you will never know the real me
never figure out what makes me tick
never know what i dream of when i stare out the window
you will never know
i gave you a chance but you are too emotionally detached to want to know
you will never know what i'm thinking
never know why i love the sunrise from an airplane
this goes both ways
i will never know your motives
i will never know what you saw in me
i will never know why you put all these walls up
i will never know why you think fire is so beautiful
i will never know why you aren't close to your family
i will never know why you are so shallow
i guess its better to not know than to get hurt trying

I think i'm addicted
no, not to drugs
not to alcohol
but to pain
not physical pain but emotional
i go through periods of high happiness
when i'm here
i want to feel sad
all i want is to cry and feel something
when he broke my heart
i liked crying
i didn't like being sad
but i liked crying
i don't know why
but i love that feeling
so gut wrenchingly sad
that your heart aches so bad
i love it and hate it at the same time
i'm addicted and can't be treated

Im too young
to feel this broken
Too young
to be in love
I was heart broken once
and i vowed to never be again
i waited awhile
then you came along
you showed an interest
and i was optimistic
i said "ill give it a shot"
"Ill be careful"
"i won't get hurt"
i fell
too hard, and too fast
you left me emphatically heartbroken
i vowed this would never happen again
i broke that vow
but this time
i'm serious.

short and sweet
you don't deserve me
but i don't care
i will love you anyways

I want you to miss me
I want you to want me
I want you to stay
and I want you to love me
All this time
Ive been waiting and waiting
for what?
for you to kiss me like you miss me as much as i miss you
these last five months have been unbearable
i can't go anywhere without thinking of you
you were emotionally detached when i knew you
you seem to have more emotions now than ever
i don't know if that a signal
but if it is, i'm getting it loud and clear
Im too shy to tell you how i feel
so please tell me you miss me
ill tell you i miss you too
just tell me whats wrong
i promise ill be there for you
Please just come back to me
you've been gone for so long
i love you differently now
i think i can love you better than ever

If only you knew what i think of you
In the middle of the night when i should be sleeping
In the middle of the day when i see you reading
I don't know if this is love
But i love the way you move
Reading a book, writing a thought, even listening in class
Your idiosyncrasy grabs my heart
If only you knew what I thought of you
when you kissed my lips, I thought it would last
when you held my hand, I was enchanted at last
All i was, was in love with being loved
If only you knew
How i think of you now that you're gone
If only you knew
What i think when i see you with someone new
Ive fallen in love with the way you move
the way you touch
the way you feel
the way  you think
I don't want anyone to fall in love with these things
Because they won't appreciate them the way i do.

It's been five months
It comes back in flashes
Talking with friends, reading a book, writing a paper
I can't get away from my memories
I can't stop thinking about you
You flood my mind day in and day out
I cry because Im ashamed
I let myself down
I said I wouldn't fall for you
I said I wouldn't get hurt
You seemed so interested
I was so naiive
I thought you would be the one to end up heartbroken
I was wrong
You broke my heart without looking back
I know you don't think it hurt me because I didn't cry in front of you
But it did
It hurt so bad
What hurts more is that i am still here,
completely infatuated with you months later
and you have already moved on
You're into another girl
I miss you so bad that ive convinced myself that im in love with you
I fantasize about you kissing me in the rain haphazardly
I can only dream about that happening
You can't even look at me let alone muster up the courage to kiss me
I don't know how to get over you and move on
I just wish forgetting you was as easy as you forgot about me