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SweetCindy Jul 2012
I loved you from the deepest part of my heart.
You said you loved me from the start.
I said: "I don't understand.. why me?"
You said: "Because you're you.. I'll love you endlessly!"

You told me, though we had to part
Not to forget you - to keep you in my heart.
I promised I would - yes, always!
And everyday, in my mind, your memory plays.

You - my first true love -
you're the only one I'm thinking of.
Do you realize it's torture on me?
I love you, but you I cannot see.

I pretend the sound of your voice is all I need.
But I am continuously wrong.
To see you, feel you, hold you - I plead!
Without you I can't go on!

I love you, but I still don't understand -
Why me? You could have anyone!
To feel the touch of your kiss again,
I long for that day to come!

© 1995
SweetCindy Jul 2012
I promise to love you with all my heart.
I promise to stay & never part.
To love you, to hold you, be there in times of need.
For you to promise the same to me, I plead.
My promise, my oath, my vows I have spoken.
Promises made, promises never broken.

I promise to laugh in times of pleasure.
When you are sad I'll comfort you in full measure.
I promise to give you all that you desire.
I promise my love for you will never tire.
My promise, my oath, my vows I have spoken.
Promises made, promises never broken.

I promise to you I'll devote my whole life.
I promise to make myself your perfect wife.
I promise to you my zeal and devotion.
My feeling, affection, sentiments & emotion.
My promise, my oath, my vows I have spoken.
Promises made, promises never broken.

A happy, successful family we will raise.
I promise to provide for my children always.
My time, my love, my understanding
I promise to give when problems need handling.

So now, to you I've given my word -
My assurance, my pledge and bestowal you've heard.
Will you promise the same to me?
Please give me your heartfelt testimony.

Your promise, your oath, your vows let be spoken.
Promises made, but never ever broken.

© 1992
SweetCindy Jul 2012
You captured my heart,
You stole it away.
Things were going so bad
then you came and saved my life
right on time.
Many times, I thought you'd forget about me,
or you'd think I wasn't good enough for you.
But, as soon as these feelings began to invade,
you loved me even more than you did before.
Now my heart is yours!
I am dedicated to you in heart, in mind, in soul.
I'll love you until the day that I die.
Please, never forget, I'm all yours!!

© 1992
SweetCindy Jul 2012
When he looks at me, he stares....he loves me!
Then again maybe he glares...he loves me not.

He smiled! He smiled at me!... He loves me!
Oh wait! It was the girl behind me...he loves me not.

He's approaching - maybe he wants to talk...he loves me!
I guess I was wrong - he continues to walk...he loves me not.


He's having a party and I'm invited!...He loves me!
He calls it off for a more important engagement...he loves me not!

He's talking with his friends and at me they look...He loves me!
They start to laugh they think I'm too hooked...He loves me not.

He stares at me, smiles & then approaches... He loves me!
He talks to me - tells me his friends were his 'coaches'... He loves me!
They told him to no longer hide his secret... He loves me!
He tells me how long it was for him to keep it:  HE LOVES ME!!

© 1992
SweetCindy Jul 2012
Lost, but I know where I'm going - determined to reach my goal.  Helping others, forgetting myself.  I want to be outside, free, getting closer to God. But stuck inside this Hell, as a slave, getting slapped by demons. They want me to fall, to stay down, repeat the same mistakes - over & over & over.  Find ways to deceive and delude my mind, to disguise their crafty tricks. They steal our brains and replace them with implanted ideas and beliefs created by others they have seduced. Little does the "uninformed" mind know that their fate for you is death.  Self-induced, accidental, or judicially enforced they want you dead - with them.  There's one book not many read that leads you to the key, to reclaim your mind, think for yourself & set yourself free. When you do, come find me.

© 2012
SweetCindy Jul 2012
I don't know where to start - perhaps the beginning is my best bet.
Although I'm not sure if I should start with the "beginning" of my life or just the misery yet.
I write these cliche rhymes to distract from my mental chaos,
To veil the scattered thoughts for which I am at a loss.
Should I explain how at 34 years old I have yet to find true love.
Or how I'm stuck in a hellish job which I'm sick and tired of?
or that I am proud and ashamed of my family at the same time.
or how I worry that I have missed my calling & that I'm past my prime.
Is this the proper venue to SCREAM for a helping hand?
Am I alone in this jungle of inner battles in this foreign land?
Foreign because I don't know who I've become,
don't understand the language in my head, where these surroundings came from.
Makes no sense to you because you don't know my history
Even to me my ramblings are a mystery.
My brain shoots thoughts like comets to the page.
Flashes of light in my mind, Lightning streaks, trampling like a rampage.
How can I feel so capable & confident
and at the same time helpless & insecure?
How can I write so many words
and say nothing.....

© 2012 Cindy Quick

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