#iloveyou
Dear you,
I wonder who you are,
But somewhere in this planet of eight billion, nearly nine,
You exist.
And I'll live, waiting
For the time I'll see you and
You'll see me, like no one has
So far
Like phases of the moon,
We'll connect
And I'll give you my heart
And you'll give me yours. Willingly.
Not forced or out of pity.
My heart longs hard each day
I dream of you at night
Never truly seeing your face
Just the intentions and motions
And that is all I need
I won't look at the mirror
At your " shattered" reflection
Because I'll have my own to stare at
I'll tell you the three words
I can't say to myself
" I" for the me you saw,
" I" for the you I want
" love " for the love with which you loved me
" love" for the love I hope to show you
And " you",
" you" for the you you might choose over and over again
" you" for the you I'll choose and keep.
All to myself.
When will our roads cross?
I don't know but I'll see you tonight
Through intentions and motions
Tonight in my dreams
5d ago
May 29, 2026 at 6:21 PM UTC
Father I love you
Whether you are exhausted
you act like you are fine and smile at me
Even you are vexed
you care about me
Though you are stressed
you work for us and make us happy
Whatever I dream
you make it possible
The words you tell is a message
The way you live
is the way I love to live
I'll make you proud
My DAD
My HERO
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5d ago
May 29, 2026 at 4:40 PM UTC
‘’my same
my reflection
my similar
tied together
in the womb even though i
came many years after
holding hands as
we cross the road
to steal candy
from the gas station
giggling at night
and trying to stay quiet
as we tickle eachother
with our tiny feet
our shoulders
our eyelashes
our voices
once so similar
once my reflection
and once the same
you’re older now
and we have grown apart
but the ties that lie
underground connect us
and keep us family
even if we’re continents away.’’
May 26
May 26, 2026 at 2:14 PM UTC
‘’i’m lying on my bed
with my phone settled
next to me; halfway
covered by my blanket
i hear the ping that just won’t stop
i see the messages full of excitement
but i can’t bring myself to
feel what you feel
to be as excited as you are
to be alike
‘’what r u up to 2day??’’
‘’wanna hangout??’’
‘’we should get froyo :)’’
‘’i miss u!!!!’’
i sigh
i pause
i shut my eyes
and i turn away
because we are not longer akin
no longer bonded
no longer similar
no longer same.’’
May 26
May 26, 2026 at 1:16 PM UTC
Love across a spell, a four-letter word made
from four fragile parts we spend lifetimes
trying to understand.
L — Looks fade; beauty is only the doorway,
never the home.
O — Obviously, we want someone with good
looks, pleasing the eye at first.
V — Versus the heart; what are good looks
without a good heart to hold them?
E — Every part of us; the flaws, fears, failures,
doubts— are all part of becoming something,
worthy of saying:
“I love you.”
May 17
May 17, 2026 at 2:57 PM UTC
“you tap my keys
and create a beautiful
melody as your foot
presses gently
over mine; it makes
me blush
you fix my strings
when i am a little
out of tune; you’re
never annoyed to
help me out
you gloss my wooden
casing with a smooth
finish to display all
of my beauty
but you grow bored
of me after a while
and i am left to dust
in an old storage closet
with my strings thinning
and my gloss peeling
i barely remember
the last song i sang
to you
because i never
expected you to
simply
just
leave.”
May 8
May 8, 2026 at 11:37 AM UTC
“my hands
my eyes
my ears
every motion that i use
to pleasure my body
are motions that i always
deeply regret
the hands that circle
my bud until i am writhing
in an unfathomable
amount of pain
the eyes that are glued
to the screen full of
people paid too little in
positions i can’t even
imagine myself being in
and the ears that listen
for every creek in the
floorboard as i bury
myself in the layers of self
hatred disguised as an ******
i’m fed fantasies that would
disappoint every single
human in my devastatingly
horrific life
i’d sleep in your bed
but my mind would only
ever replay the videos
i’ve watched over and
over and over
so i'm sorry
but it would **** me to
imagine it all over again."
May 3
May 3, 2026 at 12:01 AM UTC
Roses are red
Violets are blue
Sunshine pulses down
Like my heart beats for you
Red like my love
Blue like your absence
Pulsing like a heartbeat
That I would give for you in an instant
Roses are red
Violets are blue
I wonder if you notice me
Like I notice you
Red like my blood
Which for you I’d gladly bleed
Blue like my tears
Which for you I’d cry freely
Roses are red
Violets are blue
I hope you love me
Because I love you
Apr 24
Apr 24, 2026 at 3:11 PM UTC
My heart is a drum
Beating for you
Mostly I’m numb
But I still see you
You may be blind to me
Another girl you hardly know
But while I think you do see
I know you won’t let it show
I don’t know if you feel the same
If this true love
If it is, I’ll wait and wait
If it’s not, I’ll move on
But for now it’s real
What I’m feeling is true
And it’s the way I’ll feel
Until and even when it’s through
Apr 24
Apr 24, 2026 at 3:03 PM UTC
‘’these thoughts constantly
infect my ****** mind
like a plague that infiltrates
the body and forces it to
***** its innards
or possibly a virus that
leaves your face mangled
with rashes and blisters
the thoughts are violent,
cruel, and unforgiving in the eyes
of our lord and savior
i do not wish to picture
innocent souls in such ravaged
positions nor do i wish to
imagine what their insides
smell like
i want to curl up on my bed
and hide beneath the covers
until i am no longer a monster
are these things that
i truly believe? are they
meant to expose my
true nature?
i’m disgusting.’’
Apr 24
Apr 24, 2026 at 11:22 AM UTC
Tears of my soul
Halving my whole
Breaking me down
I know not how
To live
To love
To hate
To have
Holding my heart
In hands so hard
You hurt me so
You won't ever know
I love
I hate
I want
I wait
For you to rock me
In arms so steady
To love me forever
And leave me never
Alone
Afraid
Alert
Unmade
Take care of me now
I hope you know how
For I will be yours
Forever more
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 9:12 PM UTC
‘’a suffocating tightness wraps around
my body as i stand inside a
sea of people
i **** in a deep breath and
keep it there to surpress the
fatness that i was born with
you call my name
you give me a smile
you love me so deeply
yet the attention i’m given
will never exceed the
amount of guilt i feel
staring down at the scale
165.4
165.5
166.3
the number goes up
as the skin on my arms
thins from the scars i
cut into myself because
i think i deserve it
i stare at myself in the
mirror; cringing at every
roll on my stomach,
every pimple on my nose,
the gross stretch marks that
adorn my hips . . .
i’m so sick of this body
i’m tired
i’m so unsatisfied.’’
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 10:32 AM UTC
Growing up,
I was a ghost—a ghost full of love camouflaged under pain,
the love of bearing what no child should ever be condemned to. Unfortunately,
my ghost was finally revealed, with my body barely breathing.
Not physically,
mentally.
My body harbored scars — physical and emotional;
each throb, a dagger:
Incinerating,
crucifying,
inexorable.
Someone asked me, “Are you self-harming?’’
My heart ripped open.
The veins slowly stopped carrying life liquid from the heart’s engine.
The color drained from my skin.
Every inhale,
glass-sharp.
Am I going to die?
I’m only fifteen;
I haven’t even..
My fists rose into shadows,
haunted by wraiths,
conjured by memories.
Blood unraveled through my fractured veins;
my energy collapsed over itself with every attack,
until I felt paralyzed.
— the darkness obliterating my final flicker of light.
Voices collided
– hers,
my inner child,
screams,
cries for help,
tangled in nostalgia, aging faster than time itself.
Trauma ages you beyond what years could ever measure.
The child within me,
silenced by my throat,
shackled with terror,
The cycle I was born to fracture, rising with strength.
Maybe that dream corrupted into a nightmare,
etched into reality.
Yet in another life,
I will reclaim my voice,
seize the light stolen from me;
Finally, the darkness will tremble — seeing the victim become the ruler.
Apr 20
Apr 20, 2026 at 12:04 PM UTC
I wish you could see me
the way you used to,
back when your eyes softened
just by looking at me,
when your hands found mine
without hesitation,
when I was everything
you ever wanted.
You used to hold me
like I mattered,
like losing me
wasn’t even a possibility.
Now I look at you
and I don’t recognise
who you’ve become.
Cold in ways
I never knew you could be,
distant in ways
I can’t seem to reach,
like the person I loved
has been replaced
by someone
who doesn’t love me at all.
And maybe the truth is
I don’t recognise myself either,
not without you.
Maybe that’s why I stay,
why I keep holding on
even when it hurts,
because I don’t know
who I am
if I let you go.
I feel alone,
even when you’re right here,
like I’m grieving something
that hasn’t fully gone yet.
I don’t know what’s worse,
you leaving
or you staying
like this.
Why can’t you see me?
See how much I want you,
how much I’m trying
to keep this alive
with nothing left
to hold onto.
I want us back,
the laughter,
the warmth,
the way love felt easy
instead of something
I have to beg for.
I want you
to fall in love with me again,
to choose me
the way you used to.
But wanting it
doesn’t make it real.
And still,
some part of me whispers
the same quiet plea
I can’t seem to let go of—
please,
come back to me.
Apr 19
Apr 19, 2026 at 10:11 PM UTC
I love you
In a way that would worry a therapist
The kind of love that would thrill a poet
Love that would crumble kingdoms
I love you
In a way that would worry a therapist
When I speak of you
All others hear is me boasting
A speech worth toasting
Some say its smothering
Toxic love bombing
Manipulation rooting
Blooming in too vulnerability
Boarding on codependency
I love you
The kind of love that would thrill a poet
Words can never describe
Rhymes are the closest
Doing my best to do it all justice
How I want it to be just us
Able to dance in the kitchen
See a sun set with
Knowing you'll be by my side
When the sun rises
Worlds apart
With you it’s a fresh start
I love you
Love that would crumble kingdoms
I would burn empires
Just to see your eyes light up
Ignite a spark inside
Bringing you to the dark side
Like an executioner with his blade
I get the final say
This is no play
Bodies lay scattered
Peoples minds shattered
Heads roll
While me and you walk away
Never to stray
Ready to see the next crown fall
Mar 14
Mar 14, 2026 at 9:25 PM UTC
‘’my windows spurt open
and sway the soft curtains
aside to let the sun peek through
the breeze that sneaks into my
bedroom showers me with
its sweet whispers; slipping off my
silky nightgown for its gaze
i shiver in this newfound
nakedness yet i am comforted
by the soft lips on my neck
the breeze rides
along my thighs and up my chest
until it reaches my face;
darting itself out to catch
the lips it has been searching for
i welcome him
like how i do
every morning.’’
Mar 13
Mar 13, 2026 at 11:35 AM UTC
And if you call my name, I'll be there
even if it takes me years.
You don't understand what you mean to me
So why don't you understand,
What do you mean, and don't you mean?
I will always be there,
even if it's between heaven and hell
Even if you don't see me, I'll be there
I love you more than anything,
What does 'I love you' even mean
It's a word, not a cure,
words only words.
So why do people say it?
It's more than words for some people
its more than words for me!
I love you and I always will
more than my life,
more than myself.
And you might not understand what it means to me
But it means a lot
more than anything
And I don't say it for fun
I love you, and I'll always be there
I want to be a person you can come to
a person you can laugh with,
a person you can cry to
So you don't have to leave crying when I go
laugh, laugh at all the good times we had,
remember me when I'm gone,
I love you so much.
So call me, I'll come
I'll never leave you.
I don't care how long it takes.
I will never leave,
even if you hate me
Or if you want me to go
i wont i love you so much
more than you'll even know
Mar 2
Mar 2, 2026 at 6:21 PM UTC
I want you.
****** I want you and I hate it.
Wait.. that’s not right.
It’s too simple.
Too bland and boring.
Not like you in the slightest.
I yearn for you.
With a burn so fierce
Hell couldn’t fathom the flames.
Feb 28
Feb 28, 2026 at 10:14 PM UTC
‘’for two butterflies to
love, they must dance
for one another
until the night chimes
and their hearts are full
it is a sacred,
beautiful, and
intricately vulnerable
ritual; some may say
that it is the nature
of butterflies to dance,
to flutter and to fly free
this dance is chosen
this dance is decided
this dance is given and
never simply taken
but for me?
my dance was not chosen
it was demanded of me
my wings were ripped apart
whilst the dance forced upon
me was terrifying and ugly
i eventually fell into the depths
of the forest as i was
ravaged upon by a
butterfly too inconsiderate
to realize the damage
he had done
i do not wish to dance anymore
because all i remember is the
waltz i never wanted to take.’’
Feb 26
Feb 26, 2026 at 10:04 AM UTC
I try not to think of it
I don't think I've ever written you a direct poem before
but this is to you- aubrey
you were just a girl
brown hair
spirt so free
you just gotten over a breakup
your boyfriend
told you to starve yourself
to **** yourself
and when nobody was there
when nobody noticed
I was there
I held you as tight as I could
I promised to be your "wife"
you gave me your email I gave you mine
and we messaged
everyday
everyday in that month of june
I told you you were worth more then that *******
and I didn't know how to tell you I loved you
over time we got closer
close enough for her to be dry around me
"hiiii!"
"hey"
"how are you doinggggggg!?"
no response
I knew something was wrong
so I tried
tried my ******* hardest
to be enough for you
I wrote letters everyday
messaged you at 3am when I was sleep deprived if that would help
sacrificed my mental health for you to be okay
it was breaking me too yes but I couldn't loose you
not now at least
the website had crashed and I was alone
and you were my only friend
then one day
you told me you loved me
I didn't know what to say back
I was confused
that you'd never love me
then after that day
you disappeared
I came online everday
"aubs????"
"has anyone seen Aubrey???"
"is Aubrey okay???"
I see a message
under the name Aubs
her account
my eyes lit up she was finally back
"hi this is Aubrey's mother who is this?"
"this- its ari, Aubrey's friend"
friend was a word i never thought I'd call her
not best friend
not wife
not crush
just...friend
"oh, honey I'm so sorry to tell you this but Aubrey committed yesterday..."
the message flashed my eyes
tears slipped down my cheeks
she was...gone
gone forever
"she mentioned this website once before she committed, she said 2 people really helped her and she had notes for them, Ari is one of the names, is that you?"
"yes."
"yes that's me."
as she sent the note I couldn't even bare to read
read the letter she sent me
my eyes were red and puffy
nobody knew you like I had
aubrey
nobody knew the pain you went through like I did
and I never told you I loved you back
that being our last message
your I love you
and my opened message
I was terrible
never enough for you to stay
or anyone else
after that late night in june
Aubrey
I don't remember how to live.
Feb 25
Feb 25, 2026 at 11:37 AM UTC
“music and melodies
it rings in my ears
and deafens the thoughts
that eat at my brain
these sweet euphonies
play to slow my heart
and melt away the
frost clinging to it
it’s kinda the whole reason
i’m still here; it’s why
my heart is still beating;
why it’s no longer
burdened with the cold
so please,
once i’m buried under
the snow; once my name
is no longer uttered; and
once my voice can no
longer sing
play a song
maybe it’d let God know
where to find me.”
Feb 23
Feb 23, 2026 at 9:43 AM UTC
“i tear at my skin with
a blade; trying to find the
flowers that bloom beneath
i grab at my tendons and rip
them aside, fully determined
to find the pollen hidden inside
i dig and dig at this body;
covering my once beautiful skin
with ***** scratches until i am
nothing but embers ready to
be discarded into the wind
i destroyed myself for
flowers that ceased to exist
am i truly that gullible?”
Feb 23
Feb 23, 2026 at 9:34 AM UTC
“i search up his name,
atleast from what i remember
his name being, for the 5th
time this afternoon
instagram
tiktok
facebook
even ******* safari
i feel a knot form in my stomach
as i type in his name again
and again
and again
and again
i miss the tongue he kissed
me with and the hands that he
roamed my body with
i hate myself for it,
i truly do
i hate that i miss the same person
who made me scrub my skin so
hard in the shower just to get
his ******* handprints off me
i’m sorry,
especially to my boyfriend
he doesn’t need to hear me cry.”
Feb 22
Feb 22, 2026 at 3:18 AM UTC
You said you liked me.
You kissed me.
You held me.
You did like me.
But it was all a lie.
Every smile.
Every touch.
Every word.
You were just pretending,
Playing me.
How the **** could you do this?
Leave me like I meant nothing?
And then act like you’re the one that’s sad?
**** that.
I trusted you.
I gave you everything.
And you… just played me..?
Every word, every gesture, a ******* mask.
A fake, cruel mask.
I hate you,
No I can’t,
Because I still love you.
**** you and **** this.
Feb 13
Feb 13, 2026 at 12:58 PM UTC