I feel myself
Becoming numb again
And I'm afraid
Of what I'll do

You mean a ******* lot to me
And I want it all
Curse my ******* name under your breath
As you watch me take the elevator
Down a level
To the lobby
To pretend to leave
So you beg me to stay
But I need to learn you will never follow me down
To the lobby
Because you don't want to cause a scene
In front of other people

Tonight we were driving
Down the street near the water
Singing to some song
I already forgot the name of it
But I won't ever forget
The thought
That if I died I wouldn't mind
Because I am genuinely happy
In this moment

"Look up"
I look up
I see nothing but an empty sky
There's not even any stars
So you can't say any stupid romantic thing about the stars
We sit wondering how far it goes
What exactly are we looking at
Just darkness
Pure nothingness
But something is there
We don't know what is out there but something is
Kinda like tomorrow and the next day
And after we die
We don't know what's out there
We find each other's hands in the dark night
Trying to feel some significance in this world
While we realize how minimal this life is
This life that is everything to every individual that lives it

They say they understand
But they don't
Emotions built up inside me
Like an overflowing cup
Things falling out,
But
Things left inside

I feel like I am
Many different people
At many different times
And right now
I am someone who
Wants to hurt others
And not give a ****
About the consequences

I don't dream about you
You always say
"I dreamt of you again"
And I can never say the same
Because you are never on my mind
And I am so sorry
She is always on my mind
You are just here
And she is not

I fall in love with too many people
That I have never even met