Justin Case

Dec 2014

DC raw love

Sitting in darkness
For I have nothing in me

What i thought was something
Is no longer to be

My thoughts are now lost
Since your now over me

Always wondering
Where you might be

Why did this happen
To happen to me

My feelings were fine
When they were mine

But when you took my heart
I can no longer start

To start a new life
A life of my own

A life that was great
Until you took my heart

Justin Case Dec 2014

What Is Happening

I saw signs of you twice today.
You appear and disappear like a faint smell on the wind.
Why do you have to do that,
Show up and disappear before I can even see you?
Leaving only traces of yourself for me to hold on to.
But at least I know you are around and still care at least a little.
That's a nice feeling, so thank you.
Would you mind staying around for a little next time?

Justin Case Dec 2014

Give Me A Sign

Can you just give me a sign?
Just a little one,
Just so I know you're still out there somewhere.
And that maybe you still care.

Justin Case Dec 2014

One More Chance

I wish I knew if you still read these.
I wouldn't blame you if you didn't.
But I write these mostly for you.
The ones I write for me you'll never see.
I write these hoping you will see them and be willing to accept me for who I am,
Knowing I made mistakes and that I am aware,
Knowing I want the chance to try again.
I know you aren't going to come running back into my arms like I dream you would,
But could you at least walk back into my life?

I miss our talks.
I know I have a special talent at messing them up,
But you should know I don't mean to.
I improve after each mess up, learning from my mistakes.
So if you could give me one more chance (or a million like I'll probably need),
I would be grateful.

But you've already done enough for me,
And I don't expect another chance.
I've already had more chances than I deserve.
But if you could find some way to give it, I promise I won't abuse it.
I will cherish it as much as I cherish you,
More if that's even possible.
I miss you.

I know everyone probably tells you to never talk to me again. I understand.

Justin Case Dec 2014

I Wish You Wanted To Come Back

Everyday I think of ways to get you back.
Ways that would make you smile,
Ways that would make you sad,
Ways that would make you regret, and
Ways that would make you feel guilty.

Everyday I think that maybe if you just saw me, everything would go back to normal.
Maybe if I just showed up to your house one night and knocked on your window,
Then you would see how much I still love you.
I could hold you in my arms again to show you what it feels like to be held by someone who loves you more than themself.

But I know that wouldn't help.
It would just make things worse.
Because I don't want you back if you're only here because you feel bad for me.
I want you back because you love me and can't live without me.

But now I know that you can live happily without me.
Too bad I can't live without you.

Justin Case Dec 2014

Why Did You Ever Want Me?

Was it the challenge that you were after?
You just wanted me because nobody else has ever had me?
I was unbreakable, nobody could get to me.
You just wanted what you couldn't have.
And after some time, when you realized you had finally truly gotten me,
You left, because the thrill of the chase was gone.
So you moved on to a new challenge.

Was it the lust?
I don't see how it could be, I'm not an attractive person.
But it seems that the times you miss most are the times that we were together for lust, not love.
And when my lust finally turned to love, you left.
When we no longer fooled around, you got bored of me.

Was it to brag?
Did you just want me so that you could say you were dating a senior, a track star, a guy that everyone liked?
But when you realized that I wasn't as amazing as you thought, you were disappointed and bored, so you left.

I've run every possibility through my mind, and they all make sense except for one little detail:
You say you still love me.
So either you are lying to me and making sure that you break my heart beyond repair,
Or you are confused.
Because if you love me, you wouldn't love him too.