The perfect fit
Between two people
The worst time
Yet
A love so true
Meant to be
But must say goodbye
Wanting to rewind
To make it all right
You're everything
I dreamed
Oh why
Must you
Be my true love
When it can't work?

Heart beats
It races
Adrenaline
Strong and sweet
Courses through me
Wind howls
Screams at me
"You wouldn't
"You couldn't
"You're not brave enough"
Laughter
Squeezes out my throat
"Watch me"
I shout as I
Fall
Wind through my hair
Bubbling laughter
See?
I did it
I float
As the parachute
Comes out
I just proved
That I am
Brave

I'm haunted
Not with ghosts
But with a disease
You would never guess
By looking at me
I seem normal
But I have a secrete
A dark
Dangerous
Secrete
That keeps me up at night
A shrink
Once a week
A doctor
Once a month
Nothing helps
At least not yet
Food
Fattening food
Scares me
Eating is hard
I hate it
Hate being
Haunted

I cry
Sob
Loud
Ugly
Sobs
As I watch
My beautiful
Bald baby boy
Slowly
Painfully
Take his last
Breath
Who said death was peaceful?
They were wrong
It's painful
Pain that will never
End
Time does not
Heal all wounds
Not when you watch
Your son
Die
All hope is lost
Cancer stole my
Beautiful blue-eyed son
From his mother
From me
Don't say it's okay
Because it's not
It never will be
So don't expect me
To move on
Like I never had
A son
A beautiful son
A bright son
I kiss his lips
Lips now blue
From death
One last time
I may have reached
My breaking point
But I'll keep fighting
Fighting for
Other kids
That still have a chance
Chance to live
Live like my son
Never did
Live a life
Without
Cancer

Abandoned
Left to fend
Not knowing a thing
Expected to survive
Adrift
In a sea of forgottenness
In a blanket of misery
Hungry
Afraid
No where to go
No one to run to
Knowing deep down
I won't survive
Dread
Roaring in my soul
Fear
Clouding my thoughts
Emotions raging
Going insane
From the uncertainness
And abandonment
Feeling reality's sharp sting
Finally realizing for the first time
He used me
****** me dry
Like a ravenous vampire
Drank every last drop
Until all that's left
Is a shell of
Myself

Praise Anna
Praise Mia
Shackle me up
Please
Please
Rob me
Rob me of
My innocence
My childhood
Fill me with lies
Make me believe
I'm unloveable
Because of my size
I kneel before you
Spoon down my throat
Trying to throw up
These crumbs
I forced down
Keep me
Keep me
As prisoner
Hand me the pills
The knife
The gun
Anything
So I can die
Young and
Beautiful
Because beauty is life
I don't want to grow old
If it means
Ugly and grey
Teach me
Teach me
Food is the enemy
And you
Are my friend
My best friend
My only friend
And you won't let me
Down
Let me cling to you
Adrift
All alone
In your sea
Of broken promises
And crushed dreams
Make me see fat
When others see bone
Let me get lost
In you
So I won't face
Reality
I'm 90 pounds
Skin and bones
Close to death
A hospital bed
Tube down my throat
Pumping fat
Into my stomach
Rehab telling me
I'm beautiful
I'm strong
Trying to wake me up
Break your chains
Free me
From your embrace
Oh dear
Anna
Mia
You do a marvelous job
Claiming lives
Ripping apart
Families
Stealing joy
Trapping people
With your silkily smile
Convincing them
To throw everything
Away
For beauty

Your fiery touch
Burning my skin
Igniting my soul
Hot breath
Against my ear
Your voice
Whispering
"You're so beautiful"
Hold me close
Keep me safe
Never let go
Passion courses through me
Temptation whispering
More
More
More
I want more of you
Your eyes
Bright in the moonlight
Full of hope
Promises
On your lips
I sigh
Softly
Giving you all of me
My heart
My soul
My life
I plunge freely
Happily
Knowing you'll be
Right here
To catch me
Time
And time again
You're perfect
Like you were made
Just for me
Love like I've never
Felt before
I know
In my heart
We will last
Forever
You are the reason
I now have
A future full of hope
I can love you
Limitlessly
Unconditionally
Forever