S cape

S cape Dec 2017

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The news escape your grim lips like a parasite abandoning its host in search for another
Your words should have meant more to me, caused me to deteriorate, contaminate my brain
But enter me and leave me in an unchanging trance
I’m immune to the parasite, the transfer leaves me stable, or at least for now
The bloodsuckers have not entered my thoughtstream yet
They begin to claw at my skin, my eyes my mind
Begging for an entrance or some recognition
Once they successfully infiltrate, there is no turning back

The parasites amplify their determination
And multiply by the dozens
Your words soaked in venom, poison me slowly
I am unable to move, nor think, sometimes even breathe
It won’t take long for these bloodsuckers- no life suckers to **** me
There’s no antibiotic for this leech

S cape Oct 2017

Yellow

In the middle of my book, compressed is a portrait of you
My book shielding me from the image of you
Your notorious eyes, sinful lips, blowing a blunt to slow down the madness brewing in your eyes
Those same eyes that were my muse
They hold the same glimmer and sadness but have been replaced by the warmth of the sun
But It's October 7th and the sun is down
Im standing in the beach with the Waves drifting from my toes
Back in your room with yellow cigarette butts cluttering your floor
October night giving me chills to my bones
Warming myself up with a beer
The smell of whiskey weighing the air, masking the stench of the carcass laying on the bed
her perfume lingering on your sheets, keeping you company
And once again you're stuck in the cycle of lonely nights
with her perfume covering your decaying youth
And me reminiscing the color yellow

S cape Sep 2017

Loosened Grip Tightens

With the lights dimmed,
a pen in hand
I make an effort to loosen the grip your name has on my mind
With every attempt, my thoughts flicker like the flame of your lighter

-I wonder if you think of me:

This is a flame that needs to be put out.

My fingers tighten around my pen.
in my head your grasp tightens around her waist.
My efforts mean nothing
They seem to regress
Not only is your name etched in the most vulnerable graves of my mind
*But they've found a permanent place on these pages too

S cape Aug 2017

Loosened grip tightens

With the lights dimmed,
a pen in hand
I make an effort to lessen the grip your name has on my mind
But
With every attempt, my thoughts flicker like the flame of your lighter
I wonder if you ever think of me
I can't help but wonder
My fingers tighten around my pen.
in my head your grasp tightens around her waist.
My efforts mean nothing
They seem to regress
Not only is your name etched in the most vulnerable graves of my mind
*But they've found a permanent place on these pages too

S cape Jul 2017

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When it's easier to fall out of love than in
How am I supposed to believe this is a forever thing
When you claim you've been in love before
How do I know I'm just not another
When my words mean more to you than my actions
How can I guarantee the same conversation won't have you falling for another
Lust before love
One is expected not to last
The other
A forever thing
One that never makes it to forever
Not now not never not in the past

S cape Jul 2017

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maybe it is a blessing to be unable to capture the essence of the stars and moon in a photograph
to never have its value be lost through the lights of a phone screen
walking home alone with the illuminated sky to keep me company
that
that is a prominent thing keeping me alive

S cape Jul 2017

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where can i find maturity in a place where everyone is afraid of change