You’re a liar
I think I’ve known this whole time
And I chose to ignore it
But you can’t ignore it when you’re staring at it with your own eyes
I think the not knowing was better
The maybe he is
Maybe he isn’t
I’m done
I’m done with you
I’m done with all of it

I’m finally admitting it,
I’m not over you.
I see you in the halls,
I try not to look;
Not to make eye contact.
Every now and then
I’ll look you up,
Just to see how you’re doing.
So many things pop up.
I think it’s great,
You’re doing something that you love,
Even if I’m not a part of it.
I love seeing you so happy.

Everytime I think I’m doing better,
I’m not.
I have a good day,
Then a terrible week,
An empty and depressing week.
I have a good month,
Then I forget what happiness even feels like.
No matter how hard I fight it,
The darkness always comes back.
Maybe it’s time I succumb to it...

In my darkest hours
I want to talk to you
I want to reach out to you
Even though I know I can’t
I want you to tell me it’s alright
To tell me everything’s gonna be okay
I wish I still could
I wish you didn’t go away
Because now
Everything’s not okay

I wish I was a bird,
free to go wherever I want and get away from here.
I wish I had more time with you before I had to say goodbye,
I would’ve done so much more.
I wish you weren’t the reason I cried,
I wish you wouldn’t have left.
I wish I was stronger,
Maybe then I wouldn’t miss you so much.
I wish I was famous,
Would you finally pay attention to me?
I wish I could see you one last time,
Just to know you’re okay.
I wish I was hidden,
Tucked away from the world.
I wish I was your diamond,
Something you hold dear.
I wish you would come back, and never leave.

I found a broken person
And thought I could fix him
I was wrong.
He only got worse,
He spun out of control.
I was always there,
But he didn’t always want me.
He pushed me away,
And that was his downfall.
He grew increasingly distant,
Until he didn’t talk to me at all.
It took some time but I figured out why,
He was gone.

I look in the mirror what do I see
An empty person staring back at me
I get dressed up,
I try,
All for you.
I fake a smile,
Just so you think I’m happy,
You don’t know how hard that is.
What do you do for me?
You yell,
You get upset,
Only for me.
You don’t know how much it hurts me,
You don’t even care.
The things we do for each other...