You said you'd always be there for me
But where were you
When the clock strikes 3 am
And I'm sitting in bed
All alone
With tears stinging my eyes
Pills settling in my stomach
And a dull razor blade dancing across my skin
Wanting you beside me
To hold me and tell me
That everything is going to be okay
And that you love me
So please tell me
Where were you
When my thoughts were full of suicide
And the only thing I needed
Was you

I've been dreading this day for quite sometime
The day you finally push me away
Leave me behind to rot
You didn't deserve what you got
Possibly a sharp slap to the face
It's all my fault
And I couldn't be more sorry
Now I'm lost and wandering
Because I don't know what to do without you
You must have forgotten that you are my everything
That you're the reason I'm still alive
But now you're gone
And you're probably going to forget what we had
You just kicked me out of your life
Just like everyone will do eventually
Don't worry
I'll get used to it

Would
You
Still
Think
I'm
Beautiful
If
I
Sent
You
A
Picture
Of
Myself
Covered
In
Cuts
And
Scars?

As I down this bottle of pills
You're the only thing on my mind
As blood drips from my skin
You're the only thing I'm thinking of
As I skip another meal
You're embedded into my brain
I can never stop thinking of you
No matter how hard I try
My head always seems to find a way back to you
Just like my heart does
Every single time

You wrap your arms around me
And cuddle up close to me
Your voice whispers softly,
"I love you."
But there's something you're forgetting
One very important factor
You
Have
A
Girlfriend
You tell me you can't choose
You love us both the same
You can't hurt either of us
Indecisive little boy
Make
Up
Your
Mind

Blood staining your baby blanket
Your childhood washed down the drain
Tears streaking your flushed cheeks
You now hide in the dark
That you were afraid of not so long ago
You sit alone
Scared of what you've become
Your innocence gone
Along with your sanity
All of it is lost
Unable to be found
Hiding
Just like you

I hold a cold blade in my hand
As tears fall across my face
I hold it against my skin
And take a deep breath
"I'm sorry." I whisper
As I start to draw blood
These cuts form letters
The ones that spell out your name
I need to keep this a secret
So, I won't tell you
That your name has been engraved in my leg
Ever since the day I started to miss you

To be together, would mean the world,
To be together, means to never be apart,
You're so close yet far,
& it's hurts to much,
But we're are together,
at least in my heart.