When it rains
I count the little droplets on the window
I avoid the cold black widow
As it hangs high at the ceiling
It gives me an odd feeling
A feeling that makes me wish
That even if I'm rich
Death would be my escape
From a world
Hollow and *****
From a vision
Of pure and total hate
Why do these people hate me
Why do they hurt and interrogate me
Asking unspoken questions
Looking for unknown answers
Invalidating my prestige
Through intolerably hateful banter
Yes
I see this
And feel the pulsing of my veins
Yes
I see this
Every time it rains

What am I gonna do?
Whatever you want me to?
I'm so far away from you
And I don't understand
This life I cant stand
Secrecy
Is a fallacy
A memory
Instantly
Drives me away
My mind continues
To scream
And to shout
What is my life about?
So
What do I do?

I take a drink
And then I think
I'm not alone
But still on the brink
Of insanity
In calamity
Flashing lights
A gun blast sounds
It keeps me sane
It keeps me bound
I sip again
And take another shot
I sit again
And get shot a lot
You all might think it's lame
But I love my *****
And my video games

I cant seem to find
That solid reason why
I try, and I try, and I try
To keep my spirits high
The world just falls apart
Shatters at my feet
Hoping my heart will start
As I fall down to my knees
Seeing the light through wary alarm
As I lie face down in the street
The blood does pool around me
Footsteps echo all around
A person who no one can see
A reverberating sound
One that doesn't exist
And now I'm gone
Another mark
On another list
It's all the same
Nobody really knows my name

Tyranny
Is infamy
And it consumes us
Instantly
It absorbs us
Completely
The source
Incredibly
Is our own problems
Our own people
Change occurs
In a colored steeple
As others take a needle
To feel good
To get healed
To feel understood
To be revealed
As one
One people
One race
One taste
No haste
Uncontrolled fusion
We're all simply human

Let it pass
Is what they say
It's all in the past
One thousand yesterdays
But can they really tell
That inside I'm in hell
Trapped under a love spell
By someone who doesn't care anymore
And now I'm torn
Shredded to pieces
Battered and broken
In a river of tears
I sit soaking
Drowned in my fears
Can you hear the thunder
The thunder that pulls me under
The crimson tide
And the clover blood
I'm now undone
I know I cannot last
As I look into the past
Wishing the pain would pass
Till then I'll just stare
I'll stare through the looking glass
And try to forget the one who once cared

Thinking of a time
Thinking of a place
Thinking of a rhyme
Thinking of the face
That brings forth my power
Like a ******* tower
Higher and higher
We fly
Together
Whether the weather watches us wait
Is a question to be answered by the fates
Thinking
Wondering
Being
Pondering
The world around
Is out of the shroud
Keeping me down
Now I rise
I rise higher than ever before
I rise to meet the score
As I sit wondering and drinking
Drinking brings forth the thinking
Thinking of a time
Thinking of a place
Thinking of a rhyme
Thinking of the face
That makes me wonder