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SweetCindy Jul 2012
If I told him all I feel,
would he see my love's for real?
And if he knew my thoughts each day
What would he say?

If I let him read my story
Praising him with love & glory.
If he knew it's about him I pray
What would he say?

And if my poetry he did read
and if he knew it's him I need -
that my days without him are filled with gray -
What would he say?

And if I met another man
and in marriage he asked for my hand
the truth would be told, down it would lay
but what would HE say?

© 1994
SweetCindy Jul 2012
For years I racked my brain for ways to make you mine.
Today, I finally realized I wasted all that time.

For, here you stand before a joyful crowd
Announcing the love you share for her out loud...

Declaring your loyalty & devotion to her always,
While I watch & listen in a misty tearful haze.

I never thought my feelings for you ran so deep,
but now my feelings, to myself I must forever keep.

And each time I see you both, in your happiness
I will remember to myself that all those years were hopeless.

© 2000
SweetCindy Jul 2012
Perhaps it was the season's scent
Or the beauty of the trees
I thought for each other we were meant
We got along with such ease.

In a room of no less than twenty
still it seemed it was just us two.
It felt as though the room was empty
Our eyes on each other like glue.

I felt like I already knew you
As if we were life-long friends.
Everything I say is true
And to these words I make no amends.

Your eyes a handsome hazel shade
a color similar to mine.
and in my mind pleasant ideas played
as to be only yours I did pine.

So charming, handsome, and witty as well
all packaged into one.
For such great & ideal qualities I fell
And soon my heart you had won.

Yet, I was just the next on your list
of young girls to win & then drop.
With your words & actions my heart was amiss
I didn't want it to stop.

But they say "all good things must have a finale"
you set me straight in my ways.
Just beyond the peak, comes the plummet to the low valley
but still the heart my mind obeys.

For my mind says "Forget him!
You can do much better"
But my heart disagrees & insists I hold on
& the battle just makes me "upsetter"

So you're gone & day & night
I keep dwelling on what's to come now
I have a strong battle I continue to fight
The question now raised is - how?

© 2002
SweetCindy Jul 2012
I** feel I am not good enough
No one really needs me.
Although I have many skills,
Disapproval is all I foresee.
Everyone looks for more
Questioning my future life goals.
Uncaring to my personal feelings.
Always wanting things their way.
Taking me under their control.
Everyone wants more than I have to offer.

© 1996
SweetCindy Jul 2012
I say it all the time but it's never true
I'll put my mind on something else & I'll get over you.
I'll focus on my work or maybe look for another guy
but there's always that internal quirk - I can't forget you no matter how hard I try.
"I only like him as a friend" - that's what I try to say.
But it all comes down to the same in the end, I can't give up - there's no way.

© 1999
SweetCindy Jul 2012
The EARTHQUAKE of remembering you - I "SHAKE" when I think of everything new.
A TORNADO  of confusion engulfs me - the "WHIRLING WONDER" of what will come to be.
The THUNDER CLAPS" of emotion - my loud "HEART BEATS" with devotion.
HURRICANES* of raging winds blowing - thoughts & feelings "DESTROY" because of not knowing.
RAINS of love, or maybe not - should I "POUR" out my heart or let it be forgot?
Yet, there is SUNSHINE after the storm - my feelings are shared and make my heart "WARM"
From now on there are only BLUE SKIES - I will love you "FOREVER", no more 'goodbyes'.
Your word of love, like a CRISP AUTUMN BREEZE - "REFRESH" me with your promise of love, forever, please.

© 1994
SweetCindy Jul 2012
She quietly snuck out of the crowded room and walked across the yard.
Heading towards the top of a small hill by a tall tree where the ground underneath was hard.

When she got there, she sat down alone with thoughts racing through her mind:
of life & friends & love & tears & how they can sometimes be so unkind.

She sat there half wanting to be alone & half hoping that "he" would come.
He'd noticed after some time, that he remembered seeing her leave and realized how long she'd been gone.

And he knew she often came here - she had seen him watching her leave.
Some cold nights, when she came here to think he'd let her borrow his warm coat with long sleeves.

He'd join her there but never for long - only to look up at the stars
Then he'd smile & say: "Take your time, but remember I'm not going far"

She loved that about him - how the simplest words could invoke
feelings of love & contentment, then she thought: she loved him whenever he spoke.

And as she sat with her thoughts, she heard the footsteps and a chill rushed up her spine.
Yet, this night was not a cold one, she shivered because she knew who was behind.

And without a word he sat beside her and stared in the direction her head was turned.
and as he waited for her to speak the tears in her closed eyes burned.

She wanted HIM to be the first to speak, to confess his feelings of love.
And she sat & waited to hear those words as the silence was broken by a small bird above.

And he put his arm around her shoulder & in just one word  ("sorry")
He told her how he cared for her deeply and he wished it was from him she first heard.

She said nothing in reply as she reflected on the chatter she heard among the crowd:
that "he has loved her for years & years" & how "his head was in the clouds".

He told her the party had been called in her honor - he wanted to finally reveal the facts
That he had loved her sincerely from the start & now he could never turn back.

And now as she turned to look at him her tears clashed with his own.
Hers tears of joy & his of regret for keeping it secret so long.

And she wrapped both arms around him and whispered in his ear "Thank you!"
And in those two words what she really said was "I love you!"

And on that hill 20 years later they stood together, where he first asked her to be his wife.
And vowed to share eternity together in a happy & love-filled life.

© 2003
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