yes we had marg or dripping
and when there was butter
for a treat there was no jam
on top, nor honeywe had to eat the bread bit before
we got cake
or tinned fruit with carnation
milk
in those days

i bought butter as a friend was visiting
with buns

he watched while i spread it and remarked
that then there were local shops
so i says yes
corner shops

he frowned
and i says
well where i lived
they were mostly
on corners

we ate the buns nicely
with just the right amount
of currants
or are they raisins
in buns?

later the sun was out
and i rakes up the fallen
twigs and stuff and noted
that the council had not
taken the ******* from
last week

anyhows sometimes
while writing like you
thoughts drift into mind

days in lampeter
where we feel secure

and other stuff

birds already singing
6.20 am

small

we do not have those
we have hardly had any
this year only up the passes
here really

oh really it is quite warm even
without a wool coat

we used to play blow football
came in a compendium of games
at christmas

with little wire goalposts. it was
funny yet one brother took it
serious and got annoyed
at me

as always

he went to live with granny
eventually

the blowers smelled of plastic
needed breath
no gas

like yours .

briefly now
need to buy butter.

then

i wished i did not have to go
or be the things, the way they wanted

at this age it is mostly fine, except when
my mouth blurts things i hoped i had
only thought

it is a state of affairs

i write about those days sometimes, the
better bits mostly. nowadays i can do
mostly as i please being an adult with

my own choices

and not mind too
much if they think
i am nuts

some days i do mind
and feel sad

i am booked on a trip and find
some from the village coming
too

that feels a bother
i am used to the
company of strangers

being strange myself

yes, we have been indoors a while now





it has happened before, do you remember

that year the snow came & i had to have a

taxi to get there





how all the guttering & aerials went with

the weight of it

suspension springs snapped





then after everything was repaired





some words we google then change

the letters about to confirm with

that which is deemed correct



granny had special knives too, fish

and butter and some others. on a

rainy day she would let us play with them



i still enjoy cutlery



i am not called that, mine is more

the usual without the d, however

now he texts me i am abbreviated

into gma



which is cool



i am enjoying being in so much

yesterday i was already and coated

then saw the snow warnings on the

pass



so made coffee and ate malt loaf



the only  other issue being some virus

out there



another reason, should i say excuse

for staying home

with my google assistant

i remember the fog horn

we could hear it from

the house in green road

though miles from the sea

it seemed to me



liked hearing it while all

safe in bed

or thought i was

seems a fallacy

when no one is

safe really



though some are more

than others



seems i use some words

more than others

some not at all



we talked about corner shops

where we did the lesser shop

walked up to winton for the

rest

mum said it would be cheaper



then

sometimes she sent me down

the corner for the gas mantle

with warning not to touch

with it being so fragile

we moved when i was five



with no corner shop

no fog horn



i will be drawing

today

i notice this morning that
the work list is lost. though
it remains that i work sundays
unless i go on thursday or some
other day

she invites me to walk as we
have done before. i opt for
having a coffee instead

i like to walk quiet, to look
at things and remember them
so shall go alone

in london the irish man asked
for my number.

he did not ring. i guess he lost
it too.

i have been drawing
again

we have localised in that i am near
the estuary and the water flows up
with the tide and down at otherness

floods with the rains
over the fields so geraint moves
the sheep accordingly. one year

it all came suddenly and no one
prepared and lots were lost down to
the sea, cattle too and some sheds
and garden ornaments

the bridge came loose from the next
village , broken came down to jam
on penmaenpool toll

presently the worst of it seems to
be south wales and shropshire with
homes all under

water gets everwhere

today snow is forecast and while
prepared we come unprepared
and the roads over the mountains
gets icy
so some of us stay home

i am undecided this morning

at this age i feel it is my choice
and am not bothered on appearing
flaky

joan often appears even in hair cuts
yet always alive and still hopeful

i already have the star for bravery