#loveofmylife
I call you my nerd,
not for the word,
but for the way your eyes light up
when you fall into details
tiny facts, long explanations,
worlds you love so much
you invite me to live in them with you.
You speak, and time slows.
Every sentence is a doorway,
every passion a map of your heart.
I listen, not just with my ears,
but with the part of me
that already knows you matter.
And your smile
warm as morning sunlight through curtains
finds me even on my darkest days.
It pulls a smile from my own lips
before I realize I was smiling at all.
It feels like home
discovering itself in my chest.
I love you deeply,
in the quiet way that prays instead of shouts.
In the way that fears loss
because it has found something irreplaceable.
I don’t want a world
where you are only a memory.
So if reality ever dares to loosen its grip,
let me keep you at least in my dreams
where you are mine,
where your voice never fades,
where your smile always finds me,
and where love
doesn’t have to ask permission to stay.
Jan 15
Jan 15, 2026 at 5:05 PM UTC
There are things people wish they could say
But with you I have no regrets
I've poured my heart out to you,
Spoken every thought.
I wonder what makes you different
Why you've stayed
I love you in a way
I've never known before
I only have hopes for the future
Longing for what could be...
I can't wait to come home to you
Feel your presence in our house,
Always have your smell in my sheets.
Can't wait to fall asleep in your arms
To wake up next to you
Goodnight would no longer be a kind of goodbye
It'd be just that,
A good night.
We're just kids, it's dumb love, right?
We'll never make it through all of life
We'll fall apart, life creating walls to separate us.
Is it even love? Or just lust that feels right?
Boys are only looking for ***
Looking to use, they're only there for your body.
Then how do you explain the peace of him?
How I'm filled with pure happiness when I see his eyes?
How the ache in my chest eases?
How it feels as if I've become whole?
And what about the indescribable feeling of his love?
Every kiss is full of love, nothing else and nothing less.
Every touch is gentle and caring,
I feel the love in his fingertips.
He holds me and tells me he loves me
Tell me why my heart gains another beat?
Why him holding my face with delicate hands,
Feeling his forehead against mine,
Seeing the pure love radiating in his eyes,
Causes me to feel a way even writing hasn't described?
What "dumb love" changes the way you experience life?
What kind of lust leaves you feeling whole, wanted, satiated, needed, and loved?
Love rules over all.
My God is love.
He is all-powerful
Love, in its true form, is all-powerful.
Earthly things have nothing against us,
Only the will of our God could separate us.
Even if we do break up,
Even if we split apart,
It couldn't ever be all for naught.
He took all of the firsts that mattered
And I gave him the ones that mattered most.
I could never have another lover.
No one could, can, or will be him.
Many have his name,
It'd be easy to find another,
But names aren't what hold significance
It's the heart that does.
No one will ever have a heart like his.
Even if we do break up,
Even if we split apart,
I'll always remember him
As my first and only love.
There are many people who have things they wish they could say
Many who wish choices could be undone
But with you I have no regrets, not even one.
I've poured out my heart to you,
Spoken every thought.
I'll wonder what makes you different
Why you've stayed
And I'll still love you in a way
I've never known before
My body, heart, and mind are yours.
You didn't take them
You didn't demand them
You didn't force them
You earned them.
You waited.
And when I gave them to you,
Let you have them,
Wanted you to have them,
You loved every piece,
Wanted every scar.
You accepted them with open, waiting arms,
A loving smile on your face
As you wrapped me in your embrace.
You hold all of me with a loving touch,
Are gentle with my most fragile parts,
And even with the resilient ones.
It hurts to be apart,
My heart aches when he's away.
I cherish every message,
Scrabble for every lingering touch.
I crave to be with him.
I crave to love him.
I crave to tell him all the sweet words that float around in my mind when I think of him.
I need him like I need air to breathe.
Good thing every breath of his is another one of mine.
There'll always be things people wish they could say,
Always be someone who wishes to turn back the clock,
Someone who wishes they could start over.
But with you I have no regrets.
I've poured out my heart to you,
Spoken every thought.
One day I'll forget to wonder what made you different
Why you stayed
Because I'll always love you in a way,
I've never known before.
Oct 26, 2025
Oct 26, 2025 at 11:55 PM UTC
Empty feelings enhanced by empty bottles by empty hands.
Lasting and longing the lasting warmth longing for again.
Crying your tears while crying your point since the town crier died.
Forgetting your heart while forgetting your first kiss, forget.
Moved on, not you but them, Moving in a new life, a new partner. Moving long passed where you have your memories stored that are fresh as the day, like the smell of holidays or your best friends house. Funny how you remember, you remember these things. Those memories are just memories. It's time to anew and start forwarding your own mind. There is nothing you could have done. There is nothing you could have done to keep these from just being memories.
Dec 30, 2024
Dec 30, 2024 at 10:58 PM UTC
I will always smile
When my thoughts run to you
Your soft touch
Your honey filled smile
Those handsome blue eyes
Your gentle laugh
Your hopeful eyes
The way you protect me
I'm glad our paths crossed
You make my heart flutter
You kiss me
In a way
I will always
R E M E M B E R
Feb 10, 2021
Feb 10, 2021 at 10:40 AM UTC
I'm sorry
I take for granted that you will understand
That you will feel what I feel
How I'm feeling so sad and disappointed inside
I'm sorry
I forgot that you are not an adult
That you are still a tiny little boy
How I should not burden your small shoulders with my worries
I'm sorry
I must remind myself that I'm the parent
That you are merely a child, my child
How I should be the one looking after all
I'm sorry sugarbum
I really am
Jun 30, 2020
Jun 30, 2020 at 9:49 AM UTC
Aslan
You make me want to write
My most inner thoughts
May they are vulnerable and raw
You make me want to feel them all
I look at you and I see innocence
One I wish I can protect with all my might
One I wish will last forever and a day
One I wish shall remain pure as ever
You filled me up with your candid love
Your cheeky grins and contagious laugh
You make me feel I'm on top of the world
Your love so grand, I am so shy and honoured
Aslan
You are my love, my favourite person
Your little self ain't so little no more
You are my reason to work endlessly hard
Your entire being I won't let be full of woes
I love you lil lion of mine
Jun 28, 2020
Jun 28, 2020 at 10:37 AM UTC
I can hear him through the walls
Hear him run here and there
He is playing by himself
Lost in his own personal space
Sometimes he will shout out loud
Or he will have imaginary scenarios
Most of the time he is a superhero
Going around saving innocent lives
Yet when I enter the room
He will stop and look at me
I will then feel his tiny arms around me
His love forever engulfing me
Even when you're old like me
Even when you have your own family
Even when you're busy as a bee
You, my darling, will always be my baby
I love you, son. You are my Aslan in the kingdom of Narnia. Always and always. Eternally.
Jun 26, 2020
Jun 26, 2020 at 9:42 AM UTC
Have you ever wondered
About the youth of your parents
How do they look like
How have they been brought up
How did they meet
How did they fall in love?
How did they make us?
I had these questions with me since i grow up
Probably because my parents aren't that open up
Probably because they were so busy raising us up
Probably because its an Asian thing i assumed privacy as such.
So somehow, to me, parents’ life before us were so blurry and doesn't seem to ever existed
Not until the day i had my mom on the back of the scooter
As we rode to the temple where we store the leftover of our beloved dad
She told me about their past
A young guy in his teenager days
Lay eyes on her as they met on a communal working day
He asked for her hand before summoned military service
Not directly to her but through a relative
She forgot him as soon as she left for college
Busy chasing her love life, never heard from him in thousand days, he was too far away.
When the war over, he returned home, she was working in a distant village
He refused my grandpa’s arrangement, went on a journey to seek
For his first and only girl he ever fallen in love with
He found mom after her 5 or 6 failure romances.
They started distant relationship for a while before getting married.
She continued working in the faraway village and he returned to military service
To serve in another “nonsense war” (this is my words)
And honestly i still cant imagine how did they make us
‘Cause i never seen them holding hands, showing affection in front of us
But its real - they do fall in love
They do have their heyday before us
And even though i never seen them talking about love
I now realized its just a different way of showing how they love
By fighting; yet, taking care of each other for better or worse
By sometimes hurting each other...
But at the end of the day, one can change other’s diaper when he can no longer move
I cant tell if he was the love of her life when she decided to tight the knot.
But looking at her shivering shoulder, her teary eyes now every time we talk
About our beloved and only man
and whatever reminded us of him
I can think of nothing to explain but love
Have you ever wondered
How did our parents live before having us?
And how would you tell your future children
About your youth...
May 19, 2020
May 19, 2020 at 5:32 AM UTC
When you will go outside, find me
I am warmed with you
Lingering overjoyed for you
If you cant find at me
You keep ****** me in your heart
You can read my eyes
What is indeed requested to claim
Why I am smirking at you
Being you are there
Formerly occupying my heart and embracing my soul
Apr 25, 2020
Apr 25, 2020 at 11:23 AM UTC
I am so grateful for you
For making me the happiest I’ve ever been
For making me feel loved
For making me feel safe
And for always reminding me how special I am
I have never loved anyone like I love you
You keep me going
And inspire me to do better
You’re the answer to my prayers
You are the one
The one who I want to build a future with
No matter how hard it may get
I will love you unconditionally
For you are
The love of my life
Nov 11, 2019
Nov 11, 2019 at 1:20 AM UTC
As I walked over through the piles of people I came close
As I approached the love of my life I touched his back twice to get his attention
Looking to the left I could clearly see the sweat fall off other people
The faces of others.....so happy and drunk with love...literally
Finally, finally he saw me.
With our eyes finally gazing at each other and our hearts beating I felt his warmth as he hugged me
My soul was swept away by his loving eyes
As I began to talk he gazed at me and I spoke about 3 words then he just plunged his lips upon mine
5 seconds felt like eternity for me
It was as if all he wanted was that one last kiss. All he wanted was to feel my lips one last time
As we removed ourselves from each other I was still in his arms gazing up at him as he was looking down at me
I was taken back without a word
I could say nothing but stare up at him
His lip were warm and wet I could feel his spit in my mouth
May sound gross to you but glorious to me
Finally after realizing that we were staring too long he turned his attention to another and that was it
My last dance with my one true love
I don’t think I will ever have a moment like that again
The truth is I realized in that moment I still love him I never stopped
I will never love another like I love him.
Apr 4, 2019
Apr 4, 2019 at 8:59 PM UTC
Seeing you
is like opening an old door
to sunshine and warm breeze,
after hunkering indoors all winter.
Touching you
is like diving into the ocean for the first time,
the bubbles fizzling and the current playing with your toes.
Hearing your voice
is like Home got up and started talking,
and its favorite song is laughter.
Smelling you
is the familiar scent I’ve always known
but could never figure out from where,
until I met you.
Feb 14, 2019
Feb 14, 2019 at 8:40 PM UTC
Don't take it off
He said, tears in
His eyes stinging
As his heart had
Begun falling apart
The girl, love of his
Life took off her ring
Set it in his hand, she
Too was falling to pieces
As a crowd sung along on
The TV screen, love of my
Life don't leave me...
Jan 23, 2019
Jan 23, 2019 at 9:56 AM UTC
I never thought that I would meet someone like you.
Someone so infuriating, frustrating, and annoying.
Someone that makes me want to pull out my hair and slam doors.
Someone that can make me cry with just one word.
I never thought I would meet someone like you.
Someone that rubs my back while I’m falling asleep.
Someone that literally sweeps me off my feet.
Someone that loves to run his fingers through my hair while I tell him about my day.
Someone who opens the doors that I slam just to make sure we don’t go to bed angry.
Someone who wipes my tears away when I told him about how I lost my best friend.
“You might have lost all of them,” he says to me one sad night. “But you will never lose me.”
Dec 4, 2018
Dec 4, 2018 at 11:35 AM UTC
Closing my eyes, dancing in my own melodious way,
The sea-shore is moving fast,
The moonlight is shinning,
He's looking at me intently like i am the most beautiful thing he ever happened to see, "A Thousand Years" is playing, as i can see the love in his eyes for me,
As i dance, i dance like no one else exist but i and him,
I see him standing near the hut which is beautifully filled with petals and candles,
I know what his gorgeous green-eyes are saying to me,
I know,
After all the consequences,
We did it.
Oct 4, 2018
Oct 4, 2018 at 4:29 PM UTC
When all my world had turned to grey,
Colour had gone and nothing stayed.
Reality was harsh to withstand,
Dream was the only solace.
When all seasons grew worse,
An Eastern wind was the only support.
Someone from east;
Predestined or preplanned from heaven,
Blew soothingly in my life then.
A bond much stronger nurtured within,
Something was clear ,would last forever.
Someone was the change,
Shooting stars had crossed the sky again.
Life had never been so beautiful before,
Colours were brighter and vibrant more.
Knew not I then, rock heart replaced
by softer when.
Tuning of life had slowed down,
Rythm of heartbeat had paced up.
I knew that Someone was the
Change.
Looking in the eyes of love ,
I knew I had found my precious man.
Colours had never gone, seasons
were not the same.
He was the change, he is the change.
He is the one, he is my gain.
Jun 13, 2018
Jun 13, 2018 at 2:15 PM UTC
So tired of being the one.
So tired of being the one…
So tired of letting go…
So tired of always, having to be the
One to let you know;
That You are the one!
The one who brings me love…
When I am all alone.
The one who has always been there for me;
Even when the rest of the world was wrong.
I’m so tired of being the one;
So tired of letting go.
I’m so tired of being the one who always,
Has to be the one to let you know.
I wish the truth I could show,
So you would truly know.
My woman I’m in love with you,
I thought that I, should try this time; so please don’t go!
I love you all the same!
I love you like I did the first time, you smiled at me.
I saw in your eyes, your love and all your pain.
I love you all the same!
I love you to the grave.
I love you for the rest of my life,
But the love of my life; I’m yet to know your name.
I’m so tired of being the one;
So tired of being alone.
So tired of being the one to tell you,
Please my love, I need you; come alone.
I need to be with you;
I need to speak the truth.
I need to tell you, I can’t live without you;
I need you more than you ever truly knew.
So let me be the one;
Don’t let me be alone.
Let me know, so I don’t have to,
Be the one to, have to let you go.
So tired of being the one,
So tired of being alone.
So tired of being the one who has to,
Tell you how I feel!
Just tell me what you want!
Your wish is my command.
I love you, do you love me too?
Be with me now
Or I shall forever be alone…
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Apr 22, 2018
Apr 22, 2018 at 6:04 PM UTC
I just feel like I’m dying inside without you here by my side my life in shambles from havoc that I wrought. No one to blame but myself now living with the consequences of not having you the only one I ever truly loved knowing that I have caused you heartache and pain I’ll never be the same alone wondering in the darkness. Looking for that amazing life we shared in this universe as my soul gets pulled into the portals with nothing that I can do to stop it you’re my balance yin to my yang my elemental my soulmate
Mar 31, 2018
Mar 31, 2018 at 2:42 PM UTC
You don't drive me crazy the way he does
You don't
Make me reckless, obsessed, sleepless
Holding something I thought would slip
But an illusion that was never there
You don't make me beg for your love
Maybe you don't
Ignore all my feelings, hide my heart under my sleeves
Making August January in one blink
Plumbing my heart into nitrogen gas
But You don't know what you did to me
The party your eyes found my figure in the crowd
the hoarse confessions of love,
Besides my ears, hot breaths and strong arms
Holding me tight even when you sleep
Burying your face in my neck, calling it home
Pulls me into the shower against you and kiss me
wet and willing, until I run out of breaths
Dinners and Carafe, collars and leashes.
The way you look at me, eyes full of love.
So if they ask me if you are my type,
whether you make my heart go mad
I would smile and say no
My heart doesn't go mad, because it found home
You are not my type, you are the love of my life
Feb 14, 2018
Feb 14, 2018 at 9:07 AM UTC
Stay a while
let me be the comfort
that you need so bad
I will make you tea
and put some sugar
and honey in it
because i know
you need something
sweet in your life
Oct 11, 2017
Oct 11, 2017 at 12:52 AM UTC
In the middle of a field
down in the country
where the moon lights
our path
and the stars put on
a show for us
with you wrapped
around my small body
and your lips dancing with mine
Oct 11, 2017
Oct 11, 2017 at 12:44 AM UTC