I often think of you
who you are, and what you do
you're beautiful to me
don't care what others see

Like the snows in my brain
A specific sort of pain
The Christmas cheer
and Little reindeer
That bring you all joy
Well m they destroy
I'm frozen through
Don't know what to do
Cold is not my friend
There's no way to defend
It just ******* seeps in
Waiting for summer to come
So i don't have to be numb
Thawed by the sunshine
Then I'll be fine

Alcohol my bebe
Only thing to save me
When im acting crazy

Shot 1 shot 2 shot 3
This'll be the death of me

Not sure I care anymore
This world I seem to abhor

Just wanna break and scream and run
Think I gave up on having fun

but in this sstate
I no longer hate

Just content with me
And what I have to be

Drugged
Druggggedd
Drugg gg eedd
Intoxicated
Mind has faded
Little pills
Not for thrills
Sleepy time
I wish to find
Lost my mind
D r u g g e d
D  r  u  g  g  e  d d d
Dreams will come
Once im numb
Fast asleep
Not a peep

Locked in my head
Should be in bed
Melatonin kicking in
Dreamland will win

Always words in my brain
Starting to question how sane
or what it even means..

D R U G G E D
slugged
thoughts of mush
words just gush

Brain is melting down
Surrounded by no sound
Eyelids are losing
Bodys refusing

Sleepy time is here
Dream without fear
....

I sleep too much and lose the day
not really sure what to say
imma spiraling chic lost and broken
so many words I should have spoken
like when you're here
drowned in fear
you remember the times that used to be
and how you had thought that you were free
these feelings were done
on with the fun
now its askew
not sure what to do
I just think of you...

drink drink drink
think think think
**** it all
I wont fall
so empty these days
and the feeling stays
like dunked in ink
so continue to drink
fill that void
or be destroyed
not sure what to do
but I think of you..

Just keep trying to get you out of my head
Or at the very least drag you back into bed

I'm running out of words for you
Because everything you say and do
Is simply magic through and through

Just wanted you to know
You fill me up until I overflow
And I never want to let you go

I wish to see you
You saturate all my thoughts
Like a *** soaked cake
syrupy drops through my skull
Tell me to never let go