(april 2020)

..day 30..

another one has come along here recently
alongside the return of the grey thing, sweetheart

i call the new one tabby thing for now

while in llandudno the goats were on the beach
yesterday

instead of folk

we walked early yesterday hoping to be alone
the others had the same idea
we kept our distance
while calling over from
one lane to the other

there is one lamb with a black spot
shall we name him spot james for
these down the back lane have no
numbers

she told me back then that it does not hurt the sheep
all this intervention, cutting ears and the rest of it
she a farmer’s daughter
i am not sure i agree

(april 2020)

..day 29..

i am surprised that you are surprised
i watched him on my neighbours tv
for we did not have one

we had the radio rented

we sat on the floor & i think i was
supposed to enjoy the experience

i hated it
we went on tuesdays & thursdays

i prefered to watch the one in the tv
shop window on my own even though
there was no sound

on my way with the can to buy parrafin
for the stove

on checking the spelling find that one
can buy it on ebay
these days

i did not mind that
though i hated the
launderette also

i remember the boys doing things i knew
was wrong
without a telling

she said that we are doing the lockdown with grace
those like us
though
i have seen that some make their own rules
like as children

saturday

(april 2020)

..day 28..

not much happens yet a lot
happens each day

yesterday i turned at the cattle grid
counted to ten as always
turned to see that all is green

seems suddenly
i know it was
gradually

like gradually the markers came
maybe someone someday will
see them
suddenly

they say it is a holiday
with more folk about
so i will go early, used
to being solitary

four weeks &
there will be
more

i draw them in boxes now
solo

or family units

i change the cd
and dance where
no one can see

friday

(april 2020)

..day 27..

the day came hot & for a while i lounged watched the wildlife
with longer sentences that have little interest nor meaning
just letters strung together in batches

the moon came large and as pink as predicted ,no cloud
nothing to stop me thinking the various scenerios knowing
that all thought or discussion in entirety change nothing

so wearying reached for my phone and managed to get my asda
shopping slot next week

i like to be independant
though  i am not sure why

a habit come from necessity all those years

now comes the time of kindness, about time
so i too accept the help offered here and there

i explained the benefits to both parties
he agreed

so far the fire burns brightly , the ivy from the fence
and the iron shed i told you about
been at it a while and know that it will smoulder and
eventually consume it all

the garden incinerator
remember

i may go back now and poke it with a stick

april (2020)

.day 26..

nice when folks call and chat
though i understand the fear
on answering

my machine kicks in then
lets them talk to it so i can
take my time in
returning things

i phoned him yesterday
he still has little coal
& thinks the coal man
may just have closed
or decided to retire in
all this confusion, so
he may ask a councillor
for help and assitance

then walk up the back ***** to the top
levels where he can see right over to
where i live and wave

we talked about his drawing, neat
and time consuming.

mine is gestural
more immediate

does not matter how we are so long
as it suits us and hurts nobody else

so we carry on day to day
with chores & that keeping busy

when the weather is good we garden
meanwhile dust gathers in the house

while we we dust, the weeds grow in
the garden

i like some weeds
i tell him the names of flowers
how some are poisonous like
monks hood

tintin and snowy were on tv last night
i was too tired to concentrate

wednesday

the edge of reason, in the edge of sleep. almost amnesia.

lay gentle, slow remembrance of reality,

low noises from the window,

slowly starting hum

of traffic.



the air moves

on my face.



i turn

look past the curtain



see the face again



framed.

(april 2020)

.day 25.

i like the music, i like things subtle

not explained

to listen with no preconcieved

notion





my mum used to have a bike to

ride up  winton to shop it was

cheaper there

she said





i remember her bottle green coat

double breasted buttons

as was the fashion then



she balanced her bags from on handles

like you



i watched the film and remember

the boys doing some of that stuff

on the handlebars



one has a scar where he came off



the japanese knotweed man from

the next village was on the hill pushing

his bike

he told me that the shoots are edible

taste like rhubarb



i think i shall not bother



i watched him glide down the next

*****

thought

i will like a bike



people tell you where they live local

these days

look at those folk on holiday

in penmachno



the police were called



the geese went over early

tuesday