always choose you want to be with;

who always be by your side;

choose the man or women wisely;

because they are gonna be the one who stay by your side;

to love you;

to support you;

think before you do;

and

think before you speak....

first of all I never had a chance to say thank you for everything before you did said to me that but thank you for everything that what we've been gone through enough..

we've been leaving so happy for the 4 out of 5months together, knowing you for almost a year now but we ended early, you giving me full of happiness, full of jokes, full of loving you more every each day. but I will never regret meeting a guy who is so wonderful and perfectly good to me.

every moment I will cherish it, you will always in my heart till now, even Im not by your side forever, I will think of you, thinking every memories with you, thinking every words that I never had a chance to say to you from start to end but its alright .

I have so many millions of words to say it to you but I cant...
we end with a very good last date, last movie, last eating together, last meet up, last outing, last transport ride, last hug and last kisses...

Thank You so much,
Dont ever come back
because im so **** happy right now,
dont come back and text me
and you seen and go Mia again
just dont
you stay there do your life
and I stay here doing my life

DONT EVER COME BACK
AND TALK TO ME
THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING
I DONT NEED YOU

imagine yourself,
seating alone in lonely black empty room.
listening to the echoes,
thinking and wondering why,
you cry to yourself,
and you feel super lonely.

how I wish I could read
what's on your mind,
what's in your heart,
trying to think
and
trying to feel.

talking to you is way different,
talking to other people is way different too.

who can I choose to be with?,

I want to choose you,
but I'm undecided yet,

everyday I kept pray and pray,
to show me the right path,
but it's undecided yet again.

no matter what I'm trying not to give up again.

maybe I want to choose you over him.

what if him come back again,
but I still going to choose you.

maybe yes or maybe not.

You cant hide feelings,
Even you already show them;
But;
Theres no move or respond;

You thought that it will work;
With doing something;
But no;
It wont;
Because that person will never want to make a move;
Even you did show them;

That person shows nothing;
question mark?;
Who has been question mark which is you!;
Not that person;
Because you've been wondering and asking;
It to yourself a question of why, what and how?;

........... to continued ..........

at times,
day or night
summer or winter
silent or noisy

we feel lonely
with full of sadness
in our mind

where we need to take
Time,
to cool down our mind off

thinking when does this
feeling and pain want
to end.

listen to sad songs,
just makes you sinking
more and more..

the man that you love is your ex
but he still have feelings for you
even after 6 months than he came
back in your life again.

he can't move on,
he kept dream about you,
he kept thinking about you
but so do you also did the
same thing as him.

the only way is both parties have
chance to be back together
but we as a women
feel the hurt again and again before.

you trying to open for someone stranger,
but your ex came back to you again.
that stranger are the same thing as your ex
chasing you but you don't know which one
to choose
but obviously you gonna choose your ex because
you love him so much and you love everything about him
you even can't move on even you tried
you tried to be happy from the outside
but from the inside your sad and hurt as hell..

and now you don't know whether your ex still
wanna talk to you or not.
and you are still waiting for him,
how busy is he.
you are still waiting
like a mad women but
you're being patient and calm...
always remember that

you are so confused and lost,
the only thing is you don't want to hurt both side
and remain them as your friends.

your heart just lost and wondered around..

to be continued....

Every night you have to think
How badly hurt you are
How badly disappointed  you are
its because you've gone through
What you gone through before

Every night you have to be so sad
Thinking of your old love
And how badly they hurt you
And how badly they make you cry
Its because they leave you when
You love them so much

You trying to find someone new
Trying to find someone to replace them
But its a wrong idea of doing that
You wont get happy by doing that
You're heart will feel bitter
Because you keep thinking of that person
Even during lonely nights

You just feel like letting the nature take its course.
You don't wanna do anything with it
Because you are tired of trying and chasing of it...

I just don't  want to set any high hopes with anything

Every night,
I think of you

Every night,
I smile because of you

But until now,

Every night,
I stop ...