My heart is too big.
I never would have suspected. It has always been frozen.
Maybe I feel so empty because it is so large.  Maybe I'm so dead because so many of you are still in it,  blocking blood flow.  
I never saw this being a problem.

I'm at that point where I'm lost in the chemicals.
The tabs to different pages in my head are transparent,  you always show through.
  I feel the weight of it in my lungs.
  It's burn like straight shots in my stomach.  There is no chaser for the taste of you,  and my lips still tingle.
With teeth clenched I avoid melting while you are not here to dissolve into. Although I'm starting to believe that's all I really want to do anymore.
I'm not sure how you managed to burrow so quickly, quietly,  deeply into my head.  I'm not even sure I mind..

I am fire
A pyre
Watch my flames grow higher
As you ignite me / excite me
Wonder if I could be
Alive like lightning
The idea is frightening
I'd bust open this skin
And **** the stars right in
Glow bright then flash
Burned down to ash

How do you
See right through
My masquerade mask
I've been dying to ask..

Sneaks up all quiet
Ambush then riot
Dizzy spin
Fire within
***** and tears
Unanswered fears
Laugh or cry
Try to defy
Numbed to the core
I can't feel anymore

Your timing is immaculate, I must say
Especially the fact, that you won't stay
When you're around i'm manic
Say too much and panic
Drink and smoke away
But in my mind you stay

Thats not me
And I can't be
A zombie sheep
That does not peep