Do you remember?
                       Looking at me.

Full of flaws?
               Yet still thinking I'm beautiful

What about missing me ?
               Even though it had just been 5 minutes since I left your sight.

... It's been nine months but I keep reminding myself it's only been 5 minutes and I'll see you Friday at 4:30 as I always do. However, we both know that isn't going to happen. You love her.

A long night of drinking lead me to the thought of you. I go on my phone and I find a picture of you and her. I begin to cry and look up at my cousin. I slur out "I wish he would have died that night in the hospital..." My cousin looks at as if I was insane. I nod my head, look down and continue "...so I could have been the last thing he tasted."

It's sickening and reminds me how weak I truly am when I know if you'd ever call id pick up and be there even though it was so easy for you to leave me.

When do you ever really sit and realize you've had enough?

I just hate you can't pick who you love
I mean at least let me pick who loves me. I keep hoping for those chills on my arms and that soft touch of your sweet,warming,soothing lips. The lips that once said "I think I might love you" I wish you would have thought about that might of been love before you loved her instead of me. It's almost insane how months can go by and you're still the only one id ever want.
I love you but you'll never know. Prideful and sadden and a little weak I still pray every night while I gather those pieces and hope for you to come back and be the guy that's been in my dreams every night.