I think I need to find a way,
To accept the things I cannot change.
I think I need to find a way,
To love myself again.
Here we go again,
It's four a.m.
I'm up and I'm alone.
Laying here in the bed we use to own.
I don't need you anymore.
And I don't need to settle any scores.
I just wish all this stuff didn't linger with you,
I wish I didn't remember the good things you would do.
I think I need to find a way to forget and let go,
I think I need a fresh start,
Somewhere new to go.

I lay in bed at night rehearsing all my moves,
I have nothing left to lose,
And everything to prove.
My mind is on and I can't shut it off,
I feel a bit crazy, a little distraught.
I'm not sure that I can trust how I feel after all,
I seem to constantly build myself up just to watch myself fall.
As sick and twisted as that may sound,
I rather enjoy my spirits lying upon the ground.
Because if I'm not happy there's no guilt to face.
Because.if you hadnt realized yet I'm very fond of this place.
I can hide in the shadow of who I use to be,
and everyone I use to know will look right past the new me.
Because that's what I want and that's what I need,
While I complete the search for all the pieces of me.

I won't let you use me anymore.
I won't lie awake feeling like a cheap *****.
Three ******* years I've wasted on you,
Three ******* years that I spent loving you,
But it doesn't matter, It didn't matter, and it surely won't ever,
I hate you, I hate you, now isn't that clever?

One text and I'm done for,
I don't need a call.
One kiss and I'm done for,
You can have it all.
I just want to please you baby,
and be all that you'll ever need.
I just want to love you baby,
and be what sets you free.
Can I stay the night and,
hold you while you sleep?
Can we stay up late,
entangled in your sheets?
One text and I'm done for,
I don't need a call.
One kiss and I'm done for,
You can have it all.

I often over analyze everything you say.
Your words, your actions,
are in my mind dis-conveyed.
I'm not sure if I have a grasp on what your intentions really are.
Whether they be good or bad we've made it this far.

And that's a good thing right?
That I believe the things you tell me.
And that's a good thing right?
That I feel your actions are true.

I'm scared that I'll be lost without you,
And  I worry you'll be too.
But I can't fake this anymore,
I'm done being so insignificant.

I'm not going to be a forgotten call,
I laugh with them all and you fall.
I'm not going to be your late night score.

I'm not going to be your little love *****.