Could I please forget about times past
I live there everyday
The sickness in my soul wells up
Until I cannot hold it anymore
I want to move to a better place
But I'm afraid of risking my heart
These things too valuable to give up
Yet much too difficult to give in
I'm a sensitive being
When I truly think it through
I just want to experience life
Sinking into someone's thoughts
Is it so hard to believe
That someone could love me
I swear (I swear)
I may bark but I will never bite

I am sick of feeling this
Helplessness
Loneliness
Utter unhappiness

No one could ever know me
God
Stop giving me hope
I don't want it anymore

I just want you to kiss my cheek and hug me one more time when you're wearing my favorite cologne of yours.

Why are the memories of that day and week etched into my brain?

Your house was colder than ever and you always had the AC on high.

I try to only think about orchids, Star Wars, and fish, but I mainly remember drugs, alcohol, and guns.

All I can tell myself to stay sane,
Is that the moment will pass. It will end.
It will be okay.

It just really ***** dude
How all I want
Is a brother
A guy to listen to me
I had the perfect brother
He's been gone
Only a year
And it gets worse
Every single day

If forever is what it'll take,
Can you really wait that long?
You already have perfection,
So why does this mean so much?
I know what you want.
I know what's in your heart.
You love so much.
You hate so much too.
I can't give you this,
Not till you grow up,
Till you give up your hate.
And that's up to you.