Over and over results the same
Burning alive in my own flame
Running away from me
Don't know how to be
Or feel
Or whats real

It's like a smile in the sunshine
Part of the day everythings fine
Explode with joy
Then destroyed
Sad and crying
Feel like dying

Now merge the two
and what do you do?
With that imploded heart
******* ripped apart
No balance no ground
In chemicals I drown
How do you smile with a frown
Emotions go round and round

Wanna say my score cards full of gold stars
but inside I'm still just healing scars
My brain is leaking this terrible oozy sadness
I used to believe this was just all ******* madness
Now I know its me
Just not the me you see
Magic pastry chef run the bakery!
What's that ETA for desserts on table 3?
I smile and spin
But deep within
My minds on fire
I wanna be higher
or imma scream or maybe cry
part of me wants to die

But bake this proof that
Time to make people fat

Occasionally I still feel it pull me
Slowly down into that swirling sea
Despite how far I've come
Part of me's eternally numb
Have to ask myself why I'm mad
Tell myself I'm not really sad
Always question the emotion I feel
Found out long ago they're not always real
They come and go without reason
Little bits of self treason
Never notice until its there
That swirling pit of despair
Its like weeks go by normally
Then its all ****** up suddenly
I've learned to handle I've learned to cope
Just take a shot or smoke some dope
I used to think it would go away
But I've learned its here to stay

When you wake up its there
Pop! out of nowhere
A sort of despair..

words rhyme
its time

This pain
Insaine
Depressed
Compressed
Wound till' snap
Can't take this crap
Shut off that brain
Pretend to be tame

No fun to be had
When you're  suddenly sad
This bipolar game
My life it does reign

I guess I cope
Just **** ****
And choke choke
Back the tears
And hidden fears
***** and ****
Are all I need

But its always there waiting
For my resolve to start fading

I would destroy myself to save you
Do whatever I had to
If only I could help you
Just don't know what to do

I let you slip away from me
Hoped that you would be happy
I've watched you struggle for so long
Seen how she has done you wrong
Wish that you could only see
That you need to just be free

And I would destroy myself to save you
Do whatever I had to
If only I could help you
Just don't know what to do

Kitty katt I miss you much
Wish that you would keep in touch
Its hard for me to call you friend
When this silence has no end
Years have passed since I've seen you
Wonder what you've been up to
Starting to think that I should quit
Just give up and forget

But I would destroy myself to save you
Do whatever I had to
If only I could help you
Still don't know what to do

The Creator of
Edible love
Sent from above

Its the candy I love to make
Muffins,  truffles,  and cake
For the art is why I bake

Don't even try to lie
The sweets you can't defy
Espresso Brownies, pumpkin pie

With all certainty
I am so glad to be
A maker of pastry

I have a craving for you similar to liquor or cake
I wish to attack you the moment I wake
that ***** desire I just can't shake
oxytocin bond im afraid might break
so I swim In you until IV lost my breath
I consider drowning I consider death
for I've found oblivion in you
nothing else I'd rather do