Silence overcomes me,

my head throbs uneven beats.

Your laughter only makes it worse;

yet silence overwhelms and makes you curse!



"Why won't you talk?

Why can't you SCREAM!?"

My body hardens,

you caused this side of me.



Hurt is what you want,

you know it lives in me.

I will not satisfy this fact.

Why won't you let me be?



Love me now,

I am hurt you see...

I need you now,

...come be with me?



As I open my mouth;

sounds wish release.

My rigid body quivers.

Silent it wishes to be.



I try to tell you, baby;

I try to laugh for you.

Maybe my sweetened smile,

will again bring me into view?



My silhouette is darkened...

still silent i have stayed;

and silently I watch you...

as you loudly walk away.

Here I am,
alone tonight,
with open arms,
I welcome fright.

If only now,
you'd understand...
How desperately I need you...
hand in hand...

Awakened by the hopeless sight,
of tears,
depression,
what a delight.

Why can't you get it?
Why can't you see?
Deep, Deep Down...
You still need me...

But Alone I am,
in this dim place,
Dismally destroyed,
by your terrifying wake.

As waves crash over,
my body lies
I dream about,
those last goodbyes.

But here I am,
in a silent pen,
wishing, hoping,
of seeing you again.

My body washes on the shore,
so battered and forgotten.
Run along, don't see me there?
I am your lost correspondent.

Chimes!
They ring!
As warm, strong hands,
pull me from the water...

"Are you alright!?"
A soft voice sings,
shaking me from seaweed and sulfur.

I cough up blood,
I'm not okay,
I'm dragged back to the sea.

"Why!" I ask,
I've done no wrong,
You'll just have to believe...

I've barely come to life you see,
I've been lost in frigid waters,
snarled starfish in my curls,
as I in the ocean's daughter.

"Come along let's rinse you off.
For you have done no harm;
I will be here to protect,
For not will I, your prince, neglect your love..."

And as the waves crashed on my shore,
I have a helping hand,
to hold... to be the better man.

I believe you, I do.
I emerge,
refreshed
and renewed.

I can dance again.
Smiling,
I take in the sunshine...
Thank You.

For the rest of you darlings,
I imagine you drowned.
Feet deep in the ocean,
my curiosities arouse.

I'm okay though,
so thank you,
for pulling me through,
all of you did it...my gratitude swoons.

My singing is joyous,
my smiles are true,
happiness is endless,
and its all because of you.

Thanks.

Time counting down,
The ticking obnoxious.
The way it used to be,
weighing down on me so.

Unfortunately,
it's all i have left.
Time;
the memories.

Please don't forget,
those days long ago.
You're still here with me,
wherever you go.

I've been battered;
rejected,
hurt, and
abused;
but you?

You ruined.
You broke.
You bruised.

I want to move forward,
I want to renew,
be free, be in love,
But with you.

The clock ticks,
now it tocks,
what a waste,
just my loss.

Look back,
I see you,
my feelings,
abused.

If's are stupid,
wants are over-used,
I could have fixed it,
It could have been true.

Useless,
I'm worthless,
much too caring,
and kind.

And as this time clicks,
I'll die curled up in my mind.

I dry heave in sickness;
you lie on the floor,
screaming in hurt,
grasping at the wounds you want not bore.

Reflect;
there's a difference,
blood bathed and bare;
I as the only witness,
you soon will die there.

Remedial?
I doubt it,
was I sure?
Oh, You bet.

Drown as you lie there,
Hmm, better yet...
Scream at my laughter,
and quieter you'll get.

As silence takes over,
I'll clean up your mess.
My sick hatred darkens,
Since you are my stress.

I throw you away now,
your grime and your mess,
The blood quickly washens,
quiet at last.

...I awaken in sweat;
I scramble to the door,
grasping the telephone;
beeping, is the line that is yours.

I settle in knowing,
okay, you must be.
So i revel again,
in the monster in me...

I feel the world,
in how you feel.
the pain, addiction.
The whole deal.

Always putting me down,
that's what you do,
let go in my arms;
you know i'll hold you.

Lies;
that is all.
you'll Never trust me.
& I am left waiting.
My pinky is free.

So trust me
in anger,
in hurt,
& in fear...

Where am I going?
You said you knew that i'm near,
But ***** me?
The friend, who won't leave you in tears?

I get it.
You're beaten,
You're broken,
you're bruiesd.

So what?
We're together,
friends strong,
& friends true.

Walk away?
Never.
Relax, cause I'm here.

Forever.
I meant it.
I'll pinky it here.