james tell me more for i am interested
especially the lines

the sun is not true light
and the dead are not dead

as you know i am a realist
yet in some moments i
see things too

vortex
spinning trees

once i felt i saw him walk in the room
my mother saw him too

or were we dreaming
the need inventing

please tell me more

while here it is grey
hopefully the lanes will
be quiet. for after writing
to you
i walk an hour

our allotted time
hopefully we may
get extra
for some evenings
i feel the need to
walk again

i thought maybe if the bottom hedge
were cut severely lower i can keep it
tidy myself
i am too short to reach the top

then i thought harder
and found my dungarees i bought from
the surplus over 30 years ago

hope to wear them
while working

james

do tell me more
i can keep things
private

you know me by now

it were a lovely day yesterday & yes
i mean the weather & though out freaking
early so were the others

she was having tea by the door we smiled
and waved

the farmer came his dog balanced on the feed bag
at the back

was that yesterday or another, the days merge
& i find it quite lovely

the duck was a teal with seven little ones
the real ducks were a flying formation
one left alone trying to catch up

planes flew over in clean air
i looked up

i looked at the picture perfect robin
perching cute on items of its choice

while each of the bird houses are
occupied while the corvid attacks
the plastic one bought for fun

each day, each day is nearly the same

while i like it
he thought
i may be depressed
what do you think james

i often get things wrong too
that is why i do not believe
what i thinks
no more

all in lower case
5+5=10
1=0 = 1
see

..day 54..

so we are ordering masks

even though we don’t go

out

even though on our

walk we see sheep &

other gentle creatures

even though it is not

recommended

we use our common sense

those with machines stitch

them at home

others have a template &

glue them

found fabrics & hope we

have sticky in tubes

some where

i am being gifted

while ebay will assist

instead of folding

handkerchiefs

yesterday i sawed wood

the blades are old so i

oiled them a bit and all

was easy

it is best to set the mind straight on things

before starting i find

it may be best to keep the sentences even

which i have not

it is different music

this morning

i dreamed they all wore white

the boys in sailor suits

james

not counting

funny old day
history reminding
finding
future holidays cancelled

fiddling in the garden achieving
**** all of any importance yet

the day passed and i found old
seeds to sow to
& hope they will
grow

found plants in the graveyard
sedum spread
so cleared a few flat gravestones
of the stuff
put in pots

read the inscriptions

was gived some wooden pallettes
for something
from the guy next door who wanted
rid

talked about soap with you

and it seemed a funny old day
all round
here

james

staying home again today

..day 52..

i left your name in once

in error

and she was so intrigued

i some times leave it there

some more

you may have noticed

 

as you noticed the soap affair
started early probably when

mum

bought a new one

 

look at the wrapper

look at the  image on the top

look a little baby walking

look a crown

 

will you like the wrapper for the smell

and the white paper underneath to draw

on

 

will you like to go to woolworths to look

at the soap and buy one for granny for

her birthday

she likes ashes of roses you know

 

round which makes it feel special

when our everyday is blocks

of yellow or green

yellow for our face and hands

green to wash the clothes

moving the stains

 

for the bathroom we had breeze

as i said before and the name is

a wonder and i cannot buy it now

 

those that have given me soap in boxes

i still have it for i am not worthy enough

to spoil it

only to treasure it

 

james

quite clean

day 51.

i told him that i think of him between
vanner farm and the wild garlic every
morning now
message him

i can walk the whole hill to hafod fach
round the corner and on by the farm
yard without stopping now

when before all this i could not

i can go draw here every single day
whatever i like

when before i did not

a bit a gardening i enjoy as does the robin
when before there was not a lot

my cupboards are tidy, orderly
before they were not

i found soaps kept in tins after the mouse
had chewed

now in the studio for the corona
project

i guess there has always been a thing around soap
it has always had importance, the names

breeze, fairy , sunlight showing my age
those with emblem of ownership
chucked out from the office years
back

cracked

i am finding the paris soap lathers lovely

yves st laurent

james

worth each penny

.day 50..

the flowers are corona as you know
now
they escape it seems
and spread about

i went back with resolve to be
untidy
then looked at the extra sleeve
and got excited

so back to the drawing board
hardboard

to work again on this corona
angel

joan
she is always joan
the other one

i like the word truck
he has one next door
full of things that
farmers need and
tied with bits of orange
string like farmers have

he strimmed that path yesterday
while i hung out the window to
watch the flowers die

we talked about the hedgehog
the evidence

food delivery arrived and
they forgot the chocolate

so i ate some icecream
it made me feel dizzy
james

50 days!

quietly