Loss Pain Love

Lost myself and now rebirth

Pain  Intense, sharp, so many pieces.
I slowly put it back together and yet
one more falls.  My heart has healed
but not the same.

Love  Love I loss sometime ago.  Did not
think I would make it but here I am

Can you really love again, do I want to?
Is it worth the pain?

This wonderful man, I warned him.
Do not fall for me!!!
He did not listen.

I fought so hard to find myself.  So scared to fall.

Falling hard, falling deep, so deep.  Is it
possible?  Is it real or wishful thinking?

So pure.  So intense.  So wild.  So much
my heart spills over.

Joy, pain,  want and desire.  Is it worth
he risk.  The unknown.  Scared yet
excited.

A man I have yet to meet, to touch,
to hold.

so much need.  So much want with a fear that brings physical pain in
my heart.  A heart i thought was dead.



Now its awake and hungry.  The need for love,
for desire, for fulfulment .

I dream about how it will be, how
it will feel, how he will taste.

This is the path I have chosen or should
I say chose me.  There is no fighting
it.  There just is.

He will complete me and fill me and I
will be whole again for however long.
Only the dogs know and they wont
tell.

Everyone has their idea of the perfect morning

My perfect morning is now
Sitting outside in the sun
Just me and the dog

The birds are singing
The air is sweet with a light breeze

I heard a pileated woodpecker
Watched the grey squirrels,
the blue jays, the black birds,
the crows, etc.
In the background is the baby crow and
baby black birds.

Perfect is it not?

So much harmony

Oh the pull of nature

Words are the emotions to the soul
They cannot be rushed
They must flow from the heart
With each beat more will be said
With each pausing breath more is felt,more is understood
and more is written

Feel from the heart, mind and spirit
With pen in hand,
Let it flow