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Sydney Rain Nov 2013
I like feeling this way
I like having a break from the sadness
It's just a good day
I have no complaints
Though I'm still confused
I'm happy right now
The smile is real
Why does my chest still feel tight
Sydney Rain Nov 2013
Thank you, Jesus.
Hallelujah.
It must be a miracle.
I'm saved.
Face it, *****.
No ones up there hearing your prayers.
You beg and plead for an ounce of hope.
You're just gonna have to face reality and grow a backbone.
No one's gonna save you so you're gonna have to do it yourself.
I stare into lights.
It hurts my eyes, but I can't seem to turn away.
We have no hope.
We're all going to hell.
All us sick, twisted humans are going to hell.
Thank you, Jesus.
Hallelujah.
It must be a miracle.
I'm saved.
**** that.
YOU'RE ON YOUR OWN
Sydney Rain Nov 2013
Impulsive destruction
Human consumption
Update your status
Beg for attention
We pray for a change
That never came
Because were praying
To the ******* grave
Create Division
Built upon one person's opinion
This is the land of the free
Home of the diseased
Living the American dream
For eternity
Sydney Rain Oct 2013
I once heard of a girl with a lack of muse,
a broken heart,
a razor,
and a noose.
Is it true that pain can make someone change?
The silence is terrifying.
It screams reality.
Eventually that girl got back on her feet.
Found a refuge in the lyrics,
an escape in the beat.
That little girl grew up.
Knew she had to change.
She threw away the razor.
Even changed her ******* name.
She climbed her way to Sydney Rain.
She wont let go of all the pain.
To keep a reminder of awful days.
To build her up to a better place.
She may still have her flaws,
hell, call them her dysfunctions.
But she built a kingdom all her own,
one she wont let crumble.
Sydney Rain Oct 2013
Z
I'm so scared I'm going to lose you
Every day you seem to get worse
So lost in your sadness
I'm scared one day you'll leave
I don't just mean leave me
I mean leave this world
You promised you would stay
But I think that promise is shattering
I hate to see you in so much pain
Watching you cry kills me
I just want you to be happy
I want to make you better
I love you
Sydney Rain Sep 2013
Stab the needle into my chest
Make me numb
Rip out my heart
It doesn't beat anymore
I'm sorry mother for everything
I'm sorry lover for anything
I'm sorry brother, sister
I'm sorry father
Please just cut out my lungs and set me free
Close your eyes and disassemble me
I pretend I'm winning this war for you
But I lied
It's been lies this whole time
I'm not okay
I'm not fine
This is the truth
I'M NOT ******* FINE
I'M NOT ******* FINE
CAN YOU HEAR ME?
RIP OUT MY HEART!
SNAP MY NECK!
CUT MY LUNGS!
STOP MY BREATH!
Disassemble me
Sydney Rain Aug 2013
Sweet, tender kisses finally land on my lips. My whole body goes on auto pilot when I wrap my arms around you and I kiss back. Over and over our lips touch, gently. You pull me in closer and I do the same. One last, long kiss before we pull our lips apart. I rest my forehead on yours and we just breath. You pull me into your chest and hold me.
"I love you" escapes your lips
I bury my face into your neck. "I love you too." I mumble into the collar of your shirt. My first kiss...our first kiss was butterflies.
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