I feel like I lost something. But I can't figure out what, or is it a "who." Whatever it is, I forgot the how's.

I can't sleep. I'm trying to remember what it felt like holding that thing again.. I can't remember. Maybe I forgot how it felt like to be whole, or maybe that thing was not really mine from the start. Oh my god... what if I lost something that wasn't mine? Is that even possible?

I'm panicking. I can't remember if it was myself that I lost. What if I never really lost anything.. what if I'm just losing myself..again. I don't wanna go back to being incomplete.

"Hi. Do you hear me? Can you read this? Have you seen her? She looks a lot like me...but happier."

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What can I say
that she's not heard before
so many voices are calling

Where can I find
every poetic word
so in my arms she'll be falling

How can I stand out
a face in the crowd
from all the others now showing

Coerce her eyes
till she sees no one else
gazes my way now are flowing

When will it be
till I'm all that she wants
another her heart, won't be stealing

What can I say
that she's not heard before,
so she will know how I'm feeling