I've tried a lot of things
I've prayed a lot of times
But I'm still terrified of the needle that pierces my veins
Cried and cried
Shut my eyes
Clench my fists
A pain that never seems to quit
Helpful act
Leaving nothing but a dimple
In my brain though, it's not so simple
No child
But I remember
When I was a child
Over and over
Needle after needle
Again and again
Sickness with no end
Stuck with a fear
Bred inside my head
A fight I cannot fight
A threat I will always detect
No neglect
Just a kid who hid the hounding
Behind a sickness with no end
Apr 24, 2015
Apr 24, 2015 at 6:08 PM UTC
If the written word
ceased to exist
I would end with it
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 9:56 PM UTC
His warmth I love
Though never touched
Cause suns still burn
From far away
He'd hear my thoughts
Though never speaks
But silence talks
In many ways
Oh how I'd love
To have him near
To talk even
For just a day
But I know well
As dreams reveal
When I come to
That he's not real
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 9:52 PM UTC
.....
...
.
how cunning
this tiny trickle of red
how horrid
this leakage of the dead
don't look at me
with plump red lips
go hide and flee
I might not resist
in dark-ruby richness
it lures the foggy mind
in acrid taste of thickness
it tempts our undead kind
pulsing in the wrist
the scent of human juice
our bloodlust is a feast
an ancient broken truce
so hold your breath
and gaze into my eyes
oh what a shame
a vestal sacrifice
close your eyes
your dreams will end tonight
you will rise
a graceful grandiose sight
.
...
......
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 9:51 PM UTC
I realize now
That passion
Is what keeps you going
In life, in love
In all things that matter
Without it you're just
Wasting time
Filling space
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 9:39 PM UTC
Heartbeats and concrete,
Skyscrapers and commuters,
Dreams and believers.
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 9:37 PM UTC
Your life is a constant fight
I sense it all around you
Day and night
Your anger flys through windows
Your curiosity is what causes my insecurities
A troubled soul
Letting trouble take its toll
Yet some how you stole my heart
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 9:13 PM UTC
The door
The floor
Hush
The walls
The windows
Whisper
Muted cries
Muffled shouts
Painting the walls like dust
The words are not for us
It's the lot behind
The door
The floor
Hush
The walls
The windows
whisper
Muted cries
Muffled shouts
I've got no doubts when I hear your voice
"But it's past my curfew" I tell myself
"I've got no choice"
The door
The floor
Hush
The walls
The windows
Whisper
Muted cries
Muffled shouts
I don't know you
Though I feel like I do
The door
The floor
Hush
The walls
The windows
Whisper
Muted cries
Muffled shouts
Night after night
I peek through the curtains
Once the fight ends
I see you walk the length of the fence
Wiping tears only I have seen you cry
The door
The floor
Hush
The walls
The windows
Whisper
Silent sobs
Shattered parts
I wish so badly I could mend your heart
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 8:39 PM UTC
sometimes i go off
about these worlds
that i make up
in my head.
because when the world
is so messed up,
don't you
want another?
i spend
so much time
just living
in these worlds,
just thinking.
about
trivial things
like:
how come clouds
get to be so high
that it's like they're flying,
when all they do is bring rain?
or:
why do we spend
so much time
obsessing over the fact
that we don't have much time at all?
but i think
that maybe
in these worlds i make up,
it's not so bad.
sure,
there are bad guys
but when are there not?
the thing is,
in my world,
i'm not one of those
bad guys.
i'm the one
with the cape
and the mask
and i am the one
who saves the day.
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 8:29 PM UTC
I hope that
When she finally says yes
And the thrill of pursuing ends
You sigh
And twist and turn in your bed
Allowing yourself to accept
She will never love you
Like I can
I hope
When she finally holds your hand,
With a dull pain in your heart
That slowly transfers through your veins
And spreads to every joints, every cell
You realise
She'll never appreciate your warmth
Like I can
I hope
When she finally kisses you,
In that moment of heavenly bliss,
Your body pulls back alarmed
The love, the breathlessness you got used to
Is no longer there
She will never crave for you
Like I can
I hope
When she reads her favorite poetry to you
You wonder if it is Still you
Who I'm writing about
And with a reluctance your mind realises
She can not lure you into traps with her words
Not like I can
I hope
When you look into those eyes
Their color similar to yours
But not even a pale representation of the feelings mine held
Oh boy,
Maybe you'll carry this burden with you
In your grave
Cause she will never love you
Like I can
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 8:26 PM UTC