My world has been rocked
Shattered to the core.

But I'm still here!

All the failures of my life
**** past me
Howling like the wind.

BUT I'm still here!

The razor looks friendly
Offering me its bitter comfort
To let my sorrow pour out.

BUT I'M still here!

Depression sings
his posioned song
Wanting me for himself

BUT I'M STILL here!

Come close to the edge
My feet stepping over.
Staring down into the Abyss

**BUT I'M STILL HERE!!!!!!!!!

He told her to let him go
That he cant love her anymore
that it hurt to much
The chains around his wrists.

So the Angels ward let him go,
Took off the binding chains
Told him he could fly
To spread his tattered wings.

But to her he came back,
Telling her
I dont know what I want anymore

She knelt down at looked at him,
Her once fallen angel
Once the person who made her feel safe.

Do you want to be my Fallen angel again?
Because you know I will choose you
I will choose you every time

He looks at her,
His eyes lost and full of pain
I dont know what I want anymore

She puts her arms around him
The Fallen angels ward held him close
tighly in her arms.

I will always be here for you
No Matter what you choose
I'm not going anywhere
*its in your hands now

Paige
The only girl I truely loved
I held you close
Kissed your lips
Gave you my heart.

I was there when your step father
Pushed you down the stairs
I held you as you cried.
I was your refuge
when you were terrified to go home.

I was the only one to see behind oyur walls
the only person you let see the real you.
I held you close and never judged
all your "imperfection" making me love you more.

I gave you my heart
I treasured you so dearly.
I missed you feircly when we parted ways.

Then my little brother let me in on a secrect
Shattering my heart.

You SLEPT with my little brother
While I was fast asleep in the next room.

You had my heart in your hands
and you crushed it so blatantly.
HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO ME?

Didnt you realize you meant everything to me?
didnt you realize that I was falling head over heels in love with you?

Was it all just a joke to you?

My rage sees no end,
your betrayal is seared into my heart
Forever.

I know your life is spinning
so very much out of control
I know your grip is slipping
and you just want to give up and let go.

So I will step on up
and grasp your hand tight
you can let go for a while
Don't worry I'll keep my hold.

Let go and break down
Fall into a million pieces
When you're done
I'll pick them back up
and help you build back up.

I'll hold you
until you can stand up again
because in my arms you're always safe.

You are my sister
and I love you so dear
and I know its hard for you
To show all your fear

but know this please

I am Always here For you.

She smiles
her face stretching into a grin

Do you see it?
Her smile doesnt light up her eyes
like it should

She laughs
its sound bubbling into the air

Do you hear it?
The screams of pain
hidden in between the giggles.

She's Energetic
To hyper for her own good.

Do you notice?
The bags under her eyes
from her endless sleepless nights.

She's happy
Never in a bad mood

Do you realize?
the trails across her cheeks
Where tears of sorrow carved their place
searing themselves into her heart
like a thousand needle ******.

Do you?
Do you even care?

Mask On:*

happy
laughing
smiling
joyful
cheerful
hyper
perky
bubbly
proud
sparking eyes
Bliss

Mask Off:**

Tears
cutting
depression
suicidal
crying
hate
insecure
howling
emotionless
lazy
sleepy
despair

The mask is on
The mask is off

Which one will show tonight?

I've been away
or I guess not really
But I've been thinking
About who I am lately.

I've had the time to think me through
Go over every vessel
over every nerve cell
Everything that makes up me

I dug around in my brain
To figure out how I ticked
How I worked

Nothing I did
could have prepared me
For what was in store

I saw myself
truly saw myself
I started to cry.

I'm not the person I always thought I was
yes I'm annoying and childish
immature and "rude"
But there is so much more to me.

I have power held up inside me
With the tip of my pen
paper and below it
I have the power to help.

Not just with my jokes
and stupid scenarios  
But with my words of poetry

Someone Once told me
that I changed her life
with just 2 verses
that because of me
She's still here

So I will take off my court jester hat
and take up my pen
grab a fresh white sheet of paper
I will put myself to work

This is my revelation
This is the real me

I wont hold back anymore.
**I will let my words flow free

Your arms,
Your smile,
your voice,
everything just puts me in a place
i cant even explain.
When I see your smile
my knees get weak.
I close my eyes
and can not speak.