25, 2016
Nov 25, 2016 at 7:23 AM UTC
Loving him was winter
Summer never returned.
Even now that he's gone
For the harsh, cold chill
of his touch,
I still yearn.
I crumble the roses
And cut down the ferns
Praying to an unknown god
That my lovers burning
Chill of wrath will
Once more
Return.
Apr 16, 2016
Apr 16, 2016 at 4:41 AM UTC