You think the thick blackness under my eyes looks like
War paint.
Like I am going out to battle the world and defeat one and all
that dare stand before me.
You think this thick darkness under my eyes looks like
Attention seeking.
Like I am silently screaming for people to notice me
and come closer.
I only draw in those
enchanted by demons
in love with darkness
at home in the night.
You say that eyes are the window to the soul. You are right.
And I am shuttering mine.
But my war paint does not help me battle
the world
My war paint helps me hide the battles that rage
inside me.
I could cry
Wash it away.
Let it go and surrender
and then let you in.
But when you see me
I see myself, reflected
in your eyes
and my own verdict
is damning.

Like a rock in the sea, I'm drowning
The voice inside me screams for help
But my mouth ignores my mind
Nervous it will cause a fight
I'm scared of the people around me
Are they even people at all
They look at me strangely
What the hell is wrong with me
It's better to just run off and hide

I wipe away the tears and see my guardian angel
She holds out her hand and speaks such soothing words
'Dont be afraid of the people' she says ' I swear they don't bite'
Something changes inside me
I see the monsters all around me aren't monsters at all
They are just human
Just like me
M fear disappears and I'm no longer drowning
I'm swimming back to safety
Suddenly I feel alright