#badrelationship
Trapped
between my thighs
****** out of our minds
we made promises
our kisses
made lies
Jan 7, 2022
Jan 7, 2022 at 2:24 AM UTC
he broke me more times than i can count,
more times than i'd like to say,
but i still blame myself.
i thought it was all my fault,
that i was a bad partner,
that i was the reason everything went wrong.
i think about him a lot.
i think about the scars he's left,
the few good memories there were of us,
that i loved him unconditionally,
his hugs, his touch, his lips, his hair
and the worst part is,
i miss it.
Nov 28, 2020
Nov 28, 2020 at 6:02 PM UTC
when he scares you
never expect an apology
after all, he didn't mean it
you're the one who's fragile
Jun 29, 2020
Jun 29, 2020 at 11:36 AM UTC
If it wasn't for you showing me what a bad relationship was,
I wouldn't know what a good should be like
If you hadn't taught me how weak I was,
I never would have gained such strength
If you had held me like you were meant to,
I never would have found my way back to me
Thank you in the end, for showing me all that love wasn't meant to be
Dec 19, 2018
Dec 19, 2018 at 11:42 PM UTC
You’ve broken a good girl
Her heart no longer bright
Cries herself to sleep almost every night
I’m the person whose sitting there holding her tight
Before someone sparks the ignite.
Cause I only know that as right
So just sleep tight
My little angel
I’m sorry I can’t be there to hold you
Just know we make it through
Whether rain or blue.
Stronger than yesterday’s lows.
Aug 29, 2018
Aug 29, 2018 at 7:00 PM UTC
I send a smile into the world and it's all for you
I laugh at a joke until I cry and it's all for you
I kiss those soft delicious lips and it's all for you
I make a fool of myself to see a grin and it's all for you
I take off my clothes and let go of my dignity and it's all for you
I let this fire burn me to ash and it's all for you
I jump off this cliff and break my neck and it's all for you
I feel frozen inside like winter and it's all for you
I turn into the monster underneath children's beds and it's all for you
I become the same nightmare that keeps me awake at night and it's all for you
I rip off my skin and bleed out what's left of who I was and it's all for you
Now you're gone
I don't know who I am anymore and it was all for you
Dec 10, 2017
Dec 10, 2017 at 6:03 PM UTC
I remember the way the ice looked on the street that night.
The dullness of poorly lit lights paired with too much Seagrams 7 made it shine just enough to mesmerize sunken eyes.
Mine.
Just enough to convince you to stay.
Just enough it convinced me to stay.
Again, In the home I couldn't seem to escape.
Didn’t want to escape.
Back inside, dodging objects to stay alive.
Different sizes, different aims.
It was not just a game.
The monster I somehow loved,
dragging me away from all that is and was real.
I thought he was real.
The same monster who didn't love me,
slipping away,
in that cold house,
on that icy street.
To be in love and to be loved are far from the same,
like you and me.
Get away,
Before the ice is really the one to blame.
Nov 16, 2017
Nov 16, 2017 at 4:24 PM UTC
There are days when I want to give up
I want to leave so I don't have to deal with you
I want to cry
But I don't think you deserve to win
You don't deserve my tears
You don't get to become 'famous' on my account
You deserve friends who are as ****** as you
You deserve to be brought up under a fake name
You deserve everything that's coming to you
Cause Karma's a *****
Nov 2, 2017
Nov 2, 2017 at 12:58 PM UTC
he might tell you
draping over
your insecurities
his love is a gift
you don’t deserve
be grateful
.
he will own you
because owning
something
is better than
nothing
he’ll put pennies
in your pockets
to remind you
that you’re worthless
.
your arms only matter
when they’re wrapped
around his waist
at least they look
slimmer that way
.
you are his coatrack
where he’ll hang his
disappointment
don’t snap
when he gets
too heavy
don’t breath
when he needs
your air
don’t exist
when he wants
some space
.
live
in the confines
of when it is
convenient
.
don’t
unless he asks you to
.
Oct 13, 2017
Oct 13, 2017 at 9:11 PM UTC
How can one be so spiteful
Do I fill you with regret
Do you really miss the fighting
Or just how I let you share my bed
Nobody knows the poison
Of a deadly widow’s bite
How they **** out all of your energy
And leave you with a blight
You bullied me into forever
Used me like a tool
Took me without consequence
And treated me a fool
Lied to my companions
Spouting an accusatory tone
Told them I was straying
Because I no longer was a drone
You don’t want a love that’s true
You thrive on self infliction
You keep stirring up my life
Because you like the friction
I’m not sorry that I broke them
The promises I made
When one as pitiful as you
Tried to make me afraid
You don’t control me anymore
Yet you still won’t leave me alone
How don’t you get that I’m better now
That I’m not pretending you’re my home
Sep 14, 2017
Sep 14, 2017 at 2:45 AM UTC
No use to fight the bloodshot eyes
Stained from the tears I cry
And Your love that is seeming to die
I sit
Light?
I need none, just wanna feel a buzz
Yet nobody kills the high of your lust better than you
That pedestal I put you on has sky scraped my heart raw
Yet the pain keeps me wanting fix
Fistfuls of tears and hate we ****** at each other
Burning our trust
Til the smoke exhausts us
Time stops and forgiveness is brought
I love you’s and fantasies are from silent thoughts to passionate exchanges
We seal our soon to be broken promises with a kiss
A pattern so sweet my tongue can’t seem to keep itself off of you
The rain could never drown me, for I stand beneath you
My umbrella
Beholding patches
Exposing the brisk to my lips
Cheeks would be stained red if I was a shade of pale
Embarrassed,
To be seen trapped within this thing of sorts which you call love
Aug 27, 2017
Aug 27, 2017 at 9:34 PM UTC
And then it happened.
I came face to face with my ex.
Not much has changed from the last time we spoke.
When I was younger there use to be a sense of grief.
That somewhat odd feeling that overshadowed everything good in my life.
Suddenly watching the clouds go from bright white to a dull gray.
I hated thunderstorms back then.
I'd like to think that I've learned a lot sense then though.
Watching her eyeball me with a sense of curiosity.
Slowly learning the fact that I seemed to be doing a lot better without her.
You know those looks that reveal a lot without so much as a word being said.
She had plenty of those, often catching herself in mid sentence.
Her naturally low cut eyes now lower.
I wouldn't actually describe her as being a addition or nowhere close to a binge.
But more so one of those random nights you get hammered and wake up the next morning trying to figure out what happened.
No not at all. Again I am being modest.
If anything she was one of those drinks with a acquired taste.
The kind of drink someone offers you in attempt to try something new and though it tastes bad you still drink it out of generosity as it was a kind gesture.
Not at all stating that she was a bad person. No she was very sweet.
In fact I am glad that I had opportunity to bump into her again.
But a lot of time has elapsed sense then.
And seeing how time works I am no longer the same person.
Though I must admit,
First seeing her I was a bit puzzled, as those dark clouds that normally follow were nowhere to be seen.
Nor the crackling of a long drawn out bolt of lightening.
Both probably caught in traffic, Arguing over which came first.
If anything, she knew I had a high tolerance as far as drinks are concerned.
But again I am being corrigible.
Yet, this time I didn't miss the exit sign on my way out the door as normally I'd walk pass it twelve times, mistaking it for something else.
In a strange twist we neither dismissed each other nor omitted each others presence.
I walked out the door, while she was busy finishing what was left of her fiancee
Jan 6, 2017
Jan 6, 2017 at 3:34 PM UTC
you are the shining sun. he was the dark nigh.
i am the stars.
and the sun and the stares dont go together,
because the stars cant shine when its daytime.
he let her shine unlike you did.
-Desirea Fox
Oct 4, 2015
Oct 4, 2015 at 3:59 PM UTC
Fight after fight
Testosterone and rebellion
Then a few hours of peaceful, play-pretend
But I know things
Things you don't know I know
You wait til late to begin again
You see, our wall is paper thin
2 am
You say it's a hunting game
Although I see she's your aim
Boy, you're worth so much more
Yet you've stooped down several levels
Don't listen to the devils
3am
She's not just a friend
I'm waiting to hear you say
"Thee end"
Young man, you've started digging where I already dug a tunnel
And once it starts caving
There's no way to funnel the regret
4am
don't pick the floor
Your choices they've been so poor
Bud, you've got a huge life ahead of you
This path could ruin it
Don't let her pull you with a bit
I don't want to see you fall to pieces in a heap
Don't cash yourself as cheap
Little brother
Please, get some sleep
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 6:12 PM UTC
I can't make conversation
But I can make art you won't appreciate
I'll stay quiet
You'll hate me for it
You'll kiss me
And I'll hold your frozen hand
It's not love
But your body keeps me warm
Nov 22, 2014
Nov 22, 2014 at 6:23 PM UTC