nothing i do will you bring back;
not the shoebox of purple hyacinths
watered by the i love you's
i still wanted to say.
not the prose poetries i wrote you
whilst caught in a mania
in the restrooms of dying gas stations.
not the caving in of the see-through walls
mixed with static humming of the payphone calls.
not the pillow telegrams that smell like
bourbon and my mother's cigarettes;
darling, my bed has become a post office
of the letters i never had the chance to write
and of the things i never
had the chance to say.
and nothing i say will bring you back —
not even this poem, and i know that now;
i just don't know
how to live with that.
still, nothing will ever bring you back
and darling, watching you fall out of love
feels like the only thing i can do right now.
Jul 26, 2019
Jul 26, 2019 at 6:33 AM UTC
nothing i do will you bring back;
not the shoebox of purple hyacinths
watered by the i love you's
i still wanted to say.
not the prose poetries i wrote you
whilst caught in a mania
in the restrooms of dying gas stations.
not the caving in of the see-through walls
mixed with static humming of the payphone calls.
not the pillow telegrams that smell like
bourbon and my mother's cigarettes;
darling, my bed has become a post office
of the letters i never had the chance to write
and of the things i never
had the chance to say.
and nothing i say will bring you back —
not even this poem, and i know that now;
i just don't know
how to live with that.
still, nothing will ever bring you back
and darling, watching you fall out of love
feels like the only thing i can do right now.
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