Silence overcomes me,

my head throbs uneven beats.

Your laughter only makes it worse;

yet silence overwhelms and makes you curse!



"Why won't you talk?

Why can't you SCREAM!?"

My body hardens,

you caused this side of me.



Hurt is what you want,

you know it lives in me.

I will not satisfy this fact.

Why won't you let me be?



Love me now,

I am hurt you see...

I need you now,

...come be with me?



As I open my mouth;

sounds wish release.

My rigid body quivers.

Silent it wishes to be.



I try to tell you, baby;

I try to laugh for you.

Maybe my sweetened smile,

will again bring me into view?



My silhouette is darkened...

still silent i have stayed;

and silently I watch you...

as you loudly walk away.

Here I am,
alone tonight,
with open arms,
I welcome fright.

If only now,
you'd understand...
How desperately I need you...
hand in hand...

Awakened by the hopeless sight,
of tears,
depression,
what a delight.

Why can't you get it?
Why can't you see?
Deep, Deep Down...
You still need me...

But Alone I am,
in this dim place,
Dismally destroyed,
by your terrifying wake.

As waves crash over,
my body lies
I dream about,
those last goodbyes.

But here I am,
in a silent pen,
wishing, hoping,
of seeing you again.

My body washes on the shore,
so battered and forgotten.
Run along, don't see me there?
I am your lost correspondent.

Chimes!
They ring!
As warm, strong hands,
pull me from the water...

"Are you alright!?"
A soft voice sings,
shaking me from seaweed and sulfur.

I cough up blood,
I'm not okay,
I'm dragged back to the sea.

"Why!" I ask,
I've done no wrong,
You'll just have to believe...

I've barely come to life you see,
I've been lost in frigid waters,
snarled starfish in my curls,
as I in the ocean's daughter.

"Come along let's rinse you off.
For you have done no harm;
I will be here to protect,
For not will I, your prince, neglect your love..."

And as the waves crashed on my shore,
I have a helping hand,
to hold... to be the better man.

I believe you, I do.
I emerge,
refreshed
and renewed.

I can dance again.
Smiling,
I take in the sunshine...
Thank You.

For the rest of you darlings,
I imagine you drowned.
Feet deep in the ocean,
my curiosities arouse.

I'm okay though,
so thank you,
for pulling me through,
all of you did it...my gratitude swoons.

My singing is joyous,
my smiles are true,
happiness is endless,
and its all because of you.

Thanks.

Time counting down,
The ticking obnoxious.
The way it used to be,
weighing down on me so.

Unfortunately,
it's all i have left.
Time;
the memories.

Please don't forget,
those days long ago.
You're still here with me,
wherever you go.

I've been battered;
rejected,
hurt, and
abused;
but you?

You ruined.
You broke.
You bruised.

I want to move forward,
I want to renew,
be free, be in love,
But with you.

The clock ticks,
now it tocks,
what a waste,
just my loss.

Look back,
I see you,
my feelings,
abused.

If's are stupid,
wants are over-used,
I could have fixed it,
It could have been true.

Useless,
I'm worthless,
much too caring,
and kind.

And as this time clicks,
I'll die curled up in my mind.

I dry heave in sickness;
you lie on the floor,
screaming in hurt,
grasping at the wounds you want not bore.

Reflect;
there's a difference,
blood bathed and bare;
I as the only witness,
you soon will die there.

Remedial?
I doubt it,
was I sure?
Oh, You bet.

Drown as you lie there,
Hmm, better yet...
Scream at my laughter,
and quieter you'll get.

As silence takes over,
I'll clean up your mess.
My sick hatred darkens,
Since you are my stress.

I throw you away now,
your grime and your mess,
The blood quickly washens,
quiet at last.

...I awaken in sweat;
I scramble to the door,
grasping the telephone;
beeping, is the line that is yours.

I settle in knowing,
okay, you must be.
So i revel again,
in the monster in me...

I feel the world,
in how you feel.
the pain, addiction.
The whole deal.

Always putting me down,
that's what you do,
let go in my arms;
you know i'll hold you.

Lies;
that is all.
you'll Never trust me.
& I am left waiting.
My pinky is free.

So trust me
in anger,
in hurt,
& in fear...

Where am I going?
You said you knew that i'm near,
But ***** me?
The friend, who won't leave you in tears?

I get it.
You're beaten,
You're broken,
you're bruiesd.

So what?
We're together,
friends strong,
& friends true.

Walk away?
Never.
Relax, cause I'm here.

Forever.
I meant it.
I'll pinky it here.

We sing and we whistle;
my best friend and me,
together we live;
through our thoughtless singing.

We cry as time passes.
Inevitably,
As caged as we are;
We wish to be freed.

In songs we are flying,
unbinded, and
breathing,
in joy.

Then we come to;
the cage reappears,
I sigh in the moment,
falling? the tears.

Colorful blurs,
remarkable shapes,
I live in the moment,
completely unfazed.

Still we are burdened,
bruised in defeat.
we're giving up fighting,
we'll never be free.

Then I look over,
my friend is singing,
I feel so defeated.
Alone I will be.

I open her cage,
my small canary,
her little voice swoons,
as she happily, is free.

My friend is long gone,
my years have passed by,
sung I have not,
and alone, I will die.

Memories;
Unfocused and runny.
Your smile returns,
And so do my tears,
you laugh as it burns.

Always;
A lovely word,
on the hand written pages,
as all of your faces destroy who you were.

I turn away;
Holding your hand,
I explore on my own,
All the faces hold yours,
and I am okay.

A new page is written;
Cuts deep in my skin,
My mind looses its viberance,
the pendulum gives.

Rip out the pages;
Thats what you do.
I search in the many.
no traces of you.

Screaming;
Theres nothing.
No love in me to hold.
I'm hurt by the others.
How DARE you be so cold.

Gone;
A word,
which describes you;
and me.

Dried up pages;
Thats all there'll be.

I see you!
Do you see me?
Hidden behind the shrubbery.
I laugh, and I am found.

Look Up!
The plane zooms by.
We giggle and groan,
as we say our goodbyes.

WHOOSH!
The flames sizzle.
Consuming and tall.
Heads down, we pray for us all.

Licking our skin;
You've left your wound.
I ask you to heal mine?
Laughter resumes.

I am no more.
Hatred washed over me.
Can you not see me?
Flames block our broken paths.

As I walk down my road, I fall,
Hole after hole.
I trip.
Then, I see you there.

In a hole of my reflection,
I see you in my stream.
I give you food and water,
So you may soon be freed.

But up, i cannot get.
I struggle at the seams.
You pay no mind nor question.
Ghost-like I will be.

Pinch me if I'm joking,
Hold me til i sleep.
Cry if you must do so.
But let me die in peace.

I am red;
Screaming since Broken;
Pain obscured,
Your laughing, i'm dead.

I am orange,
Calming and clear,
You'll come when you need me,
You know I'll be here.

I am Yellow;
The sunshine that arose your day,
The Smile you wear,
and the price that you pay.

I am Green;
The grass that you sow,
Natures own way,
Of saying "Hello."

I am Blue;
Ice colored, speckled with fear,
If only you'd come back,
If only you'd been here.

I am violet;
The Turbulent reminder,
The shimmering gaze,
The Quiet reminder that was taken in haste.

I am the spectrum of colors;
I am stronger than you.
Brighter, and vibrent.
I'll outlive the truth.

The sunshines through the clouds;
I am born.

The warmth tingles on my skin,
the wind sweeps past,
the leaves sing their song,
and I lay back with a smile.

Content, I whisper:
"Inevitably I am,
and will be. You have no power,
Yet all the power in the world."

As I open my eyes
to the blinding sun,
The wind dusts a hair
from my cheek.

I dance in my love.
I am alone.

Lines cut clean.
the silence overwhelms me.
my pain develops;
raw and torn.

I wander up our shore,
Now, one set of footsteps,
I walk alone,
Against your echo in our waves.

The water burns,
salt rushes to the wounds,
Sand gets in,
the irritation sickens.

Hear me?
I'm screaming from your pain.
See me?
Curled up on the shore?

The silence overwhelms me,
Lines cut clean,
I cry for help.
I am alone.

Another me walks on your shore.
My heavy beat slows,
I succumb,
Vision blurs.

I am alone.
As the waves take me,
my footsteps fade.
I pray for you to not look away.

Eventually,
the sand moistens;
the waves crash;
I was never there.