woke up wanting you.

sometimes
you have to do things
you don't want to do
because those things are necessary.

tonight im going to tell him
that we need to honestly act like
just friends.

We need to do this
so i don't get hurt in the end.
when we are at different colleges
and find other people.

i have to get over you
before that
because being away from you
will only cause me
to create you into someone
you are not.

this will be hard for me because
every fiber of my being
wants to kiss you.

i just pray
that i can get the words out tonight
and that its the right thing to do.

thank you
for teaching me
not to follow my heart.

that is the best thing
you could've told me.

somehow you knew
that i tend to go with
what my heart is telling me.

but what i've come to realize is
that hearts are reckless.

hearts can't think about the future,
they want what they want now.

hearts don't know what'll happen in the end,
but they sure feel it when they are breaking.

i think
after every breaking,
while they heal,
they get harder.

they callous as a reminder
to never make the same mistake
and end up with regrets
again.

this is why we shouldn't follow our hearts,
no matter how appealing it may seem.
we must think smart to not get hurt.

so thank you
for teaching me
not to follow my heart.

wrong person,
right time.

right person,
wrong time.

either way,
it hurts in the end.

friends for four years
separating for college
going to different states
and losing them forever.

it ***** when one of your best friends
starts to get annoyed by your presence
we used to hang out all the time
and be happy together.

now you think i am weird
when all i am doing is having fun
with one of our other best friends.

nothing ***** more than losing a friend
because "thats the way life is".

loving someone
who is incapable of love
is self destructive.

It says a lot about you
If you can pretend to be a nice guy
And use such a sweet girl who has the best intentions
And If you can corrupt an innocent girl and not feel guilty.

You're an *******, I hope you know that.

Maybe you think it is normal to get a girl and use her for your own ****** pleasures, and not think twice about what she feels.

Most of your **** is shoved into your personality.

My worst fear is being used and you did just that without thinking twice.
I can honestly say I hate you.

I hope you learn how to treat a woman in the future and that your relationships work out well.
Because you don't want to know what it feels like to be lied to and used, you ******* idiot.