#fallingoutoflove
and one day
your arms weren't the ones I wanted to be held by anymore
one day
you weren't the one I wanted to make wallpapers for anymore
one day
your blue heart emojis didn't mean love anymore
one day
your text messages didn't make me smile and giggle anymore
one day
my poems wernet about you anymore
one day
you'll look back on me and regret what you did
one day
you'll realize nobody could love you like I did
one day
you'll want me back
but one day
I looked at you
and knew you weren't the love of my life anymore
Feb 18
Feb 18, 2026 at 11:00 AM UTC
I wish I could taste our love —
But the truth is, I bit my tongue;
From the words I was too scared to deliver.
I wish I could see our future —
Yet I get so blind in love;
Of what’s real and what I only hoped for.
I wish I could touch your smile —
But I’ve lost touch with my joy;
Holding something I no longer feel inside.
I wish I could hear your tears —
But the sea cries more than us;
Salt waters heavier than any confession.
I wish I could smell your intentions —
But love-sickness fogged my instincts;
Two hearts coughing through a failing truth.
But I get the sense that I'm still
Falling deeper in love with you.
_And that doesn't make any sense!_
Nov 28, 2025
Nov 28, 2025 at 4:46 PM UTC
Falling in love
When that’s what it feels like:
Falling
You know you’ll hit the ground eventually and break all your bones
Just for the floor the come out from under you
And Fall Again
Feb 20, 2025
Feb 20, 2025 at 6:33 PM UTC
So you finally
Got the guts
To migrate...
To give a guy
A chance
When you know it
Ends the same..
As the song before
Told you to knock
Down these walls
And build a door
Instead ya didn't
do a **** thing
But diss
And disappointment me
Did I expect
It to explode
With all your
Odes and empty promises
Love bombing
Cuz you wanted me
Now it's
"Our views are just too different"
You're "confused" and your too distant
To the point where I'm
Sitting,
Waiting,
Wishing
On You
Yet again
May 14, 2024
May 14, 2024 at 5:48 PM UTC
I'd do anything to take up space
in her notebook.
Almost anything.
Close to anything.
Most positively not that, but close to that.
A wobbly fall or ignoring a crowd of people.
walking through a double door you’d normally
have no problem walking though.
Most definitely the kind of mistake
that leaves you paralyzed.
Unable to move, taste, or breathe freely.
Paralyzed & left between the pages
she comes back & visits often.
Pages I have to relive every time I see her face.
If she turns her notebook sideways the blue lines
become a jail cell.
If she turns her notebook long ways the blue lines
become a pair of blinds & I fall.
Shifting through the pages until I hit the bottom.
I'd do anything to take up space
in her notebook.
Almost anything.
Close to anything.
Most positively not that, but close to that.
Unless she adds caution tape to the elevator shaft
Of the next skyscraper she draws.
Or maybe I'll just take the stairs
Jul 21, 2021
Jul 21, 2021 at 4:53 PM UTC
How to stop
My thoughts from running
To you
From painting
Phantom pictures
Of soft touches
Warm words
Festive times
Spent together
In each other's arms
Where only happiness
Can be found
And the safety
You provide
When everything feels scary
And I feel wary
Of every choice I make
You feel right
How to stop
My hands from shaking
My blood from boiling
My thoughts from wandering
To your face, your smile, your embrace
To your scarred hands
Caressing me
As I tremble
How to stop
My mind from pretending
You didn't take your knife
Of self-centered crap
Of idealization of my body
As if I'm nothing else
Than my body
My *******
My ***
And stop myself from forgetting
How the wheels always turn
And come back to the same
Unique
Mistake
How to stop justifying
Your actions
As to not
Lose you
While I
Lose myself
Dec 16, 2020
Dec 16, 2020 at 7:26 PM UTC
To the lush daisy gardens, I go
The farthest place from you that I know
My freedom was what I chose
Shortly after, your heart froze
My fault for not giving you a clearer sign
But all my displays to you were benign
So, alone I searched for the beams of my mind
But its collapsed architecture was all I could find
Immense guilt because of a simple truth
The sense of our doomed future I ignored in my youth
But life and love are meant to be lived
Freed my sense to be gone with the wind
My annoyance and displeasure would spew
Every waking second and whenever you'd call
Because long before you ever boarded, I knew
That we wouldn't make it anywhere at all
Aug 26, 2020
Aug 26, 2020 at 11:39 PM UTC
as years passed by, the moon had fallen out of love
the light of the sun was so bright
that the moon told itself that it could never reach it
to cradle the sun in its cold palms
that their fingertips will never meet
and the sun's light had gotten dimmer in the moon's eyes
until the raging fire that the moon had once felt for the sun
shrunk, diminished
had put itself out
but the sun felt the ignition
a spark deep within its core
like a single match thrown into a city doused in gasoline
burning bright and powerful
eating away at the very walls of the universe
and without even knowing
had fallen in love with the moon.
Apr 12, 2020
Apr 12, 2020 at 12:15 PM UTC
I fit most comfortably
in your hand
Yet you drop me & bounce
me around.
When I fall I have every
intention of landing back
in your hand
But when I bounce back up
I fly in every direction
Except there.
I bounce & I bounce
Until I have no choice
But to lay motionless on the ground.
Still full of life
Still full of excitement.
Until you decide you'd like to play
with me again.
I fit most comfortably
in your hand
Yet you drop me & never pick me
back up
Jan 3, 2020
Jan 3, 2020 at 9:50 AM UTC
i remember all the dates, of when i starting liking you, when i loved you, when i was in love with you, the day you kissed me, the day you grabbed my hand, the day you surprised me
i guess i should start to remember the days i fell out of love, the days i wished youd kiss me and you didnt, the days all i needed was your hand and mine and you refused, the weeks you couldnt spare a moment of your time for me
i am not sure the love will fade, but i know it no longer envelopes me, you no longer make me feel safe, wanted, and cared for
how could i continue to be in love with you when i am not even sure you care about me, or want to talk to me, you make no effort for me
i guess there is no problem staying after falling out of love, as you were never in love anyway
Sep 7, 2019
Sep 7, 2019 at 12:05 AM UTC
nothing i do will you bring back;
not the shoebox of purple hyacinths
watered by the i love you's
i still wanted to say.
not the prose poetries i wrote you
whilst caught in a mania
in the restrooms of dying gas stations.
not the caving in of the see-through walls
mixed with static humming of the payphone calls.
not the pillow telegrams that smell like
bourbon and my mother's cigarettes;
darling, my bed has become a post office
of the letters i never had the chance to write
and of the things i never
had the chance to say.
and nothing i say will bring you back —
not even this poem, and i know that now;
i just don't know
how to live with that.
still, nothing will ever bring you back
and darling, watching you fall out of love
feels like the only thing i can do right now.
Jul 26, 2019
Jul 26, 2019 at 6:33 AM UTC
cigarettes still taste a little like our last kiss — like it's 5 am again and we were stuck in rusty rooftops, waiting for the break of dawn, or for the other to initiate the kiss. that being said, i always wished that 5 am's lasted longer, and that cigarettes burned longer, and that we kissed longer. but before we knew it, the sun had risen and there we were, ashing our cigarettes on the floor, kissing our last kiss. but here i am, darling — yours for the breaking; my cigarettes, yours for the taking — so kiss me again. break me again. leave me again.
say goodbye to me, darling. say goodbye, just once again.
Jun 13, 2019
Jun 13, 2019 at 8:09 AM UTC
And I think I’ve finally fallen out of love
But what’s interesting is
I still love him but
I am no longer in love with him
Aug 5, 2018
Aug 5, 2018 at 5:17 AM UTC
There I was thinking
I’d never feel this way again
The lost that I’ve felt
The dark places I’ve been
I came to an acceptance
That this is how my life would be
I found myself moving on
Became happy with just me
Then you came into my life
Everything about you was just right
You left an imprint on my heart
On that late November night
We each had our fears
We wondered if we were moving too fast
Be both fell in love
We said we hoped that it would last
For the first in a long time
I thought perhaps soulmates are real
The sweet words that you spoke
All the ways you’d make me feel
Your sweet lips against mine
Your warm breath in the air
You drove me wild
Running your hands through my hair
Things moved rather quickly
We spoke of tying the knot
But little did I know
That’s not what you sought
For one day you would leave
That was such a confusing day
“We can fix whatever’s wrong” I said
As I tried not to plead for you to stay
But your mind was made up
I was a little too late
To this day I question why
For that was never our fate
“Forever and always” you said
You wanted to be mine
I tried to give you the world
I gave you all my time
We were obsessed
Perhaps that’s the problem you see
Your feelings grew weaker
As you fell out of love with me
Now I’m left wondering
Was what you felt true
Or was it all an act
Simply because I was someone new
Was I just another warm body
To help you fill a void?
After everything we shared
Now I feel destroyed
May 27, 2018
May 27, 2018 at 9:40 AM UTC
You know I tried,
In so many ways I tried.
I tried to be friends
I tried to keep in touch.
I tried to forget you.
I tried to fight for you.
God did I try,
And try,
And try,
And try,
And try.
You didn’t seem to notice it,
You barely seem to notice me.
I tried so very often,
That I was surprised to notice,
One day I didn’t care.
I didn’t care if I got a text back,
I didn’t care if I got a letter back,
I didn’t care if you even wanted to see me.
I always expected my detachment from you,
To be like a tree falling.
Noisy,
Messy,
Painful,
Ugly;
But it was nothing like that.
It was like a leaf falling.
Silent,
Gentle,
Graceful,
Painless.
-ALC April 19, 2018
Apr 19, 2018
Apr 19, 2018 at 10:23 PM UTC
In Morning
I found recluse in the
Skin between your fingers
And the sweetness of your breath
Your touch like heavy wind
Meeting wave with rock
Now
Night
--
c
Jan 24, 2018
Jan 24, 2018 at 2:20 PM UTC
when i sleep, i don’t dream of you
i’m sorry
but it’s true
i don’t dream of you, i don’t see you
i barely ever hear from you
the polaroids on my bunk walls are gone
i covered them with pressed flowers and rotting leaves
i covered them with doodles of daydreams
of open skies and crooked wings
i gave myself some air to
breathe & forget
and i’m sorry love
i didn’t mean to
i swear
my lips turned blue when the ground turned white
i loved you more each day,
but you lie about where you go at night
and i lay my **** bare
so i’m sorry love
i didn’t mean to
i swear
..but also, i think, i'm only pretending to care...
Dec 14, 2017
Dec 14, 2017 at 1:27 PM UTC
his eyes were as blue as the ocean & this is the story of how I got lost at sea.
his happiness was as powerful as a tsunami, washing over everyone and instead of ruining lives he made them better.
his waves were gentle, touching people with his kindness
god, he had so many layers, so many different parts.
no one would ever get down to the bottom, if you were lucky you only got to see 5% of him when there was 95% yet to be discovered
he could be as cold as the ocean in February
Never freezing over and closing off, because well that's not him
But if you dared to stick your toe in, he'd push you right back out, cold.
He could be cold.
he could be as choppy as when you drifted out into sea,
Like the ocean he is beautiful
like the ocean he had so many things that were terrifying.
but he was so gentle
he was so happy
his eyes are as blue as the ocean,
and that's how I'm lost at sea.
Apr 7, 2017
Apr 7, 2017 at 4:12 PM UTC
I no longer think that ill always love you
But I will always remember what it felt like
And there is no one to blame but yourself
I didn't want to fall out of love with you
Im not heart broken anymore
Im just over it
My heart no longer beats faster when I hear your voice
I don't panic when I feel like Ive lost you
Im tired of loving you
You took a heart and made it ice cold
Took a innocent girl and showed her darkness
Jun 6, 2016
Jun 6, 2016 at 3:30 AM UTC
How do I unlove you?
How do I tell myself to stop imagining a future with you?
How do I make myself see reason and not cling to the ghost of a former you?
How?
Tell me now.
I beg you.
I want to know.
I need to know.
So I can finally let these feelings go.
Nov 11, 2015
Nov 11, 2015 at 9:28 PM UTC
Times are hard when things have got no meaning
it is pointless to keep running away from the one thing
for which you are living;
it comes back, ever so haunting.
I've found a key on the floor
quite a strange find in a strange place
when I find someone to adore
maybe I too, will find solace
Maybe you and I will not believe in the things we find behind the door
a new dream? Or ancient lore?
maybe it would be quite a bore
Maybe it will touch me to my core
So what's the matter with you?
take the first step outwards
hold fast to my hands
and together we'll walk this through.
Sing me something new.
don't get me wrong,
for your words are like dew,
precious and beautiful.
Stand by me,
and I'll show you all the things we could be.
Aug 10, 2015
Aug 10, 2015 at 9:10 AM UTC
Insecticide.
Does anyone know where I can get some insecticide?
I need it, the sensation of that cold, sleek nozzle pushing inside me
My belly button will be heavens gate- inside are those **** butterflies...
Butterflies that tremble and quiver whenever you walk by.
That fragility is my enemy.
The only solace I can ever hope for, is in the desolation of such weakness.
My heart, it would often seem, is on a suicide mission.
So eager to climb up my throat and plunge into your twin pools of blue.
Those dastardly insects are fighting like hell,
Their wings the color of your lips-
The beat of their wings, a mockery of my own heartbeat.
I guess no one told them, their wings flutter for no one but me now
And I have had far enough of their nonsense.
Desires of a lonely heart are fantastical at best.
But nothing can argue with the cold steel of that nozzle
Wedged firmly inside, its mission realized.
And finally it's a feeling that I want to feel, not any of this involuntary ******** "falling in love".
Because I really can't help falling in love with you.
I'd stop it if I could. I'd throw the train from its rails, toss the plane from the sky, sink the ship out at sea.
To forget I ever loved you.
The flowers of June no longer hold that same color.
The bitter taste of the pest control will be the only taste on my tongue.
Not yours any longer, my dear.
Dec 22, 2014
Dec 22, 2014 at 3:45 PM UTC