Did my enemies send me demons
So I would suffer?
Did they wish me dead,
Just to prove they’re right?
Was I simply too ahead of myself,
And burned my own life?

What if they all get tired of me
For seeing me tired all the time
I wish I could explain
How this is different from last month
Or the last week
I am all the shade of grey and blue
I wish I could show it all to you
What if no one believes me anymore
What if my sadness makes you mad
And I can’t make you laugh
Sometimes I feel like a killer
I’ve killed myself a hundred times in my head
But I feel like I’ve killed everyone around me
Because I don’t see anyone now
And it makes me even more sad
Someone told me to pray
Beg for forgiveness
For letting the demon in my body
How do I tell them
I am my own demon
I’ve tried to exorcise myself
Crawled and knelt til I bled
All I could do is cry
God knows how much I want to be better
But I’ve fallen deeper than anyone could think
And it’s all dark in here
I only have me

Can you help me think straight
Because I feel like my brain is rotting
From not getting any sleep every night
I wish I was doing this for a good reason
But **** it, it’s been like this for years
I don’t hear my body anymore
Is it struggling
Gasping for air
Is it failing
From getting soaked in tears
Is it working overtime
And not shutting down
I couldn’t understand it
I have no way to understand it
Can you help me think straight
And put this body to sleep