I saw you
& it was as if someone had finally pressed play on the movie that is my life
as if someone had finally turned on all the lights in my soul
as if someone had finally silenced all the chatter in my head
as if someone had finally cleaned off the dust on my heart

I saw you
& i knew that you were the person I had been waiting for
that you were the reason nobody else had ever remained
that you were going to be the beginning & the end of everything that I am
& I wouldn't have it any other way

because I've never felt so close to the sun
i've never felt so completely undone
then in that moment when
I saw you

I want to be born again
I want to remember what it's like
to feel something new
to experience something
for the first time again
endlessly I search
for that feeling
in other places
and fresh faces
but nothing I do
births the feeling of newness
I want to feel my face catch fire
with blushings from sweet nothings
whispered in my ears
I want to feel the beat of my heart
so loud and hard
that I'm afraid it will burst through my chest
into someone else's hands
I want to feel a love so fresh
it feels true & limitless
as I gaze into its beauty & potential
I want my feelings to rush forth
like the flood gates after a hurricane
to rush forth
like the Spartans army
on the brink of the battle field
to rush forth
like a forest fire of untamable desire
sweeping everything els in its wake
all the pain
the questions
the strife
that comes with life
swept up in the fire
in the magic
in the moment
of feeling something new

and i will run outta breath
before i run outta love
i can't be stopped by death
because i came from above
and i will run outta time
before i run outta faith
cause i can only see soul
when i look at your face

I can no longer do this dance with you
I must take off these worn out dancin shoes
my feet are tired
as is my heart
thought we had it this time
guess I'm not very smart
but for the sake of my heart
& for the sake of my mind
I'll let this ship sail
I'll leave it behind
after a certain amount of try's
you have to give up
what you thought might be love
was probably just lust
and now there's no one to trust
another one bites the dust
another lost chance
for romance
but move onwards I must

you are a fucken ******
wherever i go
whatever i do
you find me
or i'll find you

you are smothering me
like honey drowning a bee
or a boat eaten by sea
i can't breathe
i can't breathe

you are holding me back
like a slow heart-attack
or a large sidewalk crack
it's your knack
it's your knack

you are creepin me out
you are making me doubt
every swear, every slurr,
ever word you spit out

i can't shake the unease
your a sneak & a skeez
i can't stomach the ****
that you drop at my knees

you're a mess
you're obsessed
all you do is oppress
you disgust
have no trust
see your face if i must

but you scare me
and you wear me
and i don't think
that you'd spare me
standing at the cold end
i know you'd pull me in

i never dream
or at least i never remember
but lately
i can't stop dreaming of you
your like a ghost in my head
haunting my dreams
i don't wanna wake up
because when i close my eyes
we are together
we are making love
we are making laughter
we are making dreams
but then i wake up
and you fly back to your reality
and i am left waking in the cold lonely truth
that is my own reality
a reality without you
a life where our eyes never meet
where our lips never press
where our bodies never touch
how can i go on living
without feeling every inch of you first
how can i go on knowing
nobody's there for you at your worst
i should be that somebody

how can you crave something so badly
that's never even touched your tongue..
your an inextinguishable addiction
a hopeless love affliction
and i wont stop wanting you
until every part of you
has met every part of me
if i must move land and sea
together we will be

my ideal lover...
values the power of words
see's the hidden meanings
in my writings
becomes the flaunting beauty
in my writings
& becomes my enigma muse

my ideal lover...
can savour all the sweet nothings
i whisper through their lips
without getting a toothache
and with every move they make
with every stride they take
it has so much grace
it brings a tear to your face

you could write an endless song
of their endless beauty
of their every action
woven with pure intent
of their every thought
laced in innocence

my ideal lover...
will let me love them out loud
let's me be bashful and proud
let's me scream love sonnets
off roof tops
or whisper it
in coffee shops
they'll never get bored
of the words I bleed
because it's what their eyes
were made to see
it's what their heart
has craved to read
it's what there soul
was born to be