#inferior
They were deaf as I screamed;
Blind, when i couldn't speak;
Angry, when I started to burn;
In flames, as my ashes kissed the earth.
Never saw my terrified mind,
When it was screeching to be free.
At last it was free amongst the flames,
Or so it thought, 'fore it refused to burn away.
May 3, 2025
May 3, 2025 at 11:30 AM UTC
So you know I don't believe
A ton of the **** I'm musing on,
But rather I am just musing on it.
Yet, we know of violent extremists
Which we are funding
Who do believe in similar rhetoric;
But I am guilty?
No. **** you and **** that.
Where's my army funds?
Where are my weapons and munitions?
Oh, right. I forgot.
The Irish aren't people,
No need to apply.
Apr 13, 2025
Apr 13, 2025 at 10:02 AM UTC
courting breaths after blue i brighten
i lighten with originless humour
and then ugliness anew
i tighten into some packed pearl of monster
breathe in breathe out courting breaths
the susurration of all this lung
resuscitation and it's 'good morning mourning'
then 'bring out the empathy' ! and zitty connections
and marvel over 'those poor things'
larval in their struggles up the redline
and envision throwing them heaps
of hairdryers salad spinners monopoly boards
vibrating cushions for back massage
and obscure tinned delicacies from my extensive travels
the five devils of my mind tackle my erratic breath
five mad ideas of how to run their lives
milk their hive
form a worship and go to war..
..then it is i who goes larval
carving in on my minuscule heart
crutching in like a fractured pill bug
not daring to raise my eyes
for fear of offending my superiors
breathe in breathe out
counting down the breaths til rattle
Feb 17, 2025
Feb 17, 2025 at 4:48 PM UTC
My skin bleeds in anguish,
I do not understand my eyes.
My lips are charred,
My legs are aching.
Perhaps because for a long time they have been carrying the burdens of beauty.
I feel ugly to my core,
It's a truth I have accepted.
I see pretty girls in glamorous fashion,
I look down at my worn shoes and jacket.
I don't like my body.
Perhaps we can exchange our mortal trappings.
Then I could be the beauty with a brain,
And I won't have to compensate
For the ugliness running in my blood veins.
My hands are trembling,
I dislike my ****** structure .
Nobody could love my body, they could perhaps love my soul.
It's a compensation that I always pay.
For If I am ugly and mean,
I think I will be a bigger loser.
Somewhere I have to win.
Pride is a false illusion that I feel for my medals and trophies.
Nothing matters because
My body cannot be loved in this lifetime.
Sep 14, 2024
Sep 14, 2024 at 9:23 PM UTC
look at her, they say.
so polite and hardworking.
I reply with an okay-
and try to be like her.
look at her smiling on the stage, they say.
shining with a grade 8 in piano.
I reply with an okay-
and mold myself into someone they'll like.
look at her grades, they say.
getting top marks in every subject possible.
I reply with an okay-
but I'll always be inferior.
and they say, that's just how life works. </3
Sep 5, 2024
Sep 5, 2024 at 3:13 AM UTC
Inferior lives
You and I know it is true
Outcasts together
Aug 25, 2023
Aug 25, 2023 at 7:50 PM UTC
Inferiority perched ready in the waiting misty lake.
Like magic, she floats atop a rippling plain.
Rest in water, breathe deep - the fool.
She flutters above, air bubble out of reach.
Drown drown in the void you create and breathe deep.
"I pity the corpses who lie in the water," you say in the grasp of dead hands.
You are a force and your mind is the block, so do as you wish, but lay still.
However long you gasp for air, you will die regretting free will.
Oct 15, 2020
Oct 15, 2020 at 7:03 PM UTC
Stop holding me back for once,
see the fire burning in every ounce
of scribbles and words of mine.
Stop making me guilty for my flight,
and look into the horizon so bright.
Stop making me resent your roof,
while all this time you stay aloof.
Stop shaming me for someone's fault,
and let them go into the devil's vault
of sins, see the virtues in me that I lock
from the fear that you might tear and block.
Stop thinking my life for your honour,
and save this human in me from this horror.
Stop it, with your words that shatter my esteem
and do make me drift away from your team.
Stop the assumptions from the lores of the devil,
and look into my dreams arranged in levels.
Stop it , Stop it, Stop it,
When will you feel words I write
and stop linking insanity with my fight.
Stop it
Sep 21, 2020
Sep 21, 2020 at 11:37 AM UTC
Differences built us up so high
We see the world from the sky,
Clinging to the topmost branch,
The way down is to fall apart.
Jun 17, 2020
Jun 17, 2020 at 11:36 AM UTC
When I had nothing, I had nothing to lose.
I lived freely,
blown by the breeze of the night,
ready to go wherever it may take me.
Over time I’ve accumulated so much,
so much now to lose.
I built my walls high,
locked all my doors
and boarded up my windows.
I sit inside,
rocking,
cradling a gun.
Never sleeping,
I just sit
and wait,
hoping nobody comes to take what I have.
Feb 7, 2020
Feb 7, 2020 at 12:10 PM UTC
we're from the
south
we're coming for
you
we're giving you
the wrong address in order to hunt
you
don't you worry about it
don't you feel intimidated it's
fine being inferior
don't ya think bro?
Nov 17, 2019
Nov 17, 2019 at 1:46 PM UTC
for you being the only one i have to count on
you sure aren’t really there for me lately
maybe my everything isn’t enough for you
and that’s not your fault
but before you count all the things i couldn’t give you
don’t forget the times you took advantage of me too
Sep 6, 2019
Sep 6, 2019 at 4:04 PM UTC
and awhile
ago this
night was
tragic but
magic I
gad in
her eyes
yet the
bright corners
of my
jane have
evolved thus
afar from
the chafe
and this
schism must
die alone
Aug 21, 2019
Aug 21, 2019 at 10:38 AM UTC
they left me for dead,
no eye, no tear I could lift to the sky,
shame always befalls me,
no one to blame but me,
I rarely stand tall but keep my balance in check,
I always want my friends to fall in line next,
I've been going through some things on this rocky road,
but thanks for knowing there's never any backbone,
in fact, there's no backbone in this life.
Jun 12, 2019
Jun 12, 2019 at 2:35 PM UTC
The roaches on my doorstep
They show nights of neglect
Follow me to darkness for I’ve not yet wept
Sweep me under doormats and follow path
The untimely death was apart of the wrath
Breaching the veil I’ve not yet pushed through
Legs start to quiver at those thoughts of you
Will I be met by the moon
Or shall she lay dormant
Whispering to stars of my utter torment
Clawing at life she has found her strife
Not until mourning will I be cut by son’s knife
Whisked away the smokes of today
Unable to lay safely in the bed I have made
Clothed in mindfulness
I shriek at joy
Just another game; and I am the toy
Nov 7, 2018
Nov 7, 2018 at 11:29 PM UTC
You hear my words as they roll off my tongue,
Forgotten tomorrow,
Remembered never.
I hear yours,
Remembered tomorrow,
Forgotten never.
I see that sometimes my passion deceives,
But all I want,
is to voice it.
I’ve felt such sadness
it crushes,
I’ve felt such loneliness
it breaks,
But still you do not hear me.
What can I say to make this voice even louder
I know the color of death
As fresh as an hour,
Washed gone with a load of clothes,
Faded like paper.
I know the sticky fingers of a mans and how it lingers,
Like salt on your skin,
Sugar under your nails
I know the cold floor of a bathroom
So cold it reaches into my soul
Grabs hold of every last breath
As I try to call out to you.
I could scream at you I feel so lost.
I could rip out my heart,
that’s how little I feel it
As you talk down to me.
Oct 29, 2018
Oct 29, 2018 at 12:50 AM UTC
"You have her smile"
"you look the same
but you're so different"
Hollow me out
Scoop me into
A shell of my sister
sliding into shoes
I am both too small
and too quiet to fill
Meek mouse playing house
In the home
Of a lion
Always a reflection
Never the real thing
Always just a copy
A two dimensional figure
Of a figure that I
Can never become
We are so different
Contrasting opposites
Divergent
As in everything
That she ever was
Is unobtainable to me
Steadfast lighthouse
And I am the shadow
The sun casts behind it
So when I stare
Into that mirror
All I've ever seen
Was a reflection
Of a reflection
Looking back at me
Sep 24, 2018
Sep 24, 2018 at 8:22 PM UTC
That elusive quality
Essential for success
Seemingly in everyone
Except you
Sep 22, 2018
Sep 22, 2018 at 1:51 PM UTC
i was blue but You wanted red,
i felt it in everything You left unsaid.
You said You loved my icy glow,
but You prefer her rosy manifesto.
you can me let go, you can rebuff,
i understand i’m not good enough.
Aug 30, 2018
Aug 30, 2018 at 12:13 PM UTC