#lostsouls
Nobody warned me
about the sound of skeleton laughter,
ribcages shaking like bells,
airless chuckles cracking hot night,
slipping through closet slats
into my skull.
It was fine with just Meg:
supermodel cheekbones,
a jaw that could steal my name.
We shared the closet,
my jackets brushing her collarbone.
your flesh prison
can't wear that many anyway.
Then came her sister,
then another,
until nine of them
rattled teacups at 2 A.M.,
dripping through the floorboards.
My shirts fled to the hall.
I dream of a thunder
that silences their bones.
They call it a ****** of crows -
but what waits in the dark,
rattling its teeth
for the last of you,
is a plague of skeletons.
Aug 2, 2025
Aug 2, 2025 at 3:47 PM UTC
You used to be my best friend,
now its like i never existed.
I used to be your best friend
now its like you never existed.
Thanks for the help dad
i try not to be mad
but knowing you choose
drugs, Burglary
living on the streets
Over a relationship with me.
makes me wonder
why I'm not good enough..
You don't even have to give that up.
Just wish you'd call and say what's up.
Do you sleep peacefully?
Is there any guilt or remorse
when you think of me?
do you even realize
what you did to me
when the personal creator
who birthed me
Tragically departed the earth early
only two weeks after turning 18.
You were nowhere to been seen
searching for your teen.
Her heart
she let open bleed
at that fateful scene.
But if you're wondering,
I'm alive and occupied,
attempting to mend
These shattered dreams of mine
I don't despise.
But I do wonder why
I was a sweet young girl
taking on a new lonely world.
You'd be proud to know,
i conquered it great
with no supports
and did what it takes
to adapt and outlast.
Forced to mature too fast
i forgive as a daughter,
but as a father
i can never understand
abandonment as your plan
thus forfeiting
being a man.
Grieving you,
but your not dead
Your lost in your head.
Eighteen -
supposed to be
when my life started..
But everything i loved,
departed.
Grieving a mother
Wondering
what happened to my father
Its not fair to me,
nor to the men i meet,
that i want them to fill the emptiness
that you could easily complete.
I run when I feel love.
I'm terrified to open up.
For they may take it and run
I will do me.
You do you.
Once i fully make peace with the truth
I can be the me
that was free
and full of life
before you disrupted my upbringing
------
Now I'm 28.
I've processed the pain
And I'm done playing
the waiting game.
I no longer wish for you to care.
To be there.
I accept what is here.
Ive had many nights
Where I wasn't alright
Flashbacks arrive
The little girl
wonders why.
But, I did something different this time
As I seen her in my brain
I allowed the pain.
Drop out of my mind
And into my body.
Experienced fully.
Hyperventilating,
body convulsing
Hardly breathing
I finally let my body feel
the pain I felt was real.
I never allowed it.
So I never healed.
The inner child,
She had to die
So I can mature
And start to raise
my standards high.
1/3/26
Jul 16, 2025
Jul 16, 2025 at 4:00 PM UTC
I saw
in the streets —
dead people
walking;
(tiptoeing...)
They’re
not deceased,
nor are they
alive.
I saw
in the streets —
that desperate
hustle;
(grinding...)
They’re
not hungry,
nor are they
satisfied.
I saw
in the streets —
the filthy rich
and the poor;
(begging...)
They’re
not affluent,
nor are they
the *******
I watched,
and wondered —
am I
one of them
too?
I saw
in the streets —
the appetite
for more;
(hungry...)
They’re
not content,
nor are they
dissatisfied.
I saw
in the streets —
dead people
walking;
(tiptoeing...)
They’re
not deceased,
nor are they
alive.
No one’s
screaming,
but I still
hear the
sirens —
As they
pick up
the dead
people
walking.
Jul 1, 2025
Jul 1, 2025 at 11:25 AM UTC
"O, you who march toward hell, embrace death—it is your only chance to escape alive.
Oh, you are oblivious to hope, beware—you stand on the brink of losing it forever.
Oh, you lingering at the edges of oblivion, existence is no game of hide-and-seek—find yourselves before you vanish.
You who arrive here know you are already among the departed. Calm your fears, for the worst has yet to come.
O, you who weep for the past, dry your tears. The past was once the present, but the future… the future will never be."
May 22, 2025
May 22, 2025 at 7:27 PM UTC
The loud, hollow siren of the ship's horn jolted the sleepy, port town.
She emerged out of the swirling mist like a star making a grand entrance. Only she wasn't a star but a ship that had been missing for the past hundred years...The Lost Ship of the Raving seas docks again after so many years after going extinct. I don't know how but mysteriously the ship appears out of thin air as the sea mist sets and gives to it a very dark and Gloomy hue other dark seas giving to you chills up your spine. As the Cool air sets in, a frostbite of cold winds in the air, the lost souls of a forbidden ship, dwells within, This ship has History, many years ago, of the dark high seas, and all of the lost souls. The Lost Ship of the Raving seas is the only thing that has happened to the Real Ones that have been taking out of this forsaken world. They may have perished, but their Lost Souls still inherit and dwell upon this Lost Ship!!! 🛳 Legends say: you can still here their screaming souls!!!
B.R.
Date: 5/14/2025
May 14, 2025
May 14, 2025 at 11:23 PM UTC
I. Glass & Ghosts
Writing my name in a mirror of breath,
watching it vanish like I was never here.
Flesh remembers what time forgets,
but the winter smiles—
as if it knows something I don’t.
II. Streets & Scars
The city hums with untold stories,
where fathers are echoes
and lovers are lost in the fog.
Blind footsteps, heavy with fate,
scars rise like prayers in the wind.
III. Fire & Falling
Lungs filled with the weight of old wars,
teeth clenched against regret’s bite.
Stars don’t whisper,
they scream.
And some nights, I swear,
they burn just for me.
IV. Midnight & Memory
The river carries reflections of ghosts,
the moon is a silent witness.
Some things break quietly.
Some things burn forever.
Feb 28, 2025
Feb 28, 2025 at 11:10 AM UTC
Time drips slow like falling rain,
upon a heart weighed down with pain.
A thousand thoughts fill up my mind,
but no place left for peace to find.
By the sea, the wind still calls,
whispering stories through hollow halls.
Beneath the moon, beneath the sky,
I watch the stars and wonder why.
My soul is torn, yet still I smile,
walking cold and lost for miles.
The sun once warm, now barely light,
shadows stretch into the night.
I hold my breath, I close my eyes,
feel the fire where silence lies.
A single dream, a fleeting touch,
a whispered hope, but never much.
My hands still shake, my lips still burn,
for memories that won’t return.
The truth is heavy, life is loud,
the past is just a drifting cloud.
Yet in the dark, I still believe,
that something waits, beyond the grieve.
For even lost, we still remain—
a whisper carved into the rain.
Feb 28, 2025
Feb 28, 2025 at 1:44 PM UTC
I can only imagine the pain you have
All the signs and yet,
Everyone was oblivious
We pushed you so far away,
That there was no time for mending
Or goodbyes
I’m sure the thought of suicide
Has crossed your mind,
More than a thousand times.
So sickening to think…
I tried so hard to help you
In the many ways one could.
I never judged you…from the bottom of my heart, I love you.
I love a poor soul that is
Frail, Hurt, Alone
A soul that no Hospital could fix.
A soul I watch grow,
A soul that lost their way home
So sickening to think…
That we sleep peacefully at night
Knowing you’re maybe fine, maybe safe
So sickening to think…
Your birthday passed,
And no one blinked
While I was thinking of you all day
And hoped you got cake
So sickening to think…
I can’t sleep at night.
Flashbacks of your face.
Jun 13, 2021
Jun 13, 2021 at 1:53 AM UTC
We are lost souls
tired of trying
tired of being alone.
We are lost souls
who want someone to save us
and looking something ; someone
to hold onto.
Mar 26, 2021
Mar 26, 2021 at 12:17 PM UTC
I was fine
I was not fine
I was good
I was not good
Satan stirred the *** and I ate from it
Food that nourished my body
Yet poisoned my soul
It was dying
Jun 26, 2020
Jun 26, 2020 at 6:42 PM UTC
"Excuse me officer, could you help me find my soul?"
"She went out last night and didn't come back home."
We got into an argument before she left.
She felt in my body she could no longer rest.
So long I denied her the light she desired.
She grew weak and hungry, she was tired.
"Excuse me officer, could you help me find my soul?"
"She went out last night and didn't come back home."
Jun 26, 2020
Jun 26, 2020 at 6:14 PM UTC
Somewhere between
the wind and
the rain
we missed the
beautiful rainbow
Jan 10, 2020
Jan 10, 2020 at 4:38 PM UTC
This one man gave her everything she needed
He gave her laughter, comfort, strength, and piece of mind
He is her knight in shining armor
He makes her feel like a queen
Even when she is low
The sound of his voice raises her higher
He is her light in the darkness
He is her rock, her missing piece
Her soul had found the one she has been looking for
c.m.l.
Mar 10, 2019
Mar 10, 2019 at 5:54 PM UTC
Far away is not far enough
The red dust covers my feet
I walk and leave prints
But no one sees
Far away and forgotten
I float inches above the earth
My brooding eyes look about
Too many faces turn away
Red is the earth and red is my heart
I long for messages from afar
The spirits of the land whisper
And let me know that I am ok
I turn my back on past and present
Residing in this rocky place
Where what happens happens
Outside my being outside my space
It is my home and I belong
It gives me peace
Where I sing my song
Sep 26, 2016
Sep 26, 2016 at 6:59 AM UTC
Malign Shadows Lurk in Darkness
Sanctioned Souls Condemned and Heartless
Deviants of the UnHoly
Destroyers of Light
Cursed Phantom Death hunting DayLight
Slaves of Perdition, Martyr and Chaos reigns High
Trapped and Cursed to Consume Light
Wicked and Lustful Users of Darkness
Satan Consumer of Souls Hungry for Holy Light
Abandoned Souls seeking Forgiveness
Relentless Spirits Confined in Emptiness
Soulless Harlots Lost in Darkness
Seeking Petition from Your Royal Highness...
Aug 6, 2016
Aug 6, 2016 at 6:25 PM UTC
I will always be devout
I will always take your word
Guided by your shouts
Anointed by your slurs
I wear this crown of spoons
So feed me til I'm hurt
Stab a fork into my hands
For sliding mine into dessert
Praise be
Feb 28, 2016
Feb 28, 2016 at 11:43 AM UTC
*You find me
Lost souls drifting
I recognise your pain
I do not ask for you
You just come
I can not fix you
But I will listen
I will set you free
When you are healed
To carry on
Without me*
(C) Pixievic 2016
Feb 16, 2016
Feb 16, 2016 at 3:32 PM UTC
No one and nothing can bring me back from tipping over the edge.
Everyday I fought a battle with every last ounce in me even though my whole body screamed at me not to and to give in and surrender.
Someone has to win this war and I have a pretty good idea of who it is.
Fighting with every atom of my being just to do a simple thing as living.
We were all once happy children with big hearts but the devil came over to a selected few and stole our souls.
My happy ending is near and though it might be a sad and wasted life I lead I want to die in peace and happiness.
For the first time I am speaking for myself instead of through the misguided quotes of books and song lyrics.
That's a good ending.
To find your voice and then die.
Oct 12, 2015
Oct 12, 2015 at 3:48 PM UTC