I hate how you’re trying to laugh it over
As if my sadness is nothing much
Leave me alone, don’t come to me
I’m afraid to get attached to someone who’s gonna leave me anyway

I’m okay
Don’t comfort me, don’t pity me
You don’t need to be by my side
Cause I’m okay

I’m okay
Don’t worry, don’t concern yourself
Cause I’m used to
Being alone anyway
I’m okay

You don’t know anything
So stop acting like you do
You say you’re doing this for me?
Mind your own business
I wanna be alone
So please leave me alone

I'm exactly that.

Sadness
Into
Happiness.

Regret
Turned into
Joy.

It's funny now.
How if I do something
You always make it about yourself

They compare me to you
Wanting me
Too be more like you.

When you mess up,
No big deal
Because you're the Golden Child.

But me?
Shunned to the side, a dissapointment, a waste.

I'm sorry I can't feed your ego.
That I'm horrible by not catering to your every need.

You blackmail me to get what you want
Spreading lies to all your friends,
That I'm a monster
Deciving
Scheming
Disgusting

I hate that I still love you,
Sis that I hold dear.

Experience
and its points
are
well
strange.

They're happy
why aren't we?

They're as human
as we are.

Basic human rights
are pushed away
when you sell your soul
to the business.

They're your only comfort
so are your tears
your bed
and your mates

You live
in the practice rooms
withering away
energy depleted.

Family is forgetten
the only family now
are them
your mates
and the one thing you work for:

Music

Isn't it hilarious?
That the ones
You love
Like you
Sister
and
Mother
Don't care
About you?
They say,
'I love you'
but they yell at you,
'I hate you'
In the same day?
Over
a measly
pair
of earbuds?

How do I
Convey to someone
That I hate them
Without speaking?
Crying
While silent?
Trying to
BE
INDEPENDENT
LIKE
YOU
TOLD
ME
TO,
GROW UP,
MAKE A VOICE,
AND
B R E A T H E
WITHOUT YOU FAWNING OVER ME LIKE I'M SOME NEWBORN DEER IN THE WINTER, MOTHERLESS, UNLOVED, AND UNCARED FOR.

They lied
Sugar-coated lies,
Harsh lies,
Bitter,
Vengeful lies.
I'm used to it.
Used to it all.
Starting at the age of four.

I stayed up
Crying.
I'm...
Happy?
This is better
Take off the make-up
Let the world see
How
They
Treated you.

Scars
Eyebags
The whole shabang.

Be against them
Even
If
You're
The
Only
One.

But

They don't ask
Not for my side of the story
Why I did it
Or
If
I
Was
Alright.

I HATE
THIS
WORLD
AND THIS
FAMILY

WHY
DID
YOU
PUT
ME
HERE

It's my birthday on Friday.
Maybe they'll notice if I die.
Most likely they won't.
But it won't matter to them.
But it will matter to me.