#leaveme
Depression
My old friend
Oh my, oh my
Where have you been
You creep back into me
Ever so sneakily.
How i wish, we can make amends
After all this time spent
My old friend,
You cut me open
Then stitch me closed.
My tears flow and flow
Scars open
Bleeding out into the unknown.
Then,
Just like that
You shut me off.
Disassociated,
Now I am numb
To the bone.
My old friend,
It is either all or nothing with you.
Well I am sick
Of having to come up with reasons
Of why I am not feeling well.
I’m through with you.
Out, Out,
Gone be.
You are not me.
I will not be defined by the lies you shout and whisper to me.
My old friend, you will not take me with you
I have worked too hard,
Towards light,
To stay on my own path.
My mind has blossomed and my heart has been watered
You will not **** me dry.
Leave me, Leave me
Let me be.
-k.c
Apr 2, 2021
Apr 2, 2021 at 1:14 PM UTC
When I am by myself
I just sit there
My eyes unfocused
Completely trapped in my mind
As I feel my chest sink
And my heart breaking
I realize
I am alone
The three words echo
Louder in my head
Than a broken glass
In an empty auditorium
I have waited
For calls that never came
Love,
That was never given back
I believed
I could love other people
So much that I could one day
Eventually
Love me too
But when everyone you love leaves
Apart of you, leaves you
too
Even if they come back
I continue to greet them
with open arms
But never forgetting
And Always reminded, Every time
No matter how hard I love
How much I give
That I am easy to let go
People see me whole
But every time
I look in the mirror
All I see, is everything that’s missing
I fill my holes with lies
And short term happiness
It’s easy to not notice
What’s missing beneath the surface
If all I choose to show
Is my smile
But not the pain behind it
The twinkle in my eye often
Confused for happiness
I avoid superficial conversation
But lack the words
To say what I feel deep inside
I am mute to expressing my pain
Sober,
I drown myself in people
To silence my own mind
Until once again
I find myself alone
Unable to hold back the tears
Of how much
I cannot stand
To be left by myself
With my own thoughts
I don’t have trust issues
I have abandonment issues
For I consistently convince myself
That everyone I love will leave me
Like they have
So many times before
And honestly I understand
To look at myself
From someone else’s shoes
With an insiders perspective
And given the choice
To leave me...
I probably would too
Aug 3, 2020
Aug 3, 2020 at 10:49 PM UTC
you disappoint me
even when I had
expected you would,
you make me learn
my lessons once,
twice
and three times,
you are the morale
of my story
that leaves
me
before I even get to
fold page 1.
Apr 12, 2020
Apr 12, 2020 at 1:54 AM UTC
"You're boring"
I know...
"what's there to love about you?"
Please...stop...no...
"this isn't working out"
I thought we were meant to be?
"I'm leaving"
please...
don't....
leave....
me
Feb 15, 2020
Feb 15, 2020 at 9:32 AM UTC
Please leave me be
For I know that I'll never be enough
For what you seek
Don't use those shining eyes
To look at me or lure me in
For I can see straight through those lies
You burned me once
And I know that's once enough
I do not want your touch
I know love is not
What you want from me
So stop sinking your teeth
Please leave me be
For I can do better
Than a beast
Apr 20, 2019
Apr 20, 2019 at 10:51 AM UTC
My rhymes, they chime.
The truth between the lines.
My time, short lived.
Inside of my mind;
I’m grime.
I want my scrubbing bubbles-
My troubles always double when you
Try to wash me away.
And I, will always stay.
An ancient crime of whine
I shall present to you.
But what would it matter?
You always play the victim of abuse,
And misuse.
You dilute the minute
Necessities you think you don’t need.
But when they’re gone,
You find it hard to breathe.
Mar 28, 2019
Mar 28, 2019 at 7:44 PM UTC
And even roses,
they get crushed.
By wicked motive
we still trust.
No matter what I try;
these thorns.
You always pass my garden by.
Alas, let me mourn.
Nov 19, 2018
Nov 19, 2018 at 2:21 PM UTC
Gravity.
It holds me down with an iron fist.
At least that's what I tell myself.
It pins me to my bed,
Not letting me get up to do anything.
I finally defeat it,
But he is not a forgiving force and he keeps pulling me down.
I want to get up,
But it's strength is more then I can handle.
Gravity.
I just want you to leave me alone,
Though if I'm being logical,
I'm not sure if you're the thing holding me down,
But if you are as John Mayer would say,
"Gravity, stay the hell away from me."
May 22, 2018
May 22, 2018 at 1:08 PM UTC
You left me with
words I can't remember
and memories I wish
to forget.
Mar 20, 2018
Mar 20, 2018 at 3:46 PM UTC
My body's but a host for all my many thoughts.
They get stuck in my veins when trying to reach my heart.
My lungs squeeze them in and out as they slowly struggle across,
My windpipe made of words to slip past my lips of art.
They crash around my stomach when I'm nervous or excited.
Causing little fights with sentences that get scrambled in my throat.
And I'm certain behind my eyes you'll see them messing around- delighted,
As they switch and mix up words to create new poems and quotes.
Inside my body is but a container of all my favorite things;
Lungs made of fairy tales and muscles made of fire,
Vessels made of children's laughter and bones made of wings...
Beneath my skin lives a world of all my many thoughts.
And I’m sure they would frighten and confuse all those who saw.
So I do my best to keep them hidden with my human attire.
For if no one sees what I am then people can't so willingly withdraw.
Sep 29, 2016
Sep 29, 2016 at 11:39 AM UTC
Should I still wait
Or should I quit?
Is it worth it
Or it's too late?
Now hon tell me
You still love me?
If it's a No
Just let me go
Oct 27, 2017
Oct 27, 2017 at 1:26 AM UTC
*Seconds.
That’s how long it takes
For you to be gone.
To walk away and leave me behind.
But, you said you wouldn’t.
You said you’d never leave me behind.
But, if someone better came along,
I bet you’d leave me behind.
In seconds.*
Oct 6, 2016
Oct 6, 2016 at 9:11 AM UTC
The face you see standing in front of your door
Doesn't want you anymore
You steal her weekend nights
You rewind the thoughts of her mind
The face you see standing in front of your door
Is not into it anymore
It was question of time
For her to realize
That you where never down for her
When the sun is about to rise
Neither when the moon says goodbye
The face you see standing infront of your door
Is not waiting anymore
Jul 31, 2015
Jul 31, 2015 at 10:00 AM UTC
In the past 4 months I've built myself a life where I could survive in a world without you. On technicality you get to say I left you. Did you ever once think about what could've been, had you just fought for me? Instead you went straight to bed with as many girls as you could.
No, I shouldn't hold that against you. We were done. We were over. But God **** it you can't beg for me back now!?
I kiss you and I wonder how many girls have been here since the last time I was.
You hold me and tell me you love me and I can't help but accuse you of saying that to everyone else.
"I need you." Well **** where were you when I needed you!?
Dec 5, 2014
Dec 5, 2014 at 2:24 AM UTC