Tabitha

Tabitha Jun 2014

falling.

With our feet on the edge let's make our last jump. With our hearts in the air, they'll finally touch. Feel the rush of your love as the universe absorbs us. Grasping at thought of our dreams. All my memories scream begging me to fall into you and let you fall into me.

Tabitha Feb 2014

sick&tired

I'm sick and tired of being
Sick and tired.
I can't handle all this pain.
I gave it all up for you,
But I gave it up in vain.

Tabitha Jan 2014

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Here I come again,
Crawling into bed.
Even though you belittled me,
And I swore I'd sleep alone.
But i'm back, because i'm trapped here,
In your love, your bed, your home.
Here I am again kissing your neck,
Even though you turned me,
Into a self hating wreck.
But I'm back, and I'm trapped.
Here it is again, the moment to pretend,
Because you decided that you love me again.

Tabitha Jan 2014

"You"

This is everything I ran from,
Everything you promised not to be.
This is pain, this is sorrow.
But mostly, this is me.
A woeful heart, full of regrets, about everything that was given up.
And I gave it all up for you,
And the person you promised you were.
Now, it's too late,
I can't turn back, only look forward.
But forward for me is empty because I gave it all up for, "you."

Tabitha Jan 2014

and I'll admit that you are right

I cry, I beg, I scream,
For you to realize what I need.
You loved me, and helped me rise above.
All I needed was some hope and some love,

But, now you wonder why you're here,
You won't leave me out of fear.
You're afraid I'll hurt myself again.
Without family, love or friends.
And I'll admit that you are right,
Because, without you darkness consumes all my light.

Tabitha Jan 2014

where you water it.

It is hard to take the positive steps forward that we feel we need,
Because our society teaches us that the grass is greener on the other side,
Leading us to falsely believe,
Our dreams for happiness are unachievable...
But really, the grass is ******* green where you water it,
Just like happiness comes as long as you cultivate it.

Tabitha Apr 2013

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: I think that growing up is meant to be scary. It is reflecting on your mistakes, successes, and loses and somehow making sense of it all. It is deciding who you want to be, where you want to go, and who you are taking with you on your path. Growing up is meant to be scary, because we need the fear of life instilled in us. We need to see that life isn't always fun and it isn't always fair but that's life. I think growing up is meant to be scary because we need to be scared sometimes in order to realize that we are also independent and strong, all on our own. I think growing up is meant to be scary because it is facing the unknown and hoping for the best but also knowing you may not get it.. But growing up is also beautiful, so much so that your fears will often times diminish.. because growing up is the freedom to be able to make life your own, to discover new things and new people, and most importantly growing up is being able to decide where you go from here.