What are feelings?
What are emotions?
I never used to know.
I couldn't cry, I tried to care, I didn't know what love was.
But you taught me what emotions are.
You taught me how to have feelings and how to express them.
Was it worth it? I don't know.
I learned to love, to have fun, to trust, and to hope.
You taught me what its like to be cared for, to be loved and much more
But on the other hand, now I feel pain and sorrow and anger.
I cry, I care, I love.
Was it worth it?
I guess I'll find out.

I just do see how I can do it.
But I will try my best.
I will do what I can to make it work.
And if I fail, I won't be any worse off than I am now.

17hrs left. Lets see how much I can sleep away.
Cool. 7 more hours.
5 left. What shall I do?
3 hours. This is taking forever.
1 hour.
45 minutes. I'm getting nervous.
30 minutes.
15.
10. Here it comes.
Its almost here. Will I survive?

I used to hate poetry, but I learned to love it.
I learned to love it because you did.
You expressed yourself and I loved what you would write.
But now poems are all I have left.
I don't have anything to bring me joy.
So I find myself writing more and more everyday.
Just hoping that you might someday stumble across them
And realize how much I love you.
So I will hold on.
I will hold onto my love for you,
My hope that you just might come back,
And last of all, to poetry.

I'm sorry.
For everything I couldn't be that you needed.
I'm sorry.
For not letting go.
I'm sorry.
I Love you.

That was harder than expected.
Why does it have to be this hard?
Shouldn't I be able to move on?
But I don't want to and I can't.
***** to be me.

Love cant even describe my feelings for you.
Other than you, I have no one.
Obviously I don't even have you now.
Maybe I should give up, stop hoping that you just might come back.
Perhaps I would be happier if I could just move on.
Love keeps me here though, waiting for something that will never happen
Even though you've put me through this, I still Loomple you <3