If I could fall
There would be arms at the end.
A light in the tunnel.
Windows, instead if doors.
My eyes would not open closed,
No sound would escape my world.

If I could hope,
I would never reach an edge.
Home cannot be made of paper walls.
So easy to burn through.
Start from underground.

If you could stay,
I might stop laughing at cuts.
Look again,
There's a horizon.
A group of clouds we had never seen.

If all of this were true,
I might have the strength.
To look at my hands and see them broken,
Crippled claws.
Who can grasp even sand without will.

Remember,
All know the truth.
Brush it off,
Burry it,
No matter.
It comes as it will.
The darkness that consumes all.

Did you forget?

I had.


Pleading,
Break down the door.
Begging,
Save someone.
Everyone else.
Myself.

Know this.
Prove what you know.
Another day
Hour
Come to see this end played out.
This application for doubt,
For shock that cannot be explained.
Maybe one day
Or hour
Comes to show we will play out
An our lives and give reasons for
doubt.
I warned you today.
I wish
I wish
I wish,
I could have.
Another chance, please rewind.
And give me reasons for doubt.
I could
Tell me to see truth.
Explain.
Maybe one day
Or hour
Would give us a chance
Please rewind,
For us.
Because I've done something that cannot be explained.
Maybe one would, would play out a role I deserve.
Maybe one would be explained.
Maybe one would be me,
To see but will not stay.
I deserve, but instead
Screamed.
Because you don't.
Left hand turns only end up working
For one of which of us.
Because you don't deserve any of this.
And I don't deserve any of us.
So much to see what will not say
I gave up working for one of us,
none of us.
But instead screamed
Because you don't deserve any of this.
And I can't see which of us
Lies dead now
I don't  see how to fix this.
I can't know how to fix us.

One day I felt that sleep would do me good, and that one day just never stopped.
Falling without feeling,
without thinking,
even knowing.
This steadiness sees nothing end.
A constant,
a stagnant,
there's no such thing as propulsion;
no say or do of any kind.
Just this bleak, empty void, that fogs up my mind.
Begingings must come for an end.
I'd stay there, just not here.
Next time I might know when.
You stood across, the corner's gaslight.
Watching, baiting, biding your time waiting,
tell me what you mean by those words.
But I can't ask.
I forget, I'm asleep.
That night is so long ago.
I'd wish it back here, replay the scene, in the doorway.
Change my words,
just this once.
One last time.
Instead, I'm asleep.
Stare into the white.
Stretch to see,
understand what you mean,
there is no possibility.

Something
Something, something
Something was here
That day you spoke
Maybe one day I'll see
Somewhere you'll go
Somewhere
Unknown
Because I can't say where here is
Not now that you've gone
Sometime, you might come back
Someday you may remember
That time
I would have waited
I wanted to see
And now,
There is no longer a Someday here for me.

Us together
Us against the world
Then you're gone
You had to be a hero in someone's eyes
Mine must not have been big enough

Enough said.

You don't say
That one day
We could just start again.
And
There's a chance
Our jaws could be unclenched
A hope for unraveling.
You don't say
Hope counts for nothing
Because it does.
But
We can't say
Because everyone knows
And no one can live if its not off of lies.
I can't say
Everything will be alright.
Why don't you tell me?
Save a breath
Skip a step
Knowledge of the truth hasn't brought us very far
Before.
So bet on broken knees and ****** jeans
It's a death march to the beginning.
Now
Run backwards after falling
And see what comes.
Stand behind this white line
Stare at the pavement
And believe.
They already left you behind.