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  Aug 2015 ani
Joshua Haines
Tortured people tell themselves the past never happened.
They sit and reminisce about memories that they created.

Their hands are brown and worn down,
looking like a sibling of the ground that will eventually be a tomb for their bodies.

The teeth are fake and so are the smiles.
Hair falls off like rusty leaves brushed by a breeze, warning of the death of winter.
Limbs turn into string, ******* hang, and guts grow; like pregnant, stray cats.

Whenever they die, their houses will be eaten by their children, and not even a piece of gristle or a picture frame will be left.

The house will be nothing but a sun-dried ribcage:
a discarded postcard with the address marked out.

The children will sit and talk of their parents, repressing the abuse and the inability to meet expectations.

The children will work in sterile cubicles, thankful that their hands will not be stamped by calluses, yet knowing their fathers would not approve.

The children will open up the dust-blanketed boxes and stare at old family pictures, not able to recognize the people who smile and have perfect posture.

The children will lay in bed with their spouses and say, to no one in particular,
'Why was it never enough?
What did I do?

Was it me?'

The children will be tortured by these words,
by lives that weren't in technicolor,
by the paranoia of being tolerated instead of liked,
by the anxiety that a paid-off house
and nice car couldn't alleviate,
by themselves.

The children will retire and will have realized that they worked their entire lives just to enjoy ten years.
Their hair follicles will let go of strands and locks,
like a dandelion being stripped by the wind.

The enamel on their teeth will corrode and, before long, they will be thankful for the sensitivity of their teeth because the coldness of senior-citizen-discounted ice cream will be one of the few things they will be able to feel, let alone put a genuine smile on their face.

They will sit on their recliners, stare at their keyboard-kissed fingers and tell themselves the past never happened.

Because that's what tortured people do.
Ashland, Wisconsin
ani Apr 2014
As the universe mocks
A cruel joke it plays
A hoax I keep falling for … I’ve learned to laugh in misery
Time after time after time... I hope it will be different, it’s not.

The hope for love
The hope for happiness
The hope of success
The hope for hope itself i have depleted fully

I know I can’t fight anymore
I know I don’t have the strength
The universe is greater than little old me
With it against me...

Against me I keep the fight
Against me I keep the fight
ani Feb 2013
Its sunday morning
My favourite day of the week
When everything is so perfect
And feels so warm, fuzzy and sweet

I always say I'll head to church
I never go so far
'Cause sweet heavenly slumber
Is all I long for, I just want more

Later in the day my tumy starts to turn
As I realise tomorrow is yet another dawn
They require hard work and focus
Both of which I've run out.

Sundays are sweet
But tomorrow I have to work to meet.
ani Oct 2012
My heart.... one with many lacerations
Only a tool
Many use it to get what they want
And I only a fool
I try to get out, try to brake free
I do this imagining that its up to me
But my heart won't let go and holds to foe

This nobody opens their eyes to see
No matter how much I complain
They all never see
No matter how much I show
They all never see
My heart, one with many lacerations
That may or may not belong to only me
ani Aug 2012
Every girl yearns for it, yet it doesn't exist
We search for it in the world around us
And yet we still find that it surpass us
Living in hope that we will find it or will we?

From everything to childish tales of vampires and wolves
To books of romance and fantasies that stacks upon a wooden stools.
Various relations and affairs with different women and men that claim to care
Searching through all the oceans, lands and its different types of air.

Some people claim to have found it, lived it and witnessed it
Even just for a single minute or a single breath of it is said to last a lifetime
Oh how wonderful it would be so intoxicating and ravishing,
drunk on love a wonderful feeling it must be To be loved, to be loved...all so...so irrevocably.

It is the type of love in Shakespeare  plays and sonnets
The type of love that cannot be described by a contemporary poets
The type of love that was once known to the earth in ancients times as being spread by magical creatures such as cupids
The type of love that makes you do so many things...oh...that will never occur to you as stupid

The type of love that does not exist
We search for it the corners of the earth yet there are none
Because we'd rather believe there are no corners than to believe that this type of love does not exits

So once more I ask does it exist
Like the type of kiss that pops your leg in a twist
Hopeful I remain at the aim of my desire
A love so strong, it would never seem wrong.
Very tired when I wrote this #dreamstatewriting
ani Aug 2012
Every girl yearns for it, yet it doesn't exist
We search for it in the world around us
And yet we still find that it surpass us
Living in hope that we will find it or will we?

From everything to childish tales of vampires and wolves
To books of romance and fantasies that stacks upon a wooden stools.
Various relations and affairs with different women and men that claim to care
Searching through all the oceans, lands and its different types of air.

Some people claim to have found it, lived it and witnessed it
Even just for a single minute or a single breath of it is said to last a lifetime
Oh how wonderful it would be so intoxicating and ravishing,
drunk on love a wonderful feeling it must be To be loved, to be loved...all so...so irrevocably.

It is the type of love in Shakespeare  plays and sonnets
The type of love that cannot be described by a contemporary poets
The type of love that was once known to the earth in ancients times as being spread by magical creatures such as cupids
The type of love that makes you do so many things...oh...that will never occur to you as stupid

The type of love that does not exist
We search for it the corners of the earth yet there are none
Because we'd rather believe there are no corners than to believe that this type of love does not exits

So once more I ask does it exist
Like the type of kiss that pops your leg in a twist
Hopeful I remain at the aim of my desire
A love so strong, it would never seem wrong.
Very tired when I wrote this #dreamstatewriting
ani Aug 2012
Every girl yearns for it, yet it doesn't exist
We search for it in the world around us
And yet we still find that it surpass us
Living in hope that we will find it or will we?

From everything to childish tales of vampires and wolves
To books of romance and fantasies that stacks upon a wooden stools.
Various relations and affairs with different women and men that claim to care
Searching through all the oceans, lands and its different types of air.

Some people claim to have found it, lived it and witnessed it
Even just for a single minute or a single breath of it is said to last a lifetime
Oh how wonderful it would be so intoxicating and ravishing,
drunk on love a wonderful feeling it must be To be loved, to be loved...all so...so irrevocably.

It is the type of love in Shakespeare  plays and sonnets
The type of love that cannot be described by a contemporary poets
The type of love that was once known to the earth in ancients times as being spread by magical creatures such as cupids
The type of love that makes you do so many things...oh...that will never occur to you as stupid

The type of love that does not exist
We search for it the corners of the earth yet there are none
Because we'd rather believe there are no corners than to believe that this type of love does not exits

So once more I ask does it exist
Like the type of kiss that pops your leg in a twist
Hopeful I remain at the aim of my desire
A love so strong, it would never seem wrong.
Very tired when I wrote this #dreamstatewriting
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