While tenderly scattered across my skin, even the sunshine becomes trivial when i know that you don’t think of me. The stars only know what i’d surrender for a spotless mind and a name with a less bitter taste.
Feb 21, 2021
Feb 21, 2021 at 12:29 AM UTC
know you don’t miss me
you just miss the way it feels
to not be alone
Oct 6, 2020
Oct 6, 2020 at 2:24 AM UTC
Lately I’ve been contemplating whether you’re a test from the devil or a gift from the universe
Are you really the piece I feel I’ve been missing from my soul or is it just my unruly wishful thinking?
Are you really the one I should be fighting for or is my heart just too stubborn to give you up?
Am I truly captivated by your light or are you just an obstacle in the way of my rightful brilliance?
Do I let you break my heart over and over because I love you or am I still just yearning for someone to love me?
Am I crazy or am I correct?
Maybe I’ll let you break it again just to make sure
Sep 23, 2020
Sep 23, 2020 at 2:36 AM UTC
an exclamation
you claim your love is so grand
but it hurts the most
you yearn for grip
tightest on me for control
scared to be alone
above all others
their mistakes are worse than yours
so you tell yourself
you can fool me once
maybe a few thousand times
but here’s where I part
you can keep my love
for at one point, it was real
but you can’t keep me
hostage in my mind
pleasing one who doesn’t care
nothing is enough
you pretend to care
take everything I give you
but count all I can’t
I’m not what you want
at least you can admit that
although, not to me
please just let me go
losing all my energy
left nearly empty
Jul 7, 2020
Jul 7, 2020 at 9:42 PM UTC
my chest is heavy and i just want to be emotional
but i'm not even sure how i feel right now
maybe it's a mix of everything
sadness, longing, loneliness
exhaustion, anxiety, irritation, and fear
like a jungle juice of despair
i can't tell where one ends and another begins
but i know i'll have a headache in the morning
Jan 5, 2020
Jan 5, 2020 at 7:19 PM UTC
How could i feel so empty
yet so simultaneously overwhelmed?
So alone in the middle of a thousand people
but shudder at the thought of truly being seen
A melancholic wanderer, slightly misguided
and significantly misunderstood
drifting through a world where “quiet” means invisible
and being invisible means all I’ll ever have is myself.
Jan 4, 2020
Jan 4, 2020 at 6:26 PM UTC
these days are long and the seasons seem to drag
this year has me trapped beneath her grip
friends are only friends to your face
and lovers just love to use you
people only care with their words
as if i could lay my crying head against empty whispers
served slow motion hits to the chest
and taken advantage of time and time again
i've been aching for my heart to heal
anticipating a fresh bloom
and still with three more months to go?
**** it's been a long year
Sep 23, 2019
Sep 23, 2019 at 4:12 AM UTC
for you being the only one i have to count on
you sure aren’t really there for me lately
maybe my everything isn’t enough for you
and that’s not your fault
but before you count all the things i couldn’t give you
don’t forget the times you took advantage of me too
Sep 6, 2019
Sep 6, 2019 at 4:04 PM UTC
i hate it when you look at me
like you don’t think i’m weird
like you’re seeing the real me
and it doesn’t scare you
but that scares me
Jul 26, 2019
Jul 26, 2019 at 1:07 PM UTC
it seems i do this to myself again and again
an inevitable desire for something i can’t have
this time, it’s you and your eyes
the ones that radiate rich, golden rays
and pierce my skin but i can’t look away
i wish you wouldn’t look away
Jun 19, 2019
Jun 19, 2019 at 7:36 PM UTC