hello

i miss you

(i wish
i could tell you.)

we keep
searching for words
that sound
like flowers

echoing
in autumn
before they fall

but all we ever find
with tired
hopeless eyes
are the words
that sound

like crumbling
petals

i am waiting for you
and the cracks
between your fingers

at night
when i fall asleep
and dream
about anyone
but you

i feel your absence
and i feel my mind
moving to the space
you hold
over and over

i am waiting
for you

sometimes
I love you

and sometimes
I am too afraid
to

does that mean
that I don't?