I just dont care if I'm breathing anymore.
I might be alive but my day by days are leaving me tired and sore.
Better off dead.
Seems like every bad thing only happens to me. They say it only gets better but how would they know? My life's been nothing but letdowns and treachery.

I just can't believe how many bad apples and sour seeds your god seems to force feed me
All I've ever wanted was to believe
Apparently there's  an all knowing being and he's watching over me.
Apparently he knows best but I'll bet it all on black that he doesn't know anything about me and he'll leave. The outcome isn't easy.
But I'll digest. You don't ******* know me.  

Your all just so eager to die. To see that bright white light and life flash before your eyes.
I promise you there's no afterlife.
You think there's a better place but this hell ends and there's no paradise.  I'm slowly dying and there's no happy ending in sight.

It's all just been one big blur since the mistake of my birth and I won't let my presence be a burden on anyone anymore.
I'm sorry you worry
Im sorry that I'm me.
I don't feel like it's fair
Every ****** hand
Every sour apple that's been given to me. I thought there was a light at the end of every tunnel.
But lately I've been thinking.

If there's a god than he's always wrong, there's no father, son and there's no Holy Spirit
There's no good graces and there's no reward for the righteous.
I've had friends die, seen parents cry. Mine left and I felt dead and took care of myself from age fourteen. I've been laughed at felt betrayals stab. cheated on and crawled back.

My love I hope you know the clocks stop turning when I'm with you. But days still pass and tomorrow is another night that I'll miss you.
Without you. I feel so shaken and my stomach jumps and churns.
The anxiety doesn't stop until I see you step out of your door.

Now you open my car and jump on in. Baby were on our way to the rest of our lives. We're on that familiar drive and all I do is talk and tell you what's been on my mind.
I love that I can confide and feel fine.
But Allison don't be surprised,
Your always the one on my mind.

Everything seems so different.
I have changed so much in such short time.
It's all thanks to you.
I knew when I saw you across our store that I had to know how it would feel to have you.
I knew I had to change something years ago. But seeing you gave me the push.
She didn't care
She didn't understand.
She didn't ever let me hold her or run my fingers through her hair.
But baby I feel like you care.
You never want me to let go.
And we both know how I feel about your hair.
I dreamed
It became reality
I can't express how much all of this means to me.
Having you, holding you next to me. I swear I'd give you anything.
Because I want you forever.
Because I want us to be each others everything.
You said you wanted forever.
You know just what to say.
Everyday it's you and me babe.
Yours always

I guess I can keep this up
Tonight is the last night I hope.
If these nightmares keep coming back, then I know I cannot be helped.
It's been so many years and it's always the same. I drive over a cliff and crash to my death almost every single night.
How much more can I take?
Dying every night
I feel lost at sea
No one is here to save me.
Will anyone take the time to talk and embrace me?

When my eyes glanced over,
I thought of what I'd give.
Everything I'd do
Just to get you.
To notice me.

I stood with my hands in my pockets
Like I always do.
Watching from my department
Basically staring at you.

I always wished I knew what to say
Just to get through.
Tell you all the beautiful things I
thought about you.
When I thought about what I wanted in my life
It always included you.
Tell you that my eyes are glued to you
Only you.

I just want to be put back together.
If the good die young, I will live forever.