it has taken 8 months for me to fall in love with you
but it will take a lifetime to admit it.

When it is about to end,
you always think back to the beginning.

I hope if you ever tell me you love me
that I can believe it
and that you honestly mean it.

because i already know
this will be the biggest heartbreak yet.

I love hearing you laugh hard, it makes me happy
I love watching you drive, it makes me feel protected
I love driving with you, it makes me feel infinite
I love when you tickle me, it makes me think you like my smile
I love when you wake me up with a call, its the only thing that gets me up
I love when you let me cry on you, I can't do that with anyone else
I love you, and I'm in love with you.

oh darling
when will you realize that home
is not a house
but a feeling

I don't want to go the rest of my life wondering what would've happened if I was brave enough to love you.
What if by following my head, I've just shut you out of my heart because I'm afraid?
What if love is enough?
How will I know if I never try?
What if I give you my heart and you make me happy?
Even if it's just for a little while, I think it might be worth it.
You make my heart ache in a good way and that has to mean something, right?
What if we tried instead of giving up because "it's for the best"?
What would happen if we followed our hearts this time?

I could've'e sworn i saw something in your eyes
those radiant blue eyes had purpose
the look you gave me had to contain something
i might be crazy but your words and your eyes did not coincide
I thought i knew what your eyes were expressing
but i could not ascertain whether or not you loved me

Im here thinking about you
while you are thinking about her,
and she is thinking about him.
Me and you are in the same boat,
both with bullet wounds in our hearts
from the one's we've loved
who don't want to love us back.

I need a Romeo
to die for this Juliet,
I need someone willing
to catch me if I fall for him.
Someone sweet
Someone kind
Someone who won't lie to me.
All I ever wanted was a guy
to make me happy.
So many impostures,
break, break, breaking my heart.
I think I've cried so much
that I could cry you a river.

Even though you broke my heart
I still want to hold you
wishing every day that you would realize
that she's wrong for you.
please come back to  me
I wonder what we could be

I miss you and I know you miss me too
baby please come back to me
she is getting in our way.

I tried so hard to resist the taste of your lips again.
Saying no to the chance to feel happiness for a few fleeting seconds
is a very difficult thing.
I felt a strong pull in my chest to connect to you
and I tried to pull back
but the heart wants what it wants.
I gave in.
The next day you were all that I could think of
but I knew you weren't still thinking of me
so I snapped out of it.
and I went on my first date with him.
And I kissed him that night,
but it wasn't the same because I wasn't madly in love with him,
like I am with you.

Im tired of crying in my bed in the middle of the night
I want to find love, and I want everything to be alright.

I hear your voice louder than ever
in the silence.

I have a feeling
deep inside me
that keeps growing
every time I see you.

It starts in my stomach
now it's in my heart
the feeling changed
and it's ripping me apart
slowly
you broke my heart
but I should've known
I saw it coming
the day I met you.

You led me on
just to leave me hanging
trying to get by
day by day
I can't go much longer
If  I have to see you with her
it tears me apart
that you don't care anymore
I thought you were the one
that we'd be happy
but I was wrong
I was never an option.

You do things with her
that I wish you did with me
but I guess I wasn't special enough,
I have to earn love.

That's not normal.
Im done with this.
I don't need you,
I need a real man.
Who shows me off to his friends,
who will hold man hand even if it's just for a few minutes,
who will hug me for hours,
who will kiss me in the rain,
who will comfort me when I'm down,
but most importantly,
who will love me when there is nothing left to love.

Recently i was starting to move on
Recently he told he loves me
Recently i've told him i love him too
Recently i had *** for the second time
Recently i've felt empty
Recently i told my best friend i'm not a ******
Recently i figured out the difference between love and being in love
Recently i realized im not in love with him
Recently i've started to follow my head, not my heart
Recently i've felt alone
Recently i've had to make a decision
Recently i've decided not to be in a relationship with him
Recently i've realized that love is not enough
Recently i've felt numb
Recently i've decided not to have *** until marriage
Recently i've decided to work on myself and my relationship with God
Recently i've realized that worldly desires don't satisfy
Recently i've decided to put God before everything

sleeping against the wall almost felt like you, but not quite.

I think if i told you that I'm still in love with you
and that my love has grown an immense amount
that it would ruin our friendship.
And something is better than nothing, i guess,
so ill keep it in.

I see you and
my heart drops
my mind stops
my soul jumps
our souls bump.

Don't tell me that you love me
when I am finally moving on,
Don't tell me you don't want me
after my heart sang your song.
Don't tell me about her
because you told me you moved on.

remember when you said you adored me?
what happened to us?
I miss who we were back then.

You kiss me in such a way
that i can tell that your souls has been searching for mine
for centuries.

You kiss me in such a way
that I feel every ounce of passion
in each little embrace.

You kiss me in such a way
that pulling away from your lips
makes my heart ache for more.

You don't have to be in a relationship to love someone,
and you don't have to love someone to be in a relationship.
#thesadtruth

Sweet darling,

I've always known
but lately I've been feeling it more
I have never been more sure of it
than I am at this moment

I want to be in your intense love
for the rest of my life
I want to feel your passion
with every touch
You are the love of my life
and the one that I want

Making my heart feel like its summer
when the rain is pouring down
is an understatement
My heart is on fire
in this cold cold winter
and the reason is clear

its you
its always been you

You are so clearly
meant for me

So be mine
for the rest of our lives
be mine
and we will light up this world

I am here for you
and you are here for me

we will come home to such a warm house
filled with our undying love and passion

You are the groggy mornings after you kept me up because you needed me to get through the night.
You are the worry lines forming on my face from the constant anxiety that you might hurt yourself.
You are the deep ache in my heart because I know you will never love me like you loved her.
You are the tears on my pillow case because you are so beyond amazing and I want to be yours but can't.
You are the struggle I face because there is so much good in you but you insist on only seeing the bad.
You are the breath that leaves my lungs every time I imagine my life without you.
You are the pride in my heart because I see that all you want to do is help people.
You are the smile on my face because you make me so happy just seeing you.
You are the best friend in my introverted life.
And you are the the greatest love I will ever experience.

I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you

I really love you a lot.

I feel so invisible to you.
You tell me what kind of woman you are looking for
and all i can think is "I am all those things"
but you will never see me like that
and it kills me
to know that I love you beyond measure
and you love her even further.

You fell asleep thinking of me
and woke up thinking of her.

it hurts because
you don't care anymore

it hurts because
when i get mad
you don't try to fix it

it hurts because
when i walk away
you dont run after me anymore

and it hurts because
you don't care anymore
and i care even more than before.

sometimes
you have to do things
you don't want to do
because those things are necessary.

tonight im going to tell him
that we need to honestly act like
just friends.

We need to do this
so i don't get hurt in the end.
when we are at different colleges
and find other people.

i have to get over you
before that
because being away from you
will only cause me
to create you into someone
you are not.

this will be hard for me because
every fiber of my being
wants to kiss you.

i just pray
that i can get the words out tonight
and that its the right thing to do.

when was the exact moment when you decided you'd let me down again?
was it when i asked you to sleep over and you figured you'd lead me on?
was it yesterday when you decided not to go home?
or was it today when you got a better offer to hang out with strangers?
I keep falling for your stupid games
i ask you if you ever wanted to and you say you did
but you never do
and i should put the pieces together
because actions speak louder than words.
this doesn't affect you
it only affects me
because every time i get my hopes up
I have to keep one foot in reality
because your unpredictability is predictable
and my heart break a little bit every time you leave me hanging.

I feel empty without your love.
you were the only thing I wanted and the only thing I wanted to love.
but since youve been gone, I want nothing more than to belong.
I was more when I was with you, but now I am empty all day long.

"The world is a rotten place,
if you find even a sliver of happiness,
you gotta hold on to it"

I tried,
but what happens when your sliver of happiness
lets go?

Does anyone actually know what love is?
or what the difference between loving someone
and being in love with them?

I don't know how to unlove you.

thank you
for teaching me
not to follow my heart.

that is the best thing
you could've told me.

somehow you knew
that i tend to go with
what my heart is telling me.

but what i've come to realize is
that hearts are reckless.

hearts can't think about the future,
they want what they want now.

hearts don't know what'll happen in the end,
but they sure feel it when they are breaking.

i think
after every breaking,
while they heal,
they get harder.

they callous as a reminder
to never make the same mistake
and end up with regrets
again.

this is why we shouldn't follow our hearts,
no matter how appealing it may seem.
we must think smart to not get hurt.

so thank you
for teaching me
not to follow my heart.

Maybe I leave with them because I can’t come home to you.

you walked into my life
as just another guy
made an effort, hoping
I would notice, guess what,
I did, it worked, you're in.

we talked for a while
hit it off, now we're
working on us.

these days are the good ones,
when a simple wave can make our days.
no fights, its like we're high,
not feeling pain, can't stop smiling.

now everything is tumbling down,
don't know what's going on.
wondering where we went wrong.
is it because I didn't want to "hang"?
well I had a reason for that,
news gets around quick, especially
when you tell your cousin, my best friend,
you weren't gonna talk to me this summer,
what's that about?!

I got furious you see,
you talk to me like everything is like normal,
I tried but it wasn't the same.

we fell out of love,
or whatever we had.
then we meet again,
go swimming,
have fun,
you took my heart prisoner,
and I fell in love all over again,
but it's different this time,
*I can't love you , you love another.

my eyes are tired
my hair a mess
and yet each morning
i wake excited for my life with you.