to live freely
under the volcano of raindrops
is that even possible?
will we even get anywhere?
will you even look at me?
or will i simply fall and drown
suffocating and wilting my life away
where will i go then
if everything fades away
will i even be able to live?

insanity lost its sanity
everything that should have been normal
is now being cast away
whats done in the past
shouldnt be forgiven
to live life without living
surrounded by existing dreams
with nothing to look back at
and nothing to look forward to
time was the first and probably the last
to stir my slumbering soul
when everything unveils id be long gone
suffocated by the oxygen in which i breathe
if everything is purely bittersweet
not existing doesnt change a single thing
memories were all simple lies
and im merely a deception within dreams

that aching vulnerability; inviting without a trace of hesitation.

walls stood tall, withstanding anything that came its way.
guards laid low, waiting for someone to sneak their way.

*“oh run baby, run. please - save me from everything that hurts.”

a life which does not need me; merely drifting afloat, oblivious to seconds on the clock. stagnated waves and desolated voices danced without a care in the world - like a broken record wishing for time to stop.

trusting you despite knowing that you would lie
texting you despite knowing that you would no longer reply
loving you despite knowing that you would leave
holding on despite knowing that you would let go

reaching out despite knowing that you would never look back

dancing to the phantasmic rhythm
yearning for it to come - to drown me out
out of this world with every single beat
for as scarlet tears fade and scars remain

where do we go?
perhaps, to a happily never after.

nothing is more terrifying than being alive. it makes you feel things you dont want to feel - do things beyond your control.

*you werent given a choice to live; only a chance to die.